(Put it last night, there are more than two more today~ Continue to rob the recommended votes~~)

(The editor told me that I will continue to be in this category on October 4th... Uh, God!! I am so tired)

The car was driving on the way to the largest cemetery in Xi'an. Looking at the rows of trees that were rapidly regressing on the roadside, my mood became heavier and heavier. I knew that after today, life would be back on track, and the deceased could not come back.

Let them stay in our hearts and let us make the most solemn swear in front of their tombstones. I think this should be the idea of ​​the two generals, and this practice is very popular in the army. With the soul and will of the deceased friends, we can get rid of sorrow and pain and strive for progress...

I couldn't go to the funeral ceremony of Shen Jun's body. I heard Monina say that I was still lying in the hospital and still not getting up. I feel particularly regretful about this...

This time, as the last time I bid farewell to Mr. Shen, I will never escape from it anymore. I cannot be weaker, cannot rely on others, rely on myself, keep my promises - live...

For some reason, I suddenly felt that something that was missing in my heart was slowly filling up, first with warmth, then with confidence. And now the last thing - the goal - is in place.

Why do people die? In addition to birth, old age, sickness and death, they are hope and struggle. The hope and struggle often bring about a war that makes people sad and painful! I hope there can be a world without war and everyone can live in harmony. Although such a world is illusory and this world will not appear, I can make the current world infinitely approach this niche ideal...

Such goals are stupid and stupid. But I would rather be such a person. With such stupid goals, at least it is much better than when I was confused before. Ma Lidi, the so-called "national resistance organizations", can not exist in this world as long as the environment breaks the environment and social stability! The Kulan government is a good government. Although I don't know if corruption has happened at the grassroots level, I know that the Kulan Empire can stand in the galaxy for thousands of years and can handle racial issues well. It will definitely not be bad.

It is actually good to follow Monina, the future queen, and help her build a world without hope and competition...

But the basis for any ideal realization comes from strength. This little power in me is useless. I remember that in front of Jay and the madman who is called "shining", I was as weak as a baby. The scene of the crushing defeat when fighting Jay is still engraved in my mind...

At the same time, the threat from the Dusk Guard is also a great trouble. I am still very afraid that it will make my previous information public. If everyone in the world knows that I was a boy before, what else can I talk about? Be prepared to be baptized by the strange eyes of everyone and find a place where no one can survive alone...

So, I need to become stronger, I need the power to be able to protect myself and realize my ideals! The goal for a period of time was determined by me: to use the advantages of the special military headquarters to become stronger. At the same time, I found the secret of Amethyst...

I held the Medal of Heroes and Honor in the hotel just now, and held it tightly with the Medal of Martyrs belonging to Mr. Shen, and silently said: Mr. Shen, support my belief...

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A sudden brake woke me up from my thoughts. I looked out the window and had reached the door of the cemetery. On the mountain in the distance, there were a large area of ​​neatly arranged tombstones. Some people who came to commemorate the deceased were kneeling beside the tombstones, or standing silently.

After getting off the car, he followed the two generals along the winding path to a flower bush.

Colorful flowers bloom here, and the afternoon sun makes them look even more dazzling; dozens of crosses are distributed scattered in this sea of ​​flowers, and occasionally a few butterflies pass by. It is not an exaggeration to call it Feng Shui treasure land here...

When I came here, I could feel an inexplicable sense of familiarity. This is where Shen Jun sleeps...

"It's here, everyone, go find your friends." Kuiqila said to us, and slowly withdrew from this beautiful hill. "I won't bother you anymore, this is your privacy. I'll call your priest, who will pray for you and your friends."

Monina, who was standing next to me, pushed my shoulders, and I turned around and looked at her in confusion.

"Go and find your Shen Jun, I won't disturb you anymore." Monina smiled slightly. When I heard this, I blushed. What's my Shen Jun, we are just friends...

"Haha, I blushed, her tomb is there, I buried her personally." Monina touched my head and said, "Ye Xi who protected me with her life is worth doing this."

"Then I'll go." I said, holding the diary in my hand and running towards the direction Monina pointed.

It was a statue wearing a magic skirt and angel wings. You could see Shen Jun's face from a distance. The carving was realistic like a real person, and it gradually turned into Shen Jun's face in my eyes. It gradually merged with a scene in my dream...

I slowly walked towards the statue of Shen Jun. When I climbed up the statue, tears fell inexplicably...

"Jun Shen, you are one of my few friends." I wiped my tears and said with a smile, "Although we have been together for less than half a year, why do I feel that our relationship is better than those friends I have made before?"

"Although you have always been very cold and ignored me, you often help me inadvertently." I sat down slowly, finally leaned on the statue's lap, and continued, "It's probably because of this that I felt the feeling of being helped for the first time, so I feel very kind to you."

"Tell you a secret quietly." I touched the statue and whispered: "I used to be a very inferior person. I only found my confidence since I drove the two-seater glimpse zero. I can be cheerful because of you."

"So of course I have to stick to you, because my confidence can slowly improve by being next to you. It is because of you that I can achieve so fast progress. Over time, I find that I can't live without you. I have regarded you as a good sister for a long time." Tears flowed down again: "It's a pity that you are no longer here..."

"I haven't had time to thank you for protecting me. Moreover, when you were sleeping in the ground, I was still fainting in the bed." I wiped my tears and said, "I wonder if you complain that I didn't see you? But now that I'm here, I still want to apologize to you. Sorry, sorry, sorry..."

"I have read your diary." I touched the things in my hand and felt a faint warmth coming from it. I laughed and said, "I didn't expect that you, a cold and thorny rose, would also write a diary, which is quite romantic."

I remembered the last sentence on the last page of the diary and suddenly blushed: "I saw the last sentence, but I can only say sorry to you."

Suddenly, the past that was unbearable to look back on came into my heart. The memory that had been buried for a long time occupied my heart, like a curse, and I was not allowed to accept any feelings.

I don’t know what my final belongs to, whether to find a man, give birth to a child, and grow old from now on? Or to be with a beautiful woman who can take care of me, find a place where no one is, plant lilies, and feel the faint warmth between each other? Or... go alone forever and die of old age...

This is the curse of my memory? So that's it...

"We can be good sisters, but... there is no need for lovers..." I sorted out my mood and said, "I don't know why, I can't accept any feelings, isn't it strange?"

"But, I will keep my promise with you - to live." I said firmly: "At the same time, I will build a world without fighting, so that things between us will not happen again."

I laughed at myself for a while: "I know this kind of thing is impossible, but how can I know if I don't work hard? Shen Jun, I hope you can give me strength, give me your beliefs and your soul... Give me courage and determination..."

Suddenly, a weak female voice came from behind: "Meng Yexi...Sister, can I say something to Sister Shen Jun?"

I hurriedly looked back and saw a girl with two ponytails looking at me with a pleading gaze...
Chapter completed!