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Chu Cheng felt his mood become dull again, like a river hiding under the surging river, suppressing the restlessness under the water, "Let me find a car." He said, "You would have been sending me into the car before leaving."

Ji Qingzhou wanted to say that it was the past, but after opening his mouth, he didn't say it, but walked out with him. Chu Cheng is different. Ji Qingzhou has always been very clear that he can refuse others one after another, but he will not refuse Chu Cheng.

He was the first person he liked. He felt love and tenderness from him. His love for Chu Cheng was different from his love for others. When he came to this world, the first person he met Chu Cheng, and the first person he felt safe and relieved was Chu Cheng. He relied on Chu Cheng, and he had no attachment to others in Chu Cheng.

What does Chu Cheng look like? Ji Qingzhou thought that he was like the sunshine in the clear sky and met the rainbow in the evening rainy weather. Love only has one color, but he left too many feelings on Chu Cheng, so Chu Cheng was bright and colorful. He couldn't bear to let these colors fade away, so he couldn't say too hurtful words to Chu Cheng, and he didn't want Chu Cheng to feel uncomfortable because of him.

Forget it, Ji Qingzhou thought, I don’t know how many times I’ll meet in a year in the future. This is not an excessive request, so I promise him. Anyway, I won’t meet soon.

He accompanied Chu Cheng out of the elevator and walked forward. Chu Cheng turned his head unconsciously to look at him. Ji Qingzhou lowered his head and looked very gentle on his side.

"How are you doing these days?" Chu Cheng asked him.

Ji Qingzhou nodded, "It's pretty good."

"After you answering, don't you ask me back?" Chu Cheng laughed, "Along the way, what do I ask you, what do you answer, concisely and to the point, don't say a word, don't you ask me back, do you care about me?"

Ji Qingzhou didn't expect him to say that. He couldn't help but look up at Chu Cheng. Chu Cheng looked straight ahead, not looking at him, but there was a self-deprecation on his face that had not yet dissipated.

Ji Qingzhou followed the good side and said, "What about you, are you doing well?"

Chu Cheng was silent for a while and said softly, "It's not as good as you."

Ji Qingzhou's heart beat hard, Chu Cheng turned his head to look at him, and he said, "You really look good, then do you think I look good?"

Ji Qingzhou looked at him, but he couldn't see it. He never understood Chu Cheng. He thought Chu Cheng liked him, but Chu Cheng let him go. He thought Chu Cheng didn't like him, but Chu Cheng said he was not doing well. His expression was indeed a bit solemn, not as energetic as before, but why did he think Chu Cheng's bad life was because of him?

Perhaps it was because of him, but it was just because he refused his care and care, so Chu Cheng was not used to it.

"Is it because of me?" Ji Qingzhou asked him, "because I rejected your care and care?"

Chu Cheng didn't say anything.

Ji Qingzhou looked at him, his voice was very quiet. He said, "Chu Cheng, you have also seen that I am living a good life now. Even without your care and care, I can live a good life. So, you don't need to think about me like this. I am an adult and I have the ability to take care of myself. If I really encounter any problems that I can't solve, maybe I will still ask for help, but most of the time, I can live a good life by myself, so don't worry about me all the time, okay?"

His tone was very gentle, and even a smile in his eyes. He said, "It will be difficult to get used to this kind of thing at the beginning, but as you get used to it, you will gradually get used to a new life. I am very grateful for your continued consideration for me. You hope me is good, I hope you are good, I also hope you are good, I don't want you to live a bad life because of my bad life."

Chu Cheng stared at him in a daze, looked at the tenderness in his eyes, and asked him, "Do you also think that my care and care for you are just because of habit?"

"What about that?" Ji Qingzhou asked him.

Chu Cheng opened and closed his teeth slightly, almost asking him, "Maybe he likes it?"

However, he just looked at Ji Qingzhou and didn't say anything.

Seeing that he was silent, Ji Qingzhou walked forward naturally. Chu Cheng walked beside him and kept asking himself, "Do he like Ji Qingzhou?" Does he love Ji Qingzhou? Is he willing to be with Ji Qingzhou all the time?"

They walked to Chu Cheng's car without long, and Ji Qingzhou said warmly, "It's here."

Chu Cheng said "yes".

"Then I'll leave first, be careful on the way, goodbye." Ji Qingzhou still looked gentle and gentle.

Chu Cheng looked at him, and as the moment he turned around and walked back, he reached out and grabbed his arm, took a step forward, and hugged him.

Ji Qingzhou was stunned.

Chu Cheng hugged him, without saying anything, just felt peace.

He felt all his irritability and dullness dissipate at this moment, and his heart calmed down, soft and quiet. He hugged Ji Qingzhou tightly, hugging him little by little. He was so familiar with the people in his arms that he even kissed his shoulders, neck and spine. He was obviously so thin that he could feel the other person's bones, but he still stubbornly wanted to use his thin body to support his own sky.

He is obviously not a very strong person. When he is injured when fighting with someone, he will shout pain and ask himself to apply medicine gently. Why, at this time, is he so strong? Even if he is using himself, before he reaches the peak of the entertainment industry and before his mother fully recovers, wouldn’t it be better to use himself to make his path smoother?

Why bother to draw so clearly the boundaries with him?

He held Ji Qingzhou, murmured his name in a low voice, and called him gently and distressedly, "Zhouzhou."

Ji Qingzhou's heart softened instantly. He unconsciously clenched his fists, not pushing Chu Cheng away, nor hugging him back.

He whispered, "This is the last time, Chu Cheng, don't be like this next time."

Chu Cheng didn't say anything, letting go to see him slightly, Ji Qingzhou lowered his head, unable to see clearly.

Chu Cheng lowered his head to kiss him, Ji Qingzhou slightly turned his face and avoided his kiss. This was the first time he refused his kiss. Even when they first met, Chu Cheng would not hide, and he would even hand over his other face with great care, and would tactfully remind him that he could kiss him.

But now, he refused Chu Cheng's kiss, and he said, "Don't do this, it's not appropriate."

Chu Cheng stared at him quietly without saying a word.

"You should let me go." Ji Qingzhou said softly.

Chu Cheng stared at him without blinking, but did not let go of his hands holding Ji Qingzhou.

"Let go." Ji Qingzhou reminded again.

Chu Cheng didn't let go, and he still looked at him.

Ji Qingzhou looked up helplessly at him, staring at him with his eyes, and said stubbornly, "It's time for you to let go."

Chu Cheng looked at his black and white eyes, not understanding how he could let himself go again and again without any psychological burden. Does Ji Qingzhou like him? He thought, if he liked it, why could he let him go so stubbornly, draw a line with him so resolutely without hesitation. But if he doesn't like him, why didn't he push him away? He obviously only needed to push himself away to leave, but why did he let himself go again and again?

Why didn't he push him away first?

"If you push me away, you can leave naturally." Chu Cheng looked at him, "I don't need to let go. As long as you push me away, you can leave, right?"

Ji Qingzhou was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect Chu Cheng to say such words. He stared at Chu Cheng, a little stunned and a little uncomfortable. He unconsciously lowered his eyes, covering up his sadness at this moment, but his heart couldn't help but feel a little sour.

He had never pushed Chu Cheng away. Whether during the contract or now after the contract ended, except for Chu Cheng who wanted to drive hard at the beginning, he never refused him at other times, Chu Cheng wanted to hug or kiss, or even do other things.

He liked Chu Cheng so much, so he couldn't bear to push him away. But now, Chu Cheng asked him to push him away.

Ji Qingzhou's eyes were slightly hot. He stood there, trying to raise his hand but couldn't lift it up. If he could push Chu Cheng away, he would have pushed him away as early as when Chu Cheng hugged him. It was still the time to this day. He suddenly felt that Chu Cheng hated him very much. He obviously hugged him, but asked him to push him away. It was clearly the time limit he set. He said he didn't like him, but he still had to entangle after the contract ended.

He was gradually adapting to the life without Chu Cheng. He had already put away his heart and just wanted to live his current life well, but Chu Cheng still had to make things difficult for him.

Ji Qingzhou felt wronged, but more uncomfortable. He slowly raised his hand and advised himself that they would always come to this point, from verbal rejection to physical rejection. Even if it was not today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, one day in the future, he would push Chu Cheng away and tell him, "Let go."

Since he was separated and should have been completely broken, he should have rejected Chu Cheng's care and care verbally, so he should also physically refuse Chu Cheng's contact.

He should have pushed Chu Cheng away, but he should have pushed Chu Cheng away when Chu Cheng hugged him.

Ji Qingzhou raised his hand and didn't look at Chu Cheng, trying to push him away, but before he could touch Chu Cheng, his hand was grabbed. Ji Qingzhou looked up in surprise, Chu Cheng looked at him, he held his hand and stopped him from moving.

Ji Qingzhou didn't understand what he wanted to do. He was him who pushed him away, and now he was him who held him. What exactly did he want? He couldn't see clearly, so he struggled in Chu Cheng's hand, trying to break away from Chu Cheng's hand and push him away, but Chu Cheng held it very tightly and he couldn't break free at all.

"What are you doing?" Ji Qingzhou was angry and helpless, "You asked me to push you away. What are you like now? Chu Cheng, let me go."

He said and struggled. Chu Cheng felt his movements, held his hand slightly and hugged him tightly again, holding his hand tightly.

Ji Qingzhou raised his other hand to pull him holding his hand, but heard Chu Cheng whisper in his ear, "Don't push me away, don't push me away, Zhouzhou away, I was wrong, I shouldn't say that to you, I was wrong, can you forgive me?"

His voice was very low, with depression and pain. Ji Qingzhou listened and stopped his hands.

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