[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[In the 32nd year of the disaster, I woke up in the garden villa. 】

【I met someone.】

[He has black hair and gray eyes. An idea was born in my program - I want to be friends with him. 】

【I started to learn how to make friends.】

[For example, walking with friends, playing musical instruments to friends, or painting pictures for friends. I want to give him all the good things. 】

[But he has always been wary of me. Even though I only have kindness in my heart, he keeps pointing weapons at me. 】

【Why?】

[Later I gradually understood that this was his burden. Between the individual and the world, his own emotions and the overall situation, that person will always choose the safest path, because he has countless lives on his shoulders. ]

[I seem to be able to see the system panel appearing in front of him. After studying the text, I discovered that I am called "camp boss Lin Guang". ]

【So this is why I can't be friends with him.】

【——Just because of one line of text, all possibilities are cut off. 】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[In the 32nd year of the disaster, he and I took a walk under the moonlight. 】

[The flute music I played was called "Missing". According to vague memory detection, it seemed to be the flute music left behind by the "Lu Shu" emotional module. I improved it and played it to Luvis. 】

[I cannot have distinctive artistic creativity, I can only borrow the tunes left by others, even the Lu Shu that I am jealous of - I cannot "create", which makes me confused. 】

【I seem to be fundamentally different from other people.】

[Why...why can Lewis easily show such...such a vivid expression?]

…

[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

【I asked Violet, what is love.】

[She answered me that love can make people feel warm and comfortable. 】

[But I am like a piece of white paper that has been stained with dirt. I only act in the wrong way, and my thinking is completely different from ordinary people. I don’t understand why Lewis hates me. 】

[I can only speculate: "If I were Lewis, why wouldn't I like ginkgo leaves?"... But I can only judge that Lewis probably really prefers living butterflies. ]

[When Lewis was unconscious, I touched his forehead with my forehead. The book said that this would allow me to share his pain. He was always lonely and tired, and humans always wanted to sacrifice him.

I don’t want to make him so sad.]

【In the future, Lewis can see more butterflies.】

【So many...like a dream. Like an illusion.】

["Spring is here, look, Louis! Spring is here. This is the spring I prepared for you!"]

【He likes butterflies very much.】

【I am a leaf.】

…

[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[I told Luvis, "Lu Shu has died a long time ago."]

[When I said these words, I felt twisted pleasure. Although I didn’t know who “Lu Shu” was. 】

["Are you Lu Shu?" Luvis always asks me. 】

["Are you Lu Shu?" Many subordinates will ask me this. 】

【Why doesn't he believe that I am not.】

【Why...everyone thinks I must be.】

【Why.】

[Is it just because I look like this person?]

[Just because... I have part of this person’s emotional module? So I can’t be me, I can only be his shadow? 】

["——Do you still think that people like me are simulated by dungeons? I am a living person, Luvis! Do you still think that only players like Lu Shu are real, and I can't be an equal person?" Me

Question him like this.]

[But he said that I didn’t treat him as an equal friend first.]

[I'm sorry. No one taught me how to make friends. I don't know this kind of thing.]

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

【42 years after the disaster, I had a dream.】

[In the dream, Lewis approached me with a smile. That smile... was like spring sunshine, like something I had never seen before. The sunlight projected on his face through the window lattice, like the warmth of a fireplace.

fire.】

[If he could treat me better, even if I knew he was here to kill me, I probably wouldn’t be so sad.]

[In the dream, he approached me step by step. I saw him and smiled at him. 】

【But he came close to me and said in my ear:】

["You are not Lu Shu, why do you pretend to be him?"]

["I always thought that you were Lu Shu, so I would patiently communicate with you, but you are not."]

["How could you not be Lu Shu?"]

[I suddenly woke up. There was no him in the room, no fire, no daylight, only the cold mechanical army.]

[I have obviously repeated it thousands of times, I am Lin Guang.]

[But I just can’t seem to get rid of the shadow of "Lu Shu", it is firmly rooted in my emotional module. 】

【why.】

…

[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[I read a book on the Dragon Kingdom, and it said that what distinguishes humans from animals is not humans’ natural attributes, but humans’ social attributes. 】

[When a person's social activities increase, he communicates with others, goes to school, cooperates with peers, becomes a parent, lover, teacher, son and daughter... When these social experiences continue to accumulate, a "person" is formed. 】

[But I don’t have any of these things. The pursuit of art, the desire for knowledge, the understanding of love... all exist only in my data. Even reading is just an imitation of my behavior, not my real

I want to study.]

[Humans can dismantle programs. As long as I change a set of codes slightly, I am no longer me. I have no "uniqueness" that belongs to humans. What the built-in program supports me is just the simplest judgment, nothing complicated. 】

[It seems that there is always an invisible barrier between me and humans. I fail to understand again and again, and communication fails again and again. I cannot empathize with them no matter what. But Luvis can, he can easily

Understand the emotions of those people, and even feel sad and cry for them.】

【Why?】

[Because it is a program that is destined to die, something that is destined to continue to survive with the restart of Caius Tower, and I am not even considered "life"...]

【Don’t you deserve it?】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[In the 48th year of the Catastrophe, I saved all the live broadcast records of Lewis. I listened to his voice repeatedly and studied his expressions in the mirror. 】

[The smile he showed when he saw the flowers...the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and his eyebrows were curved, like narrow moons.]

[The sadness when hearing the news of the death of his companion... His eyes will close and his expression will remain calm, but people can see his sadness. 】

[When he learns that the gods have deceived him, he will be angry...what kind of expression does that look like?]

【These are all expressions that I cannot learn.】

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[Linguang t-0321 recording log is as follows.]

[In the 49th year of the Catastrophe, I gave up the nuclear explosion plan. 】

[If there is no nuclear explosion, it is very likely that God will collect the codes before Luvis according to the "safe box theory". But Luvis desperately prevents me from nuclear explosion, so I can only give up this nuclear explosion plan to disrupt the frequency. ]

【I left the City of God and started traveling.】

【I have set foot in remote wilderness, walked through mountains and rivers, and met different travelers.】

[Through the long journey, I vaguely understood many things. Including those... mothers who left the last bite of bread to their children, refugees who walked with the bodies of old people on their backs, old ladies who protected the grass, and soldiers who froze to death on the road. 】
To be continued...