Chapter 492 You can hate me

Dong Xiaoye gave up on me because she knew that with her, Ziyuan would not say anything.

Zi Yuan did not advocate taking a taxi, but kept lowering her head and walking silently in front of her.

I broke the silence, "Do you want to eat something?"

"Can you eat with someone like me?" I can't tell whether she was joking about herself or venting her resentment. You sighed: "Anyway, I can't eat, I want to go back alone and quietly."

After so many things happened, Zi Yuan's heart must be in a mess. It is indeed not suitable to force her to relieve her. Give her time to calm down first may be a good choice. I smiled and said, "Okay...where should I send you back?"

Zi Yuan stopped and slowly turned around. Under the dim light of the street light, she could still see the redness and swollen eyes of her eyes, "Are you mocking me?"

I immediately realized that she knew I had been to the hotel yesterday and asked about the secret that she only opened a room but did not stay. I smiled faintly and asked, "Do I seem to be mocking you?"

Ziyuan didn't say anything, and tears fell down again.

I walked up to her, opened her fingers, took out her clenched handkerchief, wiped the tears from her face, curled up a softening smile, and tried to pretend to be dissatisfied: "When we were shopping yesterday, I met my landlord. She wanted to rent out the house opposite my house. The rent was very low, so I thought of you. Aren't you looking for a house too? It's so convenient for us to live in the opposite door, but I called you and kept turning off the phone, so we went to the hotel to find you. As a result, the hotel waiter told us that you just opened the room there, but never lived..."

Zi Yuan sobbed for a moment, not denying it, "What?"

"Then?" I laughed again, "and then I knew you weren't living there anymore, so I'm asking you now where I should send you back..."

Zi Yuan snatched the handkerchief, looked down at his toes, and after a while, he said, "Why don't you ask me why I lie?"

"Since you're hiding it from me, you just don't want to tell me, why should I ask?" I said embarrassedly: "When you want to tell me, you will naturally tell me."

"Yuanyuan is right, Xiaonan, in order to protect the people around you, you always feel wronged, even if these people are not worthy of your doing this... Do you know? This is not gentleness, it is cruel."

“So I never said I was a good person.”

"You..." Zi Yuan was speechless, turned around and left again. I followed her silently without asking her where she wanted to go.

"I have always lived at Minrou's house..." Zi Yuan did not look back, but was more like talking to herself, "I opened a room in a hotel and took you there once, just to make you think I live there, so as to conceal the fact that Minrou and I have close contact...Yuanyuan did not wrong me, I have a ghost in my heart. What I do now may not hurt you, but it will definitely not make you feel comfortable."

Zi Yuan paused, seemed to struggle a little, and finally said, "Xiao Nan, I know very well what you want to know, but now I can only tell you that I am responsible for providing Miss Three with all the information she wants to know about you and completing all the things she asked me to do."

"What she asked you to do?" My brows jumped, "including going to bed with me that night?"

Ziyuan did not answer immediately, and was facing me with her back, making it impossible for me to observe her expression, "If I say that it was my own voluntary, do you believe it?"

My heart moved, Xuan'er smiled bitterly and said, "That's not your personality..."

"My personality?" Zi Yuan slowed down. When I arrived beside me, she gently hugged my arm and rested her head on my shoulder. Her bangs blocked her eyes. I only saw two lines of tears flowing down her cheeks. She smiled self-deprecatingly: "What kind of personality am I? Are you cowardly? Yes, I am a child without a father, I am a mixed-race child, I look different from the people around me. I have been very inferior since I was a child. Everyone around me calls me a wild breed, saying that I am a freak born by my mother and a wild man. Everyone rejects me, and no one wants to be friends with me, except,

Cry, I can’t do anything, I will only rely on you, watching you stand up for me and fight others again and again... From childhood to adulthood, no matter what choice I make, I either ask you or mother, I can make a decision on nothing myself, including my mother asking me to go to the United States with her. I was reluctant in my heart, but I still didn’t have the courage to object... But Xiaonan, that was five years ago, and now I am different from that time. Do you know how I spent the past five years and how much happened around me?"

"People will change, change means growth, but people also have a side that will never change. Xiao Zi, in my opinion, you are still you..."

"No, Xiaonan, you don't understand me. The first time I decided on my own was to leave quietly five years ago, and I didn't even say goodbye to you. From then on, I was not the Xue Ziyuan you knew," Ziyuan grabbed my arm and used some strength, but her voice became even smaller. "I want to change, but I don't want to change. Do you know how painful that conflicting mood is? I don't want to change my dependence on you. I want to live like that and be protected by you for the rest of my life, so I know that our relationship must change, because we have all grown up. If we continue to be good friends with childhood sweethearts, you will be snatched away by other girls... But, I don't have the courage to ask you in person. If I didn't have to go to the United States with my mother, I think I don't even have the courage to write that letter to you..."

Sure enough, this is why Zi Yuan left without saying goodbye... However, time has changed, it is too late to say this now. There are not only tassels around me, but also the ambiguous Murphy and the gradually ambiguous Dong Xiaoye...

"Those things happened that night were half and half..." Zi Yuan said softly: "Miss Three just made this request, but I did not object, that's all."

"Why?" I couldn't understand, "Why did Miss Three make such a request?"

"I can't tell you now..."

"Then why didn't you object?" I was a little angry, angry that Ziyuan didn't know how to love herself.

Ziyuan snuggled up to me, like a bird that leaned on others, unable to tell whether I was cooperating with her steps or whether she was cooperating with my steps, and walked forward slowly and into each other's hearts...

"Miss Three and I have mutually exploited interests. She found me and had her purpose. I promised to help her and had my purpose. This is one reason; you did not reply to me, did not reply to me, but had a girlfriend. This is the second reason; the third reason... Maybe, it is just that I want to do that..."

My heart beat faster and my face warmed up a little. Zi Yuan's words were very explicit. Is it a confession to me? Zi Yuan was so embarrassed that she couldn't raise her head, and the silent atmosphere was very awkward.

Zi Yuan couldn't help it anymore and finally pulled me to the side of the road to stop a taxi. She was panicked and had a blank head. I didn't even pay attention to the address she told the driver.

"Do you hate me?" Zi Yuan said this, and the driver was stunned because she and I sat on the left and right, looking out the window like a stranger.

"You should hate me..."

"Now I know I hate it wrong..."

Uh... The implication is that you have been hating me before tonight... Zi Yuan is so honest that I can't stand it...

"You are not wrong. The letter was torn off by the fate, but that was mine," I also said honestly: "I was confused about the questions you asked me in the letter. I don't know how to reply to you. I struggled and confused. Chu Yuan mistakenly thought that the letter made me unhappy, so... After all, it was all because of my fault."

"I'm too naive..." Zi Yuan tilted his body, turned to my side, and rested on my shoulders again, "Those who can answer questions simply are irresponsible, right? You struggle and bewildered, proving that you take it seriously, I'm too naive. I thought that only one promise was needed for two people to be together, and I had never considered how heavy this promise was in reality... If it were today, I wouldn't have been in a hurry to ask you to give me an answer."

"Then why... why didn't you write me again?"

I clearly felt Zi Yuan's body tremble, "You can hate me."

I was stunned, "I just want to know the reason."

"Because I hate you."

"Do you think this kind of lie can deceive me?" I said, "Xiao Zi, why did you stop me from letting me settle the score with the third lady? I really hate me so much, will you still protect me?"
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