Ogami pointed at the paper:

"It seems that the records on the paper can only be seen through spiritual vision."

Chen Yan turned to look at the paper and saw that the writing on it turned into a bunch of bad lines drawn randomly, like a child's unconscious scribblings.

He said thoughtfully:

"That is to say, when I turn on my spiritual vision, the thick fog will pour out and isolate me from [this world].

The true contents of these manuscripts, the thick fog that has filled the air, and the stagnant time—all are [unknown knowledge] that can only be seen through spiritual vision."

He decided to keep reading.

When he focused on his notes, the thick fog rose like a rising tide, and Ogami's breath disappeared from him again.

"They're gone.

Anzem is still here.

Damn it, this perverted kid just stayed by my side, saying things like "I don't know the meaning of my existence," "I don't know who I am, where I came from, and where I'm going."

Nonsense.

You don’t know, why are you asking me? I don’t know either! I’m just a spirit that can only record facts!

I will now record his very abnormal state:

His eyes were wild, and his two eyeballs moved up and down, revealing the metal patterns under the eyeballs.

He scratched his face irritably, and soon the skin was scratched, revealing a brass metal plate with countless gears embedded under it - and then when he continued to scratch his face, there were electric sparks on his fingers.

"Spirit, spirit, what are we created for? If we live for our Lord, what does our Lord want to do?"

One of Anzem's eyes exploded out, and what was connected to his eye was a spring made of brass that had lost its elasticity.

“My Lord wanted the world to believe, so I became what I am now, to help Him develop believers.

Can……

I don’t know the meaning of doing this! I don’t know what the meaning of doing this is to me!”

I……

I don’t want to do this!”

Anzem hugged his head and cried:

"I betrayed my Lord! My heart, which was created by imitating human beings, gave me selfish desires, and I betrayed my Lord because of these selfish desires! But I love Him so much!"

Anzem grabbed his clothes near his heart, his face distorted by pain.

"I love Him dearly! More than my life!"

The pain made him unable to maintain his balance, and he fell to the ground, rolling around on the ground.

But I didn't feel the "pain" on his body - I can be sure that his body - the steel body under the human skin, will not feel the pain similar to that which can only be felt by human flesh and blood.

Then, his pain comes from the spirit.

It's really scary.

Even metal can be crushed by mental pain.

"Spirit! The selfish desires in my heart have defeated me! The guilt prevents me from thinking about anything else! I can't face my Lord anymore!"

As he spoke, he opened the chest with one hand and took out the beating heart.

Yes, that fucking thing turned out to be a normal, bright red, beating human heart with large arteries!

No...there's something different about that heart...

Huh? What is that? Why does it look so like a plant stem?

I don't have time to think too much.

Anzem took out his heart, chanted a prayer of repentance to the Holy Light, and then crushed it to pieces.

I don't quite understand this approach.

A few minutes later, Anzem fell to the ground, completely dead.

That afternoon, several people who did not look like a choir came to the attic and recovered his body.

Although I don't understand Anzem's approach, it's not like I've never seen someone like him...

Human beings are creatures that usually live in a hazy state, but they can also be happy.

But once a person starts thinking about questions such as "Who am I" and "What do I do with my life?", he will fall into mental control and be unable to extricate himself.

Even if they can figure it out, it will be very painful - they will immediately think: "What is the meaning of me being me?", "What is the meaning of everything I do while alive?"

When people start to think about these problems, they will either go crazy, die, or live in pain. They have to choose one of the endings."
Chapter completed!