[There seems to be something in their eyes that I can't touch, something as precious as diamonds - for one spring, how many people died in these sixteen years of winter.]

[I began to have frequent dreams, dreaming that Lewis was walking towards me outside the garden villa - that was the closest distance between us. After that, the chasm opened up between us. 】

【But how can I possibly understand "love".】

【what is love?】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[I suddenly remembered that if I achieve my final mission in the future, Lewis will hear this resonance, and I cannot bring too many negative emotions to him. 】

[Lovis, in the following days, all my words are just to tell you. 】

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[Lovis, I saw roses today. Although they are wilted, they are beautiful.]

【Where are you at this time? I really want to take you to see it.】

[After thinking about it carefully, you lost all the flowers I gave you. It’s better not to regard it as a gift.]

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[Lovis, the Fuyuan Festival is coming soon. This year’s Fuyuan Festival is very lively. I passed through several small towns, and the streets were full of colorful strings.]

[I have learned the Chinese character Longguo very well. When can I see you again? I want to bring you more than a hundred Spring Festival couplets I have written over the years.]

…

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[Lovis, I started shooting myself.]

【But I feel nothing, no warmth, no love.】

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[Lovis, I made a bracelet with the stones I picked up. It’s a bit ugly, so I kept it for myself.]

[I learned to make a dish of braised strawberries in oil. It didn’t taste good, so I ate it all for you.]

【Maybe give me a little more time and I can learn it.】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[I shot myself a few more times, and suddenly felt warm in my heart.]

[It seems that this empathic method has finally worked. I think I can try other methods of self-harm.]

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[Lovis, it snowed heavily today. I remember that you were most afraid of the cold and the rain. Where are you now? Are you missing the lucky guy named Lu Shu? 】

【I really envy him.】

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【Today I found a pot of Fructus Auricularia root, which looks very good to care for.】

【I want to give it to you.】

【I'm afraid you won't like it.】

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【It’s almost the last year.】

【Walking on the road, I heard the sound of the wind blowing through the grass blades. It was very pleasant.】

【Why didn't I realize before that there are so many beautiful sounds in the world?】

[Perhaps it’s because I’m always thinking about you and want to give you all the good things that I am so sensitive to these sounds, and I subconsciously wonder if they can be given to you as gifts.]

[It’s a pity that I can’t hear it anymore.]

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【I dreamed of you again today.】

[When I reached out to you, I realized that there was no touch on my fingertips. I just saw you by illusion.]

[In the dream, you were holding an umbrella and smiling at me.]

【"Lu Shu."】

[Call out a name that doesn’t belong to me.]

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【I'm afraid you don't know my mission.】

【I'm very afraid...you will eventually regard me as a villain.】

[I really want to tell you the truth, but if I tell you, the trap will be discovered after simulating it 2,300 times.]

【So I continue to hide it from you.】

【Continue to let you think of me as a villain.】

【Continue to be jealous of Lu Shu.】

【Continue to look for chocolate and games.】

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【The roots of folded ears have grown taller.】

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[I wrote a letter to you, but I didn’t send it and hid it quietly in a drawer.]

[It’s been too long since I’ve seen you. If I don’t write something down, my whole life will probably go by like this. 】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[I learned how to fry strawberries, I will make them for you next time.]

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[The deadline for the decisive battle is coming soon. I heard that people write a suicide note before they die. As a process that is destined to die out, I will also write a suicide note. 】

【Draft of suicide note:】

[Chocolate and games could not be found.]

【sorry.】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[The previous suicide note was not well written, so I will try again.]

[Second draft of suicide note:]

【I am Lin Guang.】

【Lovis, I hope you are happy.】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

【Three drafts of suicide note:】

【Your favorite song, favorite food, favorite hair color, I know them all.】
To be continued...