Chapter 103 Learn to let go
I'm still behind you.
I'll check it out with you.
Yu Moqing's eyes were confused. She didn't understand Yongye's repeated statements and concessions he made, but can she really give her whole body and mind to Yongye?
In her previous life, she was so conceited that she always put tasks first, and only believed in her own judgment, and claimed that she had no mistakes, no one could match, and no need for comfort or mercy from others.
So she downplayed her feelings, which was a body-like body and a stubborn heart, and devoted her whole body and mind to the career of Yongpingmen to make herself strong, so that she no longer became the orphan who had nothing in the past, but also to repay her elder brother's kindness for raising her.
She has always handled the relationship between men and women properly, and all those who look at her are blocked by her. Because her only spiritual sustenance is her longing for her elder brother.
But ironically, in the end, she was regarded as a traitor by her elder brother and was excluded. The gun was obviously not fired by her elder brother, but the bullet was blocked by her body.
How to not hurt?
She had done so many tasks and was wandering on the edge of life and death, but she had never had such a heart-wrenching pain. The helplessness of losing trust, the heart-wrenching pain, and the despair of the only support collapse all surrounded her and breathlessly.
She was scared.
She couldn't see through the tricks of the people in front of her, but how could she accept it?
Now she is deeply trapped, limited by the prince, and the people around her are full of identities.
She couldn't guess thoroughly, and she didn't know how to judge.
She was afraid that the person in front of her was a gentle trap, she was afraid that she would make a wrong judgment, and she was afraid that there would be people or things she didn't know that were hindering her way forward in the dark.
She was afraid of being beaten back to the abyss, and had nothing to recover.
She was even more afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes and how dare she commit the sorrow of the past?
She lost once, and if she made mistakes again this time, she would definitely be doomed. Now she has lost a lot, the position of princess is gone, the death of Shuihe, the second sister's marriage, the three whip of the protector's courtyard, and the slap of the third prince all shrouded her in a shadow.
Although she had nothing on the surface, she knew in her heart that if she continued to lose, she would have only one life to give.
How strong is she? She has been fighting for a breath in her previous life and has made the title of "Killing Buddha" on the road. How can she bear this breath in this life? Since the day she peeked into Feng Shuyuan's secret, she has made up her mind to return to the capital and get the impeachment letter to defeat the prince. One is to recover the humiliation she had suffered in the past, and the other is to make a comeback for herself.
But now the crucial old Liu died suddenly, and the value of the impeachment letter was greatly reduced. Although she came to Qiancheng to explore, the gold mine was still to be decided.
But what made her most worried was the truth and falsehood of the people around her. Who should she believe in? It was not that she had seen Yongye’s tenderness, but she was more willing to believe that she had something to do with her, otherwise she would not find a reason to let Yongye tolerate her again and again, and teach her martial arts personally.
Now that she saw Fu Ziwen again, she was even more confused. She always felt that she had no news before and that new forces were coming in, blocking her from getting closer to the truth of the matter.
Yu Moqing raised his eyes, and his eyes were cold: "How to check?"
Yongye let go of his arms, looked down at Yu Moqing with a suspicious look, and couldn't help but sigh: "Qing'er, after all, you still don't want to believe me..."
Seeing that Yu Moqing was silent again, Yongye said, "Qing'er, why don't you let yourself go?"
"How can I let it go?" Yu Moqing sneered, and there was a hint of mockery in her eyes, "Yongye, how did you know my past? You don't understand me at all, how can I believe you?" After that, she felt a little quarrel. She knew how many people could understand her, and Yongye could guess what she was thinking a few times ago, how could he not understand her?
She just felt that she had established a relatively stable and peaceful environment with Yongye and was changed by the information added today. Her heart was shaken. She couldn't tell the right and wrong of Fu Ziwen, nor could she see through Yongye's position, nor did she know what they had conspired.
But she just said this, and even she couldn't understand what she was thinking.
"I know, I never knew about you?" Yongye gently stroked her face.
Yu Moqing did not wave away his warm hand, but his face became colder: "No, you don't know. Even if you know, you won't believe it. We are not people from the same world."
Yongye's eyes also turned cold and he said, "Is it the elder brother you called out? Or Chu Shichang, who was so guilty? Or did he repeatedly force your prince? Which one is cruel to you that makes you so angry? But Qing'er, if you only have the idea of killing in your heart and only focus on revenge, if you really defeat them, what after?"
Yu Moqing felt a shock in her heart, and her pupils contracted in an instant. How could he know about his elder brother? Could it be that time when she fell into a illusion on the school ground? Even if he knew, she really didn't think about it. She never thought about it. She thought she hadn't even received the impeachment book, so how could she think of the funeral?
"If hatred is hard to get rid of and murderous thoughts are hard to get rid of, your revenge is just to add burden to yourself. How can I bear to let you bear such a heavy burden?" Yongye stroked her delicate face and said softly, "Qing'er, you obviously can save you, but you refuse again and again. You are afraid that I will use you, but what reason do I have to use you? You are afraid that I will hand you over to Fu Ziwen, but why do I bear to leave me? Why don't you give me a chance..."
"I'm gone, no one can save me." Her black pupils were like a falling star. She never trusted others easily, and also refused all help around her coldly. In her eyes, there was always only exchange of interests and never sincerely gave.
"How can you know that no one can save me?" Yongye's eyes were filled with affection, and his hands did not refuse to leave her face. "Qing'er, it's easy to overthrow the enemy, but how difficult is it to overthrow yourself? If the inner demon is not eliminated, you will never get out of the predicament."
Her pupils were red, her red lips slightly opened, but she couldn't spit out a word.
She remembered this sentence Chi An had also been with her. At that time, Chi An tried to persuade her to let go of her murderous thoughts, but she just let Feng Shuyuan have a way out. But now it comes from Yongye's mouth, but the intention is different.
"Qing'er, even if you want to reject me, you can leave me, but you can't live without yourself." Yongye's eyes were blurred and he said in a word, "Qing'er, you have to learn to let go first before you can walk forward..."
Yu Moqing was stunned. She could not think of these things with her mind, but she had never thought about them under such circumstances. She had only herself in her previous life, and she had to choose all her ideas, and there was no room for her, because no one would consider it for her. But now, why is it this monster? Why is it him? When she left the sidelines and left her mind to take revenge?
Her eyes flashed, and she felt a throbbing in her heart. She had never thought that someone could see through her and guide her to look towards Minglu, but she still restrained this feeling with a force.
She quickly regained her calmness. Even if Yongye made some sense, this was not the time for her to feel emotional. She had to stay awake and judge everything, otherwise she would repeat the same mistakes and she would never allow herself to make mistakes again.
"Even if I believe you for the time being, what should I do?" Yu Moqing replied coldly.
Seeing that the breath of the person in front of him changed, Yongye smiled on his face: "Although I don't know what kind of holidays you have with Fu Ziwen, I can tell you that Fu Ziwen will never frame you for relying on the prince. His is still credible. You can go with me tomorrow, and maybe what you want to know is in it."
Yu Moqing finally let out a sigh before he said, "Okay, I'll go with you tomorrow, but the premise is, you have to tell me why Fu Ziwen is trustworthy? Are you... colluding? Also, why does Fu Ziwen know nothing about gold mines? He obviously brought troops to him..." Before he finished speaking, Yu Moqing's lips were pressed against Yongye's fingertips.
Yongye shook his head and said, "Qing'er, this matter is not easy to talk about now."
The man looked mysterious, lowered his voice, leaned closer, raised his eyebrows and said, "I have ears in my heart..."
Yu Moqing thought about it carefully. Just now, Yongye reminded Fu Ziwen that there were not many pairs of eyes staring at Fu Ziwen's every move. I guess he was also concerned about other people's words and deeds about Fu Ziwen. She slapped and nodded, "I understand. I'll go again in the future..." There was nothing to think about again, Yu Moqing pursed her lips: "I'm going back."
"No, I'm sorry, Qing'er is so unwilling to stay with me for a while? Even if she just sits there, it's okay?" Yongye became arrogant again when he saw Yu Moqing recovering, with a look of grievance.
Yu Moqing replied with a cold look and said nothing.
Yongye handed over another can of wine from his previous one, and smiled wickedly: "Or, let's have a drink? This is Yu Xueli. She has been in the old cellar for a long time. I can't bear to give it to others, so I can only give it to you. Hehe... The wind is so cold, so it's okay to drink some wine to warm it up."
It was obvious that Yu Moqing was not grateful. She bypassed Yongye and looked at the road just now. She thought that the roof was not high and not far from the windowsill. With her current internal strength, she could go back by herself. In this way, she would not have to contact this monster for the time being.
She turned around and said coldly: "No need. Drinking is hurting, I don't want to lose my judgment." After that, she was about to leave. She should have taken a glass of good wine in her previous life and sipped a heroic drink. But now is not the time when she loses her rationality, and she doesn't know the original owner's body's ability to withstand it, so it's better to be careful.
"Yes, you haven't reached the end yet, so you can't drink this wine..." Yongye withdrew his hand, "Qing'er, then you can rest earlier, I'll call you tomorrow morning."
The slender figure paused to him for a moment, and after a long time, a sentence came out: "Thank you, Yongye." Then he disappeared in the darkness.
The man smiled slightly until the slender figure disappeared, and then he looked back at the light beneath Lord Lan Yue, his eyes were filled with light, and he raised his hand to drink a large sip of wine. The wine he swallowed rolled in his firm Adam's apple, endless temptation and sexiness.
The wind gradually moved, and a figure jumped straight towards him, and he bowed half-kneeled: "Young Master."
"Liang Shuo, you must look at Qing'er carefully recently and never let anyone get close. If something goes wrong, you don't have to mention your head to see you. Just leave." The man looked calm and kept pouring wine into his mouth.
"Subordinate obeys the order." Lian Shuo didn't ask much.
"I don't know when this girl will know that I have done my best..." The man shook his head and sighed, and there was indeed a doting smile on the corner of his mouth, and he refused to fade away for a long time.
Chapter completed!