I gradually got used to it. In the long-term blankness of my brain, I seemed to have experienced several centuries. But it seemed like I had walked through a passage to witness history, and looked helplessly at a mountain that I had accumulated, collapsed under the scorching sun. I once thought that this mountain would never collapse, but would only be harder and taller...

But vaguely, I found that I had not experienced several centuries and had no passage to travel through history. The scene in front of me seemed to have happened in an instant. Why is this?

This is a scene of the sky falling and the earth breaking. Is it a desperate ending?

My heart seemed to be exhausted, and there was no blood supply. It seemed to be no longer my heartbeat and cold. It slowly spread from my chest, sweeping away all my strength. Without the feeling of fulfillment, I seemed to be no longer myself...

I don't want to believe this is true, and I don't want to believe it either! I yelled in my heart, but it was less powerless than crying; I hope that a little tears could be squeezed out in my eyes, but it was as dry as if there was no rain. Open my eyes, and there was only the spinning world left, slowly turning into a darkness, dragging me into a bottomless abyss. As I struggled, I tried to squeeze out the conversation between Monina and Mr. Bai just now from my mind, but my soul was watching all this indifferently...

It would be great if I didn't hear these things... It doesn't matter if Sister Monina kept lying to me. It would be great if I didn't stand here and meddle in other people's business, I just had to be with Sister Monina. But... why is this happening?

I feel that I went back to the dark time when I just woke up a few years ago. This world only gave me a strange feeling. No one seemed to trust me. Everyone was malicious to me. I really wanted to... find a corner, hold my knees tightly and sleep with me curled up so that no one would disturb me...

The struggle and hope in my heart were invisibly crushed by Monina's ruthless military sting, and my mind was dizzy. Back to reality, my body had become cold, and my strength seemed to no longer exist. When my body became soft, I suddenly couldn't maintain the squat down position. My hands couldn't help but hold on to the ground and breathed in big breaths...

I never heard the rest of Monina and Old Man Bai again. I stared at the floor blankly, letting all the complicated information in my mind handle it by myself, and my heart became empty. I really hoped for the kind of warmth exchanged exchange that was exchanged with the trust in Monina in the past. However, trust was gone, and the magic of equivalent exchange was invisibly invalidated, leaving behind an empty space that was expanded to an infinite size.

How empty it is...

I just lost like this, and I don’t know how long it took. When my thinking gradually got on the right track, I thought a lot, and at the same time I cruelly wiped out my own hopes and hopes again and again. I no longer know Sister Monina inside the door next to me, and she no longer belongs to me, and this room is also the beautiful scene that Sister Monina promised to have is still a dream after all.

Maybe... I'm leaving, this place is not a place I can leave. I don't know if I want to escape, escape the secret talk that may appear like today at any time. I didn't want to escape anymore, but I need to be condoned once...

Sister Monina, who cannot make me trust, is no longer warm...

Tears finally remained again, flowing across the corner of my mouth, telling me that the taste of tears is bitter. I really want to hope that I will be here immediately now, and then pretend that I don’t know anything about it, and live with Sister Monina, and follow her to realize that beautiful picture. Forget what happened today...

But, I know, I can't do this. I have my own ideals, I have promised others and myself. Even if my attachment to Sister Monina will never fade, my dreams are always above everything else, just like... Sister Monina talking in it puts the strength of the country above my principles...

It's time to leave. Maybe we can meet again one day in the future, maybe we will pass by each other, maybe we will hug each other again, this is another dream. Determination slowly gathered a small goal, implanting a trace of strength into the heart that was pulled away from the slightest. In the dark, we finally saw the direction of the guide.

The boat drifting with the wind also entered a new channel at this time; the collapsed mountain was left with gravel and no longer standing tall. I don’t know if one day I can pile up the gravel and rebuild this mountain. Everything is normal, there is only a strong hope - finally, I deeply feel the warmth of Sister Monina again, then turn it into memories, and leave again...

I had a goal, but I was still exhausted. I slowly let me kneel on the ground and calmed down my chest that was still undulating just now. My body was still so cold, my brain was still so hard after thinking about it, and my emotions seemed to be frozen. I felt that I was really a walking corpse now.

The passing time and the shadows on the ground are reminding me that it is time to leave, prepare for it, and do something.

The stiff brain suddenly responded and told me the most correct way. I wanted to escape here and meet Sister Monina for the last time, maybe this is the only way.

I felt like I had become a robot, and my body slowly stood up as I followed the instructions from my brain to hold the wall. Alicia and Candy's gaze on the opposite side made me feel a little warm. They didn't say anything, maybe they were concerned about Monina who was having a secret conversation with Mr. Bai.

I smiled stiffly at them, waved to them, and then walked outside. When I walked, I didn't seem to feel my feet touching the ground, and in a trance I walked to a safer place. I couldn't remember how I came...

"Ye Xi, what's wrong with you? Why is your face suddenly so ugly." Walking to a safe place, Alicia immediately came up and supported me with Candy, and asked nervously: "Why are your eyes still so red? Ye Xi, are you sick? Ah, why are your hands so cold?"

The warmth from Alicia's hands was directly transmitted to her heart through her blood, and I felt a little relieved. Alicia still cared about me... It would be better for Alicia, she would not lie or hide it...

Gradually, my body seemed to have a little warmth. I smiled at Alicia, shook my head and said, "It's okay."

"It's okay? Your lips are white. Are you getting heatstroke?" Alicia was still worried. Her serious blue eyes and serious face still made people feel cute, but it still gave me warmth. Suddenly, she felt like she didn't want Alicia to leave.

However, there are some things I want Alicia to do and will meet again in the future. I gritted my teeth, shook my head again, and said, "It's nothing, I just heard a little news. We're leaving..."

"Let's go" Alicia looked surprised, then immediately became serious and said, "Then we have to wait until Ye Xi, you are cured before leaving."

"It's okay... I'll be fine later." I smiled again, then made myself serious, grabbed Alicia's shoulder and said, "Alicia, listen to me!"

"Ah?" Alicia was stunned in surprise.

"We are going to leave this place and leave this palace, do you know?" When we said this, we felt a thrill in our hearts. We endured it. I continued to emphasize: "Leave, maybe we won't come back..."

(Leaving does not mean getting married...)
Chapter completed!