(This chapter is mainly about the protagonist’s life experience and entering the orphanage in Cocolia. Because when I read it, I always felt a little confused and felt that an inexplicable place suddenly appeared, so I planned to write this chapter.

Go through it, and it is in the form of a log, so if you are not used to it, you can skip it directly)

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{Today is my first diary entry. They asked me to write it. Although I don’t understand it, I decided to write it anyway}

{Today is my second diary entry and my first mission. That person died in my hands. I feel very uncomfortable and want to vomit.}

{Today is my third diary. A very strict instructor came today. He asked me to survive in the snow for half a day. At that time, I felt like I saw my mother and parents. They pushed me to wake up.

Yes, but...}

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{Today is my eleventh diary entry. I no longer feel the disgust of killing people, but their blood still smells good}

{Today is the twelfth chapter. I finally don’t have to eat bread today. My commander gave me meat. I’m very grateful to my commander.}

{Today is the thirteenth chapter. When I was on a mission, it snowed so heavily that I almost died outside. But I haven’t seen the commander today and I haven’t even eaten any bread. I have completed the mission today.

Isn’t it bad?}

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{Today is the seventy-eighth chapter. I don’t know how long it has been, and I no longer feel uncomfortable. However, I saw the iron tower in the distance smoking. Although I really wanted to see it, I had too many tasks.

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{Today is the hundredth article. I killed twelve people today. It feels so boring! In fact, it was very interesting to listen to their last words before they died.}

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{Today is the 140th chapter. I am so curious today when I listen to those people talking about the world outside the snowfield!}

{Today is Chapter 141. I walked out of this snowfield today, but it feels so weird. I haven’t eaten any bread yet}

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{Today is the 190th chapter. Our camp is very busy today. New Year? I don’t understand, but there are no tasks today, so you can have a good rest.}

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{Today is the 210th article. A girl named Bronya came from the camp and was actually assigned to my army. She actually called me sister!?, Tsk, trouble...}

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{Today is the 240th article. I don’t understand why my hair is white and getting longer and longer, but that little girl likes it very much.}

{Today is Chapter 241, the camp was defeated, I had no choice but to leave...}

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{I don’t know how many chapters there are today. I wandered into a village today and an old man took me in. He was very kind to me. Is this the “home” that those people called?}

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{Because of my gray hair, I was regarded as an outlier, but luckily I have a grandfather.}

{It snowed well today. Grandpa’s legs are not good, so I had to go out by myself. Fortunately, I came back safely and I won’t catch a cold when I sleep today.}

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{My grandpa gave me meat to eat today. I felt the family affection and it was really warm.}

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{Grandpa left today...}

{Grandpa’s relatives took him away, and I became a person again...}

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{I left the village and continued to do what I was best at... If I feel tired one day, just go home and have a look..., although my "home" is gone}

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{I am doing an assassination mission and trying to stay alive in this snowy field, but I don’t understand why I have to live}

{I met a colleague today, and his behavior and habits were similar to mine. We entered into a stalemate.}

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{It was snowing heavily, which gave me an opportunity. With the help of snowflakes, I got close to her, but I didn’t expect that she was actually Bronya}

{I understand she is the silver wolf in this film.}

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{I know from her mouth that my name is too high and too dangerous, so someone hired her to kill me. As for the title, I have never told anyone else.}

{I killed the person who wanted to kill me. He was quite rich, so I decided not to do it}

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{I returned to the village. Grandpa’s house still exists, but the contents have been emptied}

{I went to see grandpa, and then went to the city to buy things, but there was one more person beside me. I didn’t understand that Bronya would choose to follow me, and I didn’t understand that she would like a yellow-skinned mouse. What’s his name?

Homu? I don’t understand why you should buy it for her?｝

{When I returned to the village, many people still accepted me because of my grandfather}

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{It stopped snowing today. After I went to shovel away the excess snow from my grandpa’s place, I started chatting to myself. I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t cry...}

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{Today is my first New Year in the village. I no longer have to celebrate the New Year alone. It feels good.}

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{I don’t know how long it has been. I seem to have almost forgotten my former identity. People in the village no longer treat me badly. Speaking of Bronya, I also understand how my grandfather felt when he adopted her. I feel very happy.

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{Today is normal, nothing special.}

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{A group of people came to the village. They reminded me of my identity back then. They destroyed the village and I destroyed them...}

{Bronya and I set foot on the snowfield again. Maybe it was the goddess of luck who blessed us. We met a blond woman named Cocolia... and she took us to an orphanage}

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{In the orphanage, I felt the happiness of my family again. Bronya also found friends. I felt that everything was getting better. Maybe I could rest.}

{I left the orphanage, not because it was bad, but because I missed my grandpa...}

{I can't express my emotions, and I can't understand other people's emotions. I feel like this is how it should be, experiencing the coldness of the snow alone. At that time, I felt that I seemed to have integrated into the world.}

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{I came to my grandfather’s tomb. The tomb was in dilapidated condition. I rebuilt the tomb. This time, I really cried...}

(He left the remaining warmth to me, allowing me to see the light of hope, but the remaining warmth could not melt the ice.)

{I accidentally fell asleep. I was mentally exhausted for a long time. Even if it was because of the past me, I didn’t dare. But when I woke up again, I returned to the orphanage and looked at the snow-white ceiling. I didn’t know what to think.

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{When I woke up again, I felt the wetness on my hands. When I turned around, I saw my sister. This was the first time I admitted that she was my relative...}

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{Time flies, I have been in this orphanage for nearly a year, and I have made many friends. However, since then, Bronya has been clinging to me all day long. Although it feels weird, I understand.

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{Today Bronya and I came to the city with Cocolia to buy this year’s gifts. At the same time, we bought Bronya a Homu doll. Looking at her smile, it didn’t matter whether it was worth it or not.
To be continued...