Chapter 32: Sin and Love
The rain keeps falling.
Chen Yi was dripping with her, and Li Xinshi cried and laughed.
The bodyguard next to the car still lowered his head and accompanied him to let the rain be soaked.
It's been a long time.
One of them tried to bring Li Xin back to his senses.
"Miss, it's been half an hour."
If she hadn't heard of it.
The bodyguard quietly retreated to the car.
The rain keeps falling.
When the bodyguard approached for the second time to remind him, Li Xin was no longer crying and laughing. He knelt down on the road, staring blankly.
"Miss, it's been an hour. The people in the sweeping team of the main gate are still waiting, and the road cannot be closed for too long."
Li Xin finally stood up, her hair was wet and her blank eyes looked like a heartbroken madman.
"Take him in the car."
The two bodyguards waiting by the car rushed over and set up Chen Yi from left to right.
It’s not to help, because Chen Yi’s feet seemed to have lost their function and just rubbed away on the road like dragging and removing them.
He was placed in the back seat, drizzled all over.
The car did not drive towards the villa, and followed the S-shaped road out of the fork and entered the city.
Finally, I stopped in the garden where Li Yin once took Chen Yi to, the same building and the same house.
When Li Xin came out after taking a shower, Chen Yi had been cleaned up at her instructions. However, she still looked like she was losing her soul and lay tilted on the sofa.
Li Xin returned to his state, except for the unconcealed sadness in his eyes.
"You guys go and clean up, too."
Three bodyguards quit the house.
Li Xin sat down at Chen Yi's head, his voice was very cold.
"Xiao Yin is gone, but there are still many things to do. Although my father is blaming me, I am his only daughter and he needs me to comfort me. The person who killed Xiao Yin also needs to pay an absolute price. I don't have time to comfort you here and cheer you up."
Li Xin opened the bottle of wine, poured a glass of wine, and drank it in one breath.
"Dad is right. Xiaoyin is dead, you should accompany her. But Dad can't hear Xiaoyin's wish before her life disappears, but I can hear it."
Li Xin grabbed Chen Yi's clothes and pulled him up and sat up straight, staring at his lost eyes.
"You are dead. But death is not the most painful thing, because you want to redeem your sins by seeking death. But you don't have this power. People don't understand other people's feelings or their feelings. But I understand, and I can let you understand. When you understand Xiao Yin's mood, you will find that you do not have the right to pursue death. You may not be able to be strong now, but one day you will be able to face it. With your growth, everything you would rather forget will be gradually remembered. While torture, you will tell you that you must live harder, because--that is Xiao Yin's wish. No matter how painful you are, you must achieve it for her!"
The red light bloomed in Li Xin's eyes, illuminating the entire hall.
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‘I am unfilial. This guilt towards my father and sister always suppressed me pain and distress. My father and sister did their best to give me the happiness without worries, entrusting their most beautiful wishes. They built a beautiful palace for me, allowing me to run and laugh in the evergreen garden. But I was too ignorant and could not help but curiously take off my crystal high heels when I saw the desolate desert. Even though the hot sand and stones hurt the soles of my feet, they still ran and laughed happily. Both my father and sister knew that this would make my skin rough and my white and delicate, and that it would not be harmed at all. This would make me turn from head to toe into another person, with red and yellow skin, and thick calluses on my hands and feet... But I don’t know, I just enjoy the feeling brought by this novel environment.’
‘I asked my sister before why the happiness of the princess is always achieved in fairy tales by the prince charming. My sister said that it was because only the prince charming could build a palace that was even more magnificent and beautiful than her growth palace. The king and the queen could only trust the pearl in their palms to the prince’s palace with confidence.’
‘Always fantasize about the future. In many places, people think that Chen Yi and I do not have a future. If we eventually separate, people will take it for granted that it would have been like this. But I know that if we finally get happiness, people will sincerely wish it. I think it is possible, and he will make any efforts to seek the love that belongs entirely to him. And I am willing to give him this kind of love.’
'For my sister and dad, my wish is just like a willful princess who has just run out of the garden and run on the deserted desert. They will never listen to me. They will allow me to run briefly on the hot sand and stones because of my happiness, and will never allow a second time, because that will hurt me.'
‘Even if I tell them seriously that as long as he doesn’t dislike him, even if we are with us in the deserted desert, even if time turns me into a person who is no longer beautiful, I can still laugh happily and satisfiedly. Even if I tell my father and sister this seriously, they will only shake their heads and laugh, because they understand that I have no idea what torture and pain I will encounter in a long-term survival in the desert. Besides them, the one who gives me happiness in life should be a prince charming. But he is not a prince. Maybe he will work hard to become a king in a few years, but he will never be a prince in this life. However, he is not a prince and he is unwilling to give up because of this…’
‘I always try to face him calmly and rationally. I always fail. I even make such an indescribable and ridiculous decision under my father’s pampering and indulgence. A ridiculous decision that I have carefully considered.’
‘…The shocking fact that it is hard to accept! Dad’s laissez-faire at that time actually had such a motive! I can’t resent his coldness, because behind the coldness is the most sincere care for me; but I can’t accept such care, because behind the care is the most cold hurt to me. Maybe he would also advise me to accept this kind of coldness. Yes, what a realistic good idea! But I can’t accept it. I had considered this possibility before making a ridiculous decision, and reminded myself that this was bad and difficult. But I chose not to give up.’
‘My sister is already panicked. She knows me too much and even gives good promises that she will never fulfill. But I also know her. She will make me forget everything. If I never forget, I will never be able to see Chen Yi again. Even continuing to insist on stubbornly will force my sister to kill Chen Yi in order to make a decision. If I save myself, then separation from now on, and sacrifice the crystallization of love as a sacrifice, I would rather not be saved. Things have become like this. I can only try to save it, at least I have the right
I have to choose myself to face mutation and have the right to choose to fight against the invasion of mutation. I must do this. Even if the result of failure is destruction, at least I must let the soul that sticks to me be born. Even if I am no longer here, he (she) will hold all my love and hope, be loved by Chen Yi throughout my life, my soul will be with me, and all love is like my longing for me, just like my endless longing for my father and mother. Thanks to Buddha, yes, if it brings him an unfortunate disaster, I will be willing to bear it instead.’
‘...Sister! I am unwilling to give up! He (she) is sad, sad that he was not even born in the world...Sister, please let him live, I can only obtain eternal life in your thoughts. If all my unwillingness to be redeemed can be saved, it must be his happy survival, because his happiness is also my wish for survival... But our children have no chance to be born...'
‘The happiness that I can no longer feel is in your future life. If you love me too, please pursue happiness with my laughter until the end of your life. My soul will gain eternal life in your thoughts and be with you.’
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Chapter completed!