, I would do whatever they asked me to do, but I was like a puppet, my mind was empty and I couldn’t think at all. The only thing I could think of was self-blame. I was thinking, if it weren’t for me, Ruirui wouldn’t have

There will be so much pain, there will be no car accident, there will be no death... everything is caused by me."

"I dealt with some of Ruirui's funeral affairs in a daze, and was about to go to Lou Xi's place for a visit. Suddenly I received a call from the children's hospital. Xinxin had acute laryngitis, which caused laryngeal obstruction and was life-threatening. My mother

I couldn't hold on under the double blow, so I rushed to the children's hospital again, but luckily I felt fine."

"But I didn't know that my grandfather had already handled all the matters related to the car accident at Lou Xi's side. When my mother, my mother, and my father who arrived later arrived at the hospital, my grandfather only told us that Lou Xi was seriously injured, and

When the car that collided with it rushed down the viaduct, the owner jumped out of the car in time, but the car was destroyed and no one was seriously injured."

"At that time, Lou Xi was seriously injured. We were just worried and didn't think much about it. We didn't even think that grandpa would deceive us. We rushed to the door of the emergency room and waited all night before the doctor opened the door and told us

Our Lou Xi’s ribs, thoracic vertebrae, humerus, and tibia were injured to varying degrees, and he will have to stay in the hospital for at least half a year. Although it is lucky for him to survive, he has no way to go to the United States again."

"After Lou Xi woke up, he asked me how Ruirui was doing. I could only shake my head. He suddenly became very depressed and rarely spoke in that six months."

"I don't know how to face him. I feel that I broke up him and Ruirui. If it weren't for me, nothing would have happened, Ruirui would not have died, and Lou Xi would not have lost his chance to continue studying at West Point Military Academy.

Opportunity, I felt very painful and depressed, so I left Beijing for a while and went to Yunchuan. At the Military Medical University, Xingchen and I met once, and it was precisely because of the time I scolded Xingchen that I

I suddenly realized that escaping was not the solution to the problem at all. I couldn't calm down and it would only affect more innocent people, so I immediately packed my bags and returned to Beijing."

"Later, Lou Xi could be discharged from the hospital. My father originally wanted him to stay in Beijing J Military Region, but he went to Yunchuan without hesitation. Our two brothers ran away from home one after another, which completely angered my father. Moreover, Lou Xi was

Although his physical condition meets the standard in all indicators, he is risking his life by joining the special forces, but he insists on going his own way and no one can stop him. So many years have passed in a flash."

Lou Yi's memories ended and he returned to reality. On the side, Shu Rao's eyes were moist, filled with everyone's sadness.

Lou Yi looked at her, his eyes still a little erratic, "Back then, in the face of the heart that was waiting for food, and in the face of Lou Xi who never looked back, no one had the heart to mention the car accident. If it weren't for Grandpa and Xingchen today,

We met, if you hadn't told me that Xingchen's parents also died in a car accident, I'm afraid I would never know the truth about that year."

After a pause, he added self-deprecatingly, "I am really a sinner, and now I have added one more thing. If it weren't for me, none of the things would have happened, there would not have been a car accident, Ruirui would not have died, and Lou Xi would not have gone to Yunnan."

Chuan, he will not know Xingchen, nor will he become like this."

"No! It's not like that!" Shu Rao couldn't help but shake his head, denying his self-pity. This matter was a tragedy from beginning to end. No one thought that he didn't have to feel so guilty and torture himself like this.

After the car accident, he picked himself up again, worked actively in the army, and took care of his heart at home. He seemed to be very strong, but she knew that behind this man's strength, there was too much sadness and pain.

But he had no way to express his sadness and pain. He could only hide all his grief in his heart. Even his parents didn't know about the emotional entanglement between him, Lou Rui and Lou Xi, and everything he had endured.

, no one knows.
Chapter completed!