Without Gu Monina's reaction, I said directly: "Some things sound incredible, but some things happen to me."

I slowly immerse my thinking in the long history, and let the lava of the dark purgatory in that period of history burn myself. However, the pain has numbed... Now there is only a kind of yu hope left in my mind. I continued, "Sister Monina, you will definitely not believe it. Do you still remember when I met you in Beihai? At that time, I couldn't even speak Kulan's language, so I lied to Sister Monina and said that I came out in a closed mountain village..."

"But, I think there is no such so-called closed place at all." I paused, as if I was firming my beliefs, and I continued, "I don't know how to speak Kuran, because I don't belong to this era at all."

"No matter where Ye Xi, you are from... no matter what, you are mine..." Monina was still stubborn, her hand holding my waist tightly made me feel painful, but the warm feeling made me forget the pain. The body no longer hurts, but the soul still hurts. Who would be willing to take out the painful memory and let it rage in front of my eyes?

When I said these words, I felt my heart was bleeding.

I didn't care about Monina's words, and ruthlessly refused the gentle warm bed, saying no one else: "Sister Monina, do you know? Actually, I came from 320 years ago, when Kuran discovered the earth and the war broke out. At that time, I was a member of the Dusk Guard and my family died because of the war. I fell into the liquid nitrogen pool during a dying war in the hospital, and then when I woke up, it had been 300 years since..."

"So, my first lie was to hide my identity from Sister Monina. In fact... I am a member of the Twilight Guard, and I still keep in touch with them..." Exposing a lie that I had been hiding for a long time was like putting down a burden, which made people feel relaxed, but the price of this ease is not ordinary heavy...

"I remember someone in the organization asked me to assassinate you, Sister Monina, or to call out the frontline political information from here..." I pretended to be naughty, but I was very sad.

"I know Ye Xi, you won't do this..." Monina continued to say firmly, her confidence in me made me feel uncomfortable again.

Yes... I won't do this... I have been with Sister Monina for so long, and I have basically not revealed much important information to Zhao Jun and the others. I have known for a long time that the Dusk Guard is no longer the Dusk Guard used to be, and no longer the one I am loyal to...

Tears were still accumulating. I closed my eyes, rubbed the tears on the corners of my eyes, and continued, "I wouldn't do this. Sister Monina guessed correctly, because the current twilight guards are no longer the same as before. Although they are still lurking underground under the banner of exorcising foreign tribes and revitalizing China. But what they did was basically seen clearly in the few months after I woke up.

"They are just ambitious people in the national movement. The culture of China has not been lost, and the dignity of China has not been lost, but has been improved. What they do is ultimately disrupting society. I want to leave them, but I can't do it... because... they threaten me with something..."

"With me here, no one can threaten Ye Xi..." Monina was still so confident. When she got serious after crying, she had a brighter light than usual. But... this sentence was useless...

I shook my head helplessly and said, "Sister Monina, it's useless. That's the secret I fear the most. Once it is announced to the world, I don't know how I live in this world..."

When I think of everyone knowing my background, when I think of all the media talking about my predecessor, I can imagine such a world: a passerby looked at me and laughed: "Look, this beauty used to be a man..."

"It's so disgusting..."

"Shemale!"

...

I don't want this... I am not a saint who is indifferent to everything, I am still a human being after all... Tears filled my eyes again. The first time I made me careless, I let it flow even more fiercely. A wave of grievances made me unable to remain calm and sobbed in a low voice.

I'm afraid...I'm really afraid of that...

"Ye Xi, stop talking, okay..." Monina comforted me as usual. The voice seemed to have magic, which calmed me down. I could never see the expression of Sister Monina who was holding me from behind me, but I could imagine her worries.

Actually, I don’t want to say those things... but I just can’t help but tell them. I can’t deceive myself anymore. What would happen to Sister Monina after she knew all my secrets? I want to know the reality, I don’t want to see that illusory dream again...

There was a sudden burst of cruelty in my heart, and I said, "Sister Monina, do you know what this secret is?"

"Stop talking..." Monina hugged me tighter.

"Haha, when I think about it now, I feel incredible. I think outsiders will feel very disgusting." When they said this, the soul felt as if it was cut into pieces. "Sister Monina, do you know? In fact, I can sleep for 300 years and come to this era because I am a test subject of the Twilight Guard. They used the pure Chinese bloodline I have maintained for 300 years to do the same thing as WAG... I don't know if you have noticed that the purple bioforce field and the bioforce field that cannot be controlled to reduce weight are all things obtained from experiments..."

"Ye Xi! Stop talking!" Monina shouted at me fiercely, but why is there a struggle inside, which is incredible?

"These are all second-most, the most important thing is..." My body couldn't help but tremble, my mind was blank, and all my courage seemed to be concentrated on my mouth. It was difficult, and I had two difficult words: "I used to be a man... because of genetic radiation transformation in the experiment..."

"Then... the guards of the dusk threatened me with this secret... If I don't help them with things, they will publish the news in the world! I don't want to live like that, I just want to be calm!" Later, I seemed to be yelling hysterical, but because of this, the depression I had accumulated for several years seemed to be released at once, and suddenly it was easy to overcome the pain caused by this sentence. In an instant, tears couldn't help but flow out, as if they were venting. I no longer deliberately planned to cry and vent my heart's content...

The clouds opened, everything became clear, pain accompanied by madness, everything seemed to be released...

Monina was stunned, and her hand holding me seemed to slowly relax. I didn't care about it and vented on my own. This is reality, reality is cruel... Dreams are always dreams...

After venting this time, I will leave with peace of mind...

However, Monina suddenly hugged me tightly, so tight that she seemed to be breathless... She seemed to be crying again, but there was also a shocking force in the crying: "Ye Xi... Everything is gone... Everything is gone... Remember what I said, no matter what Ye Xi, you were like before, you are my Ye Xi..."

"It's me... I don't understand Ye Xi, you..." Monina slowly turned me over. In the hazy, it was Monina's infinitely enlarged face. Sister Monina...what did she want to do...

However, the face in front of me was indeed infinitely enlarged... Slowly, finally, the softness on my lips calmed my brain...

In this way, in the blank space, only Monina's gentle face slowly sinks...
Chapter completed!