Volume 6: I heard that it was love (6)
After calming down for a while, Lin Yingkong got a lot of food and treatment medicines. Although he understood that it was useless and that the history he had already established could never be changed, he still couldn't stand to let his minister suffer when he could see it.
As soon as he thinks of Feng Rong's small and thin appearance now, he feels so distressed that he can't stand it. He wishes to bring all the most precious and beautiful things in the world to him and turn him into the tall and confident minister in one breath.
When Lin Yingkong returned to the room that seemed to collapse under the heavy sky, the small dark leopard had already changed his mother's clothes and wiped away the mud and blood from his body. The pale and crazy woman lay there with her eyes closed, even in a coma, and there was a trace of resentment between her eyebrows. She hated the world and her only son.
When he saw Lin Yingkong coming back, the dark leopard's performance was stunned for a moment. He seemed to have been used to losing everything and never come back. He was still too far from the calm and composed minister in the future. Facing the strange guest who suddenly returned, his surprise had no room for concealment - he seemed to never believe that anyone would return to him after leaving.
"Why are you looking at me like this?" Lin Yingkong felt sour and soft in his eyes. In fact, he didn't know why Anlei looked at him with such eyes. After a while, he thought of putting down the big bags of things in his hand, then found the soy milk and meat buns and stuffed them to him, and said, "Eat something. You haven't had a rest all night. You must be hungry. Eat this, well, this... If you have fried dough sticks, eat it quickly, can you sleep for a while after eating it?"
Lin Yingkong said to him while stuffing something to him, his voice was as gentle as the minister he was thinking about in the future. The dark hole was a little unrestrained, and then he became even more stunned. Lin Yingkong had a moment of at a loss in his seemingly gentle behavior, so he had to close his mouth. After confirming that the woman could not wake up for the time being, he sat on the steps in front of the room with the dark hole, and both silenced to eat the late breakfast.
The sun was already rising very high, shining warmly on the earth, climbing up to the human body, entangled with each other's heat transfer, but the dark leopard still seemed very cold. He mechanically ate food that was supreme food for him on weekdays, with pale face, and the blue and black bruises that were not known to be beaten or dropped were becoming more and more obvious. Lin Yingkong pretended to touch his face inadvertently. The cold temperature almost made him unable to help holding the thin boy in his arms. Unfortunately, he did not have this qualification for the dark leopard now or the minister of the spiritual law enforcement department in the future.
"Are you okay?" Lin Yingkong asked after holding it in for a long time.
"Am I?" The dark lance asked in confusion, as if he didn't understand why he asked this. He mechanically drank the soy milk and said, "Oh, I, I'm fine."
He said this, but it was not the kind of strong mind or pretending to be calm in the future, but a kind of empty and helpless cowardice that could only let go. He was like a timid mouse, snatched away by a powerful beast. The piece of meat he finally took into his mouth. Not only could he not declare war on the beast, but he squatted in the corner with a hungry stomach, trembling in vain, comforting himself in vain, because he had become accustomed to such a life until the day he was starved to death... Lin Yingkong didn't want to describe the most beautiful person in his heart like this, but unfortunately the dark worm in reality only gave him this feeling.
"Are you really okay?" Lin Yingkong asked again. In fact, he didn't know if he was disappointed that Feng Rong was so easily defeated. He had a strong urge to stand up strongly - but perhaps he was disappointed that he was obviously the closest to Feng Rong, but he never found where his almost sharp defense came from.
The dark leopard smiled at him, although it could only be considered a weak tugging on the corner of his mouth, "I look bad?"
You looked like you had fallen down. Lin Yingkong thought so, but didn't say it, just said, "Sleep for a while," paused slightly and added, "I won't leave, I'll be with you."
The dark leopard didn't listen to him, just held half of the meat bun in his hand and sat there blankly, staring at a point in front of him with vain. The excessive forehead hair drooped down due to a slight vibration, covering half of his eyes gloomy. At this time, he looked very similar to his mother. The world-weary and powerless emotion was vented from the eyes of a woman and a boy without reservation.
"Mom always thought it was my fault," Milei used this sentence to make her opening remarks. Her vocal cords seemed awkward and hard because they had not been used for a long time. "Actually, I also think it was my fault. From the beginning, I shouldn't have appeared in this world."
Lin Yingkong frowned when he heard this. He felt strange and excited because his minister would actually tell others about his feelings. This may be something Feng Rong, who wrapped himself in a strong shell, would never learn in the future, but he also felt a little unhappy because of his negative words - every life needs to be respected, so where should it not be?
"I am an unknown child with an unknown father. My mother was pregnant before marriage and refused to tell me her real name. Until now, I don't know what my surname should be," said the same thing when Anlei introduced herself. It was somewhat formulaic, unlike his own original words. It seemed like someone often reminded him in his ears, and he was not as mature as a child. "My name is Anlei, but my mother said that this is a pseudonym, and she has not told me what my real name is yet."
Lin Yingkong was stunned. He knew that the minister's family was made of pseudonyms, but at this time the underworld was at least... Well, he was ten years old, didn't that woman tell him his real name yet?
"Actually, I don't think she planned to name me. Who made me a person who shouldn't have appeared?" Dark Leoping lowered his voice slightly, as if something was blocking his throat. "I heard that the man was my mother doing a task... Well, I met him when she went out. I had me in three months and one night... But he left, and he left without anything except me."
This man is from Baili family, Baili Mengyan's personal father. He was still with the dark port's mother when he already had a wife. They met in a mission of the alien ability. After the mission was over, everything ended...
Lin Yingkong recalled the fragments of the truth he knew and opened his mouth. Then he found that the dark leopard actually didn't need him to comfort him. He just needed someone to listen to him, so Lin Yingkong decided to shut up and piece together Feng Rong's memories bit by bit. After that... he always had a way to heal these scars and despair of the past.
"Mom loves him very much... Love, that's what it means. Mom should love dad, and parents will love their children," Anlei pursed her lips. When she said the word "love", his tone showed a subtle change, and a ray of light flashed in her eyes. It was not said that it was longing or confusion, but the next second his eyes dimmed again, and no trace was left behind. "But Mom loves him, she doesn't love me...he must not love me either."
Lin Yingkong spent a few seconds to distinguish the "he" from "her" in the boy's words, and found it incredible - that man would not say it anymore. As a mother, why wouldn't he love his son? In terms of vulgar and disgusting words, dark leashes are the crystallization of their love, right?
"Actually, it's not their fault, it's my fault." The dark leopard repeated the topic again, and paused for a while until the sun that continued to climb up exposed the warm light from the gaps in the eaves to his eyes. He couldn't help but squint. This action reminded Lin Yingkong of Feng Rong in the bus station of the Yaodu. He also made the same move. When talking about his past, Lin Yingkong thought he was avoiding the sun. Now it seemed that this was more like avoiding any unbearable burden.
?——So these pasts have always been with Feng Rong like a shadow and never dissipated?
"You are just a child. Only adults in this world will do wrong things. You don't have time to do anything. So don't think too much. That's not the responsibility you should bear." Lin Yingkong couldn't help but speak and said softly. He didn't know if there was any special feelings in his voice, because the dark leopard's eyes suddenly looked over were filled with surprise.
"No," the dark lance shook his head, "You just don't know anything," he raised his lips again. Maybe he was self-deprecating, but the muscles on his face could not match his expression, making his whole face look extremely weird. "You heard it, right? Mom called me a demon. I am indeed a demon. My existence ruined everything about her, everything."
"You are just a child," Lin Yingkong insisted, his words were cruel but very real, "You can't do anything."
Chapter completed!