I just received a call from the editor, telling me that I had been banned for the second time. I was so excited that I was a little incoherent. For me, it was a rare affirmation to get two banned for me.

It has been 4 years since I started writing books at Qidian in 2004. The ups and downs of my heart are really hard to describe. The only thing that can make me feel ashamed is that no matter what twists and turns I have experienced or what situation I am in, I have been persisting, and each book is a complete book. I can't forget that when I first entered the VIP, my monthly royalties were only 50 yuan,000 cents, and the reward was 20 yuan,08 cents, totaling 70 yuan. I really wanted to give up at that time, but many friends left book reviews to encourage me. After thinking about it, I decided to grit my teeth and persevere. Fortunately, I had other jobs at that time, otherwise the above words would be the remarks of a starving ghost.

Actually, I am very idle by nature, and I can even say that I am very lazy. My parents said I was lazy and asked me to make soy sauce. The dishes there were all put into the pot. I just wandered downstairs. The teacher said I was lazy. Except for the history, geography and other subjects I like, I almost didn’t hand in other homework on time. When I was forced to write it out if I was too anxious, my previous master also said I was lazy. My brothers were there to compete, and I was applauding and applauding outside. Once the master asked me to enter the venue, I would definitely have a stomachache and my armpits were disgusting. Of course, if I educated those junior brothers, I would become full of vitality.

What really changed me was in 2005. At that time, my mother was seriously ill. I only had two things to get up every day. One was to take care of her and the other was to write. I didn’t go out all day and couldn’t go out. Anxiety and pain were both double. My mother’s illness was getting worse and worse, and the words she had worked hard to write were also coldly treated. I felt like I couldn’t stand it. One day, my mother looked at me blankly for a long time. Just when I was inexplicably surprised, she suddenly said, “I’m leaving, what should you do? Everything you do is to be passionate about for five minutes.”

I felt like I was struck by lightning, and I couldn't express the feeling now. Later, I hid and cried, and my life changed. My mother's words completely changed my attitude towards life. It can be said that without her motivation, I would not be today. With few subscriptions to the lost battle, I seldom wrote more than one million words in one breath, until the outline was finished and the final draft of the standard was because I had the word "persistence" in my heart.

What I want to do most now is to take my physical book and show off like a child in front of her, but the child wants to support her but the relatives are not here, what can I do?

In 2008, disasters were frequent, so some people said that 2008 was a disaster year in China, which was also a difficult thing for me. In January, my father passed away and my grandma got sick in February. Later, I struggled for a long time because of the house, and my mood was always restless. The speed of my writing was all based on my feeling. I remember that in December last year, just like now, I also had six hours of code, but at least eight thousand words were coded every day, and even ten thousand, but now I can barely make more than three thousand in six hours.

, I am more anxious than anyone else. I am a professional writer now. More code means more money. No one will be unable to get over money, but the smooth typing feeling can't be found. The editor told me not to force myself too much, just slow down. Some other friends told me that if I asked me to travel, the editor's words were a matter of experience. Many authors should have encountered this phenomenon. As for travel... it is pure nonsense. If you don't update for a few days, God knows how many people will give up on me because of disappointment.
Chapter completed!