Chapter 1, this nonsense life

"Hey! Xiao Can, your dad suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and is dying. He is currently being treated at the County People's Hospital. You should go home quickly!"

The phone on the other end was silent for a full three seconds before a low sigh came from the phone.

"Mom, I know, I'll go back tonight!"

"Then drive carefully and pay attention to safety!"

"Okay, Mom, don't worry, I'll transfer 10,000 yuan to you later, and you should also take some rest!"

…

Chen Can frowned and hung up the phone, put his hands on the steering wheel, and stared straight ahead with dull eyes.

Suddenly there was a thunder in the sky and heavy rain poured down.

Chen Can took a deep breath, picked up his phone again, opened his Alipay, and looked at the balance. The three-digit amount on it made him frown even deeper.

I tapped my finger on the online merchant loan. When I needed to enter the loan amount, I hesitated for a moment and finally pressed the amount.

"20,000 yuan!"

After a while of operation, the loan amount was received and 10,000 yuan was transferred to his mother's bank card. He threw the phone on the passenger seat as if he was disgusted.

Start the car, turn on the wipers, and in the heavy rain, this ten-year-old BMW X5, like an old cow, makes a heavy panting sound and squeaks a few times, and slowly drives forward.

The car traveled a few meters, then the car braked hard and stopped again.

Chen Can looked at the raindrops falling outside the window, his heart beating fast.

This time, he had an unpleasant feeling, as if he was about to lose something.

He pulled out a round jade pendant from his chest, held it tightly in his hand, and prayed silently.

The heavy rain outside the window became heavier and heavier, the sky became gloomy, and the vehicles on the road began to turn on their lights.

There were only a few pedestrians on the street, and a few pedestrians hid under the eaves of shops and looked up at the sky.

Everyone had different expressions, some were numb, some were anxious, and some were laughing and chatting on the phone with their friends.

The tall buildings on both sides of the street turn on the lights at some unknown time. Thousands of houses are lit up, and they know whether they are warm or cold.

The broadcast in the carriage suddenly came to mind.

"Welcome all listeners to listen to Pengcheng Radio Station... Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, a day for family reunion..."

"Didi, didi..."

"Hey, there's another traffic jam ahead!"

Chen Can patted the steering wheel, touched his pocket impatiently, took out a pack of cigarettes, and put the last cigarette in his mouth.

He rubbed the cigarette box, threw it into the storage box under the driver's seat, lit the cigarette, and slowly exhaled a puff of smoke.

The smoke was enchanting and slowly dissipated, leaving a blurry shadow on the rearview mirror.

Chen Can looked at himself in the rearview mirror with dull eyes, a wry smile on his lips.

He thought of the phone call just now, and his thoughts began to wander again.

Thinking about it carefully, I haven't been back for eight years, right?

Scenes of the heroic ambitions he had made in front of his father, as well as the quarrels he had with his father in those years, emerged in his mind.

Chen Can shook his head helplessly.

Now in his thirties, Chen Can once again thought of his experiences over the years, like a dream, an unspeakable and tangled dream.

Thinking back to the recklessness of a few years ago, the naivety and self-righteousness of the 20-year-old, and the frivolity and stupidity of the youth, what a fucking life!

It’s a pity that I can never go back!

If you are wrong, you are wrong, but is there any use in saying sorry now?

No matter whether I said this to my father or to my past self, it was already too late!

Chen Can took another puff of cigarette and slowly exhaled a faint smoke from his nose.

After smoking a cigarette, the vehicle in front finally started to move slowly. I stepped on the accelerator and the vehicle slowly drove forward!

After driving for ten hours, Chen Can finally returned to his hometown county at 4:30 in the morning.

Parking the car downstairs of the local People's Hospital, he rubbed his red eyes, raised his head, glanced at the hospital, took a deep breath, and walked in.

At the county hospital at 4:30 in the morning, there was only an old man dozing at the door. The lights in the inpatient department were dim. Occasionally, a cough came from the ward, making people feel a chill behind them.

On the way, Chen Can already knew that his father had completed the operation and was sent back to the ward. His current condition was not good, and he was sometimes comatose and sometimes awake.

The conditions in county hospitals are like this. Whether they can survive it all depends on the patients themselves.

Chen Can also thought about taking his father to the provincial hospital for treatment on the way, but in the end he didn't have the courage to say that.

People!

Poverty and disease are the reality!

When I was a teenager, I left home alone and was full of pride. After many ups and downs, I was no longer a teenager. When I returned, I was already middle-aged.

Standing at the door of the ward, Chen Can rubbed his stiff face, and then carefully turned the door handle. It was quiet in the ward, and two beds could be vaguely seen.

Of the two hospital beds, only the one by the window had a patient lying on it, and in front of the hospital bed, an attendant lay lying on his back.

He took two steps forward. The ward was a little dark without the lights on, but Chen Can still recognized the rickety figure lying beside the bed.

Before Chen Can was completely close, the figure was already awakened. She raised her head, saw Chen Can's figure, and shouted tiredly.

"Xiao Can, you are back!"

Chen Can said "hmm" with a complicated and heavy expression, and then his eyes fell on the figure on the hospital bed.

I don’t know whether it was the eight years of absence or the sudden illness. The father at this time was completely different from the one in Chen Can’s memory.

That completely unfamiliar face can still vaguely see the shadow of the past, but unfortunately it has long since changed.

At this time, my father looked old and thin, with his eyes closed tightly, as if he was an old man about to enter the grave.

Looking at that face, Chen Can couldn't help but think of memories from the past.

Back then, my father was so tall and mighty. In my young memory, this man was once his piece of heaven.

It's a pity that the past has long since become a thing of the past.

After looking at this face for a long time, Chen Can finally said nothing and just shouted to his mother quietly.

"Mom, you go back and rest for a while, I'll take care of you!"

Mother Zhang Xiulan shook her head, stepped forward and took Chen Can's hand, and walked out of the ward.

When they reached the corridor, my mother sighed and said.

"Xiao Can, I asked the doctor about your dad's illness. The situation is not optimistic. He may need an operation the day after tomorrow. Whether he can survive it depends entirely on your dad. If he wakes up later, don't worry.

If you are angry with him, stop talking nonsense!"

Chen Can smiled bitterly and agreed. He knew exactly what his mother was worried about.

In the eyes of his mother, he was still the impulsive Chen Can, the little bastard who specifically opposed his father.

Unfortunately, what she doesn't know is that now he has already experienced the ups and downs of human relationships in the world, and his ability to distinguish right from wrong has become enough with his age and life experience.

It’s a pity that time can’t be repeated!

Chen Can forcibly sent his mother out of the hospital and asked her to go back and rest for a few hours.

Looking at the rickety figure on the hospital bed, Chen Can remembered the look on his face the last time he saw this man.

Eight years ago, when I went home for the last time, not surprisingly, I had a big quarrel with my father again.

At that time, Chen Can shouted to his father excitedly.

"One day, I will do something great! I will never be as useless as you! Just wait for me!"

Now, eight years have passed since that passionate vow!

From this oath, there will be no future!

Memories of the past reappear in my mind scene by scene, like bubbles, and soon disappear in my mind.

Chen Can looked at his father who was as thin as skin and bones on the hospital bed, suppressed the emotions in his heart, and roared in a low voice.

"Old Chen! Old Chen, look at what the hell you are like now? Where is your bad temper? Where is your three pounds of pride?"

Chen Can seemed to be talking to himself or having a conversation between father and son. Unfortunately, Chen Can never got an answer!

I looked back out the window. I don't know when it had risen, but a full moon outside the window was already in the sky.

The moon was particularly round today. Chen Can then remembered that yesterday seemed to be the Mid-Autumn Festival. The moon on the 15th day was 16 round. What a pity!

The moonlight tonight had an inexplicable red color. Chen Can leaned his whole body against the wall of the ward. He had not slept all day and night, and he was exhausted at the moment.

At the last moment of his sleep, looking at the bright moon outside the window, Chen Can sighed deeply and murmured to himself.

"It would be great if I could have this fucking life over again!"

Chen Can became more and more sleepy and exhausted, his eyes slowly fell, and Chen Can's spirit completely fell into darkness.

The moonlight outside the window sneaked over the window sill and slowly illuminated the ward.

The round jade pendant on Chen Can's chest suddenly emitted a burst of strange red light. The red light began to ripple like ripples under the moonlight.

As it ripples, the light begins to distort, and finally becomes lighter, lighter and lighter, until it disappears completely!

As this strange scene occurred in the entire ward, the entire space began to collapse and turned into nothingness. Everything around it began to shatter. The crescent moon outside the window completely disappeared with a crisp cracking sound...

"Ouch! It hurts!"

Chen Can stood up as if his chest was being burned and he was electrocuted!
Chapter completed!