At this moment, all the rejection of dignity and alienation were broken through by ignorance and determination. Shi Jingnian was still shocked, but his face showed the calmness he had been used to for many years.

He stood there and looked at her deeply.

After an imperceptible two seconds, it was so quiet that you could hear breathing.

"Ning'an..."

When he called her like this, he lowered his eyebrows, frowned slightly, and calmed his eyes.

The correct attitude is that of an elder.

Ji Ning'an loved him so much, and now she hated him so much.

She guessed what he was going to say, so she interrupted: "Can you stop treating me like a child? I'm an adult and I can take responsibility for my own choices!"

Seeing this, Shi Jingnian chose to remain silent and listened to her words, giving her enough time.

The hot breath they exhaled while talking turned into white mist, curling up in the air. The sky and earth were covered with snow, and the sky and the earth were the same color.

They stood quietly on the playground.

Couples in love passed by in twos and threes, and boys played basketball in the snow, vying to express themselves to their sweethearts, and shouts of victory were heard at the top of their lungs.

"I, I..." Ji Ning'an was too impulsive, with uncontrollable emotions rolling in his chest. Even his voice was choked, difficult to spit out, and even incoherent.

"Why are you so anxious?" Shi Jingnian chose to respect her. Seeing her crying, he handed her the handkerchief and said, "Wipe it."

The white handkerchief has his words embroidered in the lower left corner, and a clivia, which exudes the faint fragrance of agarwood.

Ji Ning'an was afraid that he would leave without saying a word, that he would be disgusted and impatient, that he would not leave her for a minute. His attitude gave her a lot of comfort.

She pursed her lips tightly, took the handkerchief from his hand, and wiped her tears. This time her eyes were really washed by water.

"I'm sorry to disturb you during this time. I just want to tell you... I like you. I, I don't want to interfere with your work and life."

"I mean——"

Her last voice was trembling: "If you haven't met the right person on the day I graduate, can you consider me? I'm just a little younger, but I will grow up, and I will learn a lot, and I won't be better than you."

There is a big difference between my peers. And I am usually very independent and don’t need anyone to take care of me. You like art, Hanfu, Go... Me, I like it too, that’s us..."

She tried to express her feelings to him clumsily, looking at him with her soft, red eyes, so young and persistent.

However, Shi Jingnian's face completely darkened and he categorically refused: "No!"

All Ji Ning'an's words were stuck in her throat, with a suffocating feeling like cotton wool, which made her stand there sad and helpless.

"Ji Ning'an, never try to wait for a man." He looked directly at her, his eyes were calm and sharp, leaving no one to hide, and he warned without leaving any room, "You can't afford to wait."

"You are not me, how do you know I can't wait?"

Shi Jingnian looked at her intently, but she looked back unwilling to be outdone.

This was the first time in Shi Jingnian's twenty-eight years that he felt annoyed. He was so angry that his chest heaved. He looked at each other for three seconds and then looked away first.

Naive, so naive.

He calmed down his emotions, his eyebrows were thin and angry, his eyes were heavy, he looked into the distance, and suddenly he smiled instead of being angry: "Don't say you wait four years for graduation, even if you wait ten years, we can't do it, do you understand?"

He used the words impossible.

So determined, so decisive.

Use his attitude and tell her clearly.

He is twenty-eight years old, has seen the world, and has mature experience.

She is nineteen years old, a fledgling, innocent and young.

She can't play with him, nor can she wait for him.

Her love is too sharp in this secular and troubled world.

Ji Ning'an's face turned pale, weak and stubborn: "I don't understand."

"Don't understand?" Shi Jingnian said, "I'm nine years older than you."

"I don't mind!"

"I mind."

First time.

Ji Ning'an hates that she is only nineteen years old.

If she is twenty-three years old and has graduated, she can stand with him without any scruples.

Seeing that she stopped talking, Shi Jingnian's expression finally showed signs of softening, and his voice became low again: "I don't know what I made you misunderstand, it was definitely not my intention."

"No." Ji Ning'an smiled, with tears in her eyes, and said easily, "It's just wishful thinking on my part."

Is there any misunderstanding?

The sense of alienation he gave her couldn't be more obvious.

The care she borrowed based on her status should end here.

Shi Jingnian stared at her: "Ning'an, love your neighbor first, love yourself first, no one is worthy of your mistreatment of yourself."

Ji Ning'an's eyelashes trembled: "You think I don't love myself?"

"On the contrary, you are brave enough." Shi Jingnian taught her calmly, "So you are already very good. You will meet better people in the future, who are on the same page and share the same goals."

"Compared to me, what is more worthy of your efforts is your future."

Ji Ning'an was speechless and couldn't even refute.

Because what he said is right.

A person who is so considerate even when he refuses, how can anyone hate him?

"When you are satisfied, you will find that I am actually just an ordinary passer-by, not worthy of attention."

"No way!" Ji Ning'an retorted, insisting, "I have already met a better person, and he is right in front of me now."

"But we are not suitable."

Correct love means that each other's future should exist in his future and her hope.

It's a mutual love between two people, not a difference in thought.

The snowy light fell in his eyes, like clusters of cold rivers and Xiangshui, shining brightly, very beautiful, very bright, and radiant. He was partial to her, calm and restrained, full of adult's indifference, without any affection.

How cruel.

Ji Ning thought peacefully.

She suddenly became quiet.

It was a very sudden silence.

In the long silence, Ji Ning'an looked up at the catkin-like snowflakes and the dark sky, and said: "There is no moon tonight."

Tonight is the first belated snowfall in winter, and there is no moon tonight.

"Why is there no moon..." She murmured again, her voice choked with sobs.

I have been holding back the tears for so long that I can no longer hold back.

But she didn't want to break down and cry hysterically in front of him. This is a wonderful pride.

Shi Jingnian was silent for a moment, defending her unspoken thoughts, and first proposed to leave: "There is no need to return the clothes, go back early."

He turned and left.

Ji Ning'an looked at his back, which gradually became blurred in the wind and snow, and was no longer visible.

She could no longer bear it and squatted on the ground. She felt cold to the core even though she was wearing a thick coat, and a broken sob was suppressed in her throat!

In front of her was the dim and soft light of a street lamp, but she was alone in the darkness.

Tears are hot.

Wet the snow.

It’s the first time in nineteen years that I like someone so much, and I won’t leave any room for rejection.

This year’s first snowfall is not romantic at all.
Chapter completed!