Chapter 295 Life is not a building block

Xu Lingdong is not a naturally paranoid person.

In fact, no one will develop a paranoid character from birth.

Everyone's character is like the footprints after a snowstorm, with a clear trajectory, from near to far, deep and shallow.

Su Jie looked at Xu Lingdong silently, did not continue speaking, and prepared to play the role of a listener.

Xu Lingdong's body is as thin as paper and leaning on the bed. He likes to share his love for architecture with others, but he is rarely willing to tell others about his past.

Sharing happiness will make him feel happy, but opening scars will only make him feel pain.

But facing Su Jie...Xu Lingdong himself didn't know why, he really wanted to reveal his inner story.

These stories once made him breathless, but he couldn't find anyone to talk to. He could only strengthen his spine so that it could continue to carry everything hard and accompany him on his lonely journey.

But this time, Xu Lingdong wanted to speak out.

After thinking for a while, Xu Lingdong cleared his mind and then said:

"I have always considered myself to be a very unlucky person."

"I was born prematurely. I experienced the dangers of life and death that no one else has ever experienced in their lifetime, but I experienced it as soon as I was born."

"I lay in the incubator for a whole month, but I only found out later that there is a special intensive care unit for newborns, which also has mini ventilators, monitors, and infusion pumps specially for newborns...

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"I was lucky enough to escape from the hell gate, but I didn't experience even one day of 'surviving a catastrophe will lead to good fortune'..."

"I have only one kidney, underdeveloped lungs, and a patent foramen ovale in my heart... I am a very unlucky person, and I have known this since I was born."

Xu Lingdong looked at the tower of blocks, his eyes a little blurry, and his voice was not very sad.

Su Jie looked at him and thought that in thirty years and so many days and nights, he might have accepted everything...

After Xu Lingdong was silent for a moment, he continued:

"But life is indeed...how should I put it, there must be gains and losses."

"I am a very lucky person."

"After I started school, I and my family were surprised to find that I was really talented in reading."

"Although I barely attended a full semester due to physical reasons, after the college entrance examination, I ranked first in the city and was admitted to the best architecture university in the country, where I studied my favorite architecture."

While speaking, Xu Lingdong pointed to the tower of blocks and said: "So, I have always felt that my life is like a tower of blocks. Although it is crumbling and seems vulnerable, it is still moving upward."

"There is always a way in this world that allows me to put the last building block on it. I firmly believe this."

"It's difficult and there's no room for error, but there's always a way!"

Su Jie had actually noticed the building block placed aside. Compared with other building blocks, it was obviously larger and heavier.

It is indeed not an easy task to place this building block on the already shaky tower of building blocks.

Xu Lingdong saw Su Jie's thoughts, smiled and said: "In the past, I could put it up, but now my health is getting worse and my hands are shaking, so I can't put it up."

Su Jie looked at the extra building block silently, hesitated for a moment, reached out to pick it up, put it on his fingertips to familiarize himself with it, and asked at the same time: "Because of these experiences, you are not willing to trust the doctor's judgment?"

Xu Lingdong actually understood why he had such a pleasant conversation with a doctor he had only met twice.

But for people like him who can't see the future very well, enjoying the present is more important than anything else.

If you don’t know, then don’t know, just be happy.

Xu Lingdong leaned back, assumed a slightly more comfortable posture, and then said: "It's not that I believe in doctors, but compared to doctors, I believe in myself more."

"After all, doctors have to treat too many patients every day, but I have a whole day to think about my condition."

Su Jie nodded, noncommittal, and then asked: "That's why after you learned that Dr. Yamashita Oda came to Southeast Hospital, you rushed thousands of miles to seek medical treatment here?"

"Yes, Yamashita Oda is a well-known urology expert at Dongda Affiliated Hospital. His skills should be among the best in the world. It is a rare opportunity to have him perform surgery on me." Xu Lingdong nodded.

"Have you often been like this before?" Su Jie asked again.

"That's right!" Xu Lingdongbo smiled proudly.

Su Jie rolled the building blocks with his fingertips. After a short period of familiarity, he seemed to be very skilled in playing with the building blocks.

The building blocks rolled around on his fingertips, as if they had been given souls.

"You have worked very hard." Su Jie suddenly said.

"What?" Xu Lingdong frowned in confusion.

"I said, you are working very hard."

Su Jie's voice was warm and soft, like a healing breeze. He said slowly:

"You are an unfortunate person, but you are also a lucky enough person."

"It's like fate played a joke on you."

"If you are just an unfortunate person, you can sink yourself and squander a life that is not worth it."

"But you have such a strong learning ability. You can appreciate the beautiful scenery that many people in the world cannot see, and you can get happiness and beauty from architecture. You are reluctant to squander your life. You want to live a normal life.

People live like that..."

Xu Lingdong looked at Su Jie blankly, wondering why the other party could explain himself so clearly.

He once saw a picture with three people on it.

The first person stands on the ground and can only see a wall.

Another man stood on a stack of books and saw the beautiful scenery outside the window.

This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! The third person stood on the book like a hill and saw the real world outside the wall.

Indeed, as Su Jie said, if Xu Lingdong could only see a wall, then he might not develop such a paranoid character and have such a strong desire to continue living a good life.

But the problem is that he saw the scenery outside the window, and even wanted to see the real world beyond the high wall.

He will not fall down like this, and his life cannot end so hastily.

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"You worked too hard."

Su Jie didn't pause and continued: "You put all the pressure on your own shoulders."

"You want to build a tower of blocks and control everything by yourself, grasping every detail that may cause it to topple."

"But don't you think it's too hard for you?"

"After all, life is not a tower of building blocks. You can't do everything by yourself, and even if you do it, how can you guarantee that your life will really proceed step by step according to your plan?"

"The complexity of life is much greater than building blocks."

"You need a little professional help and a little external force. What you need most is to relax a little and stop pushing yourself so hard."

"It's been really hard for you all these years by yourself. Please take a rest."

Xu Lingdong had never heard anything like this before.

His paranoid character kept every doctor who dealt with him at arm's length. In order to prevent his troubles in advance, many doctors would try their best to refuse to diagnose him and recommend him to seek treatment in other hospitals.

This is the first time in so many years that Su Jie has expressed his deepest feelings like this.

Xu Lingdong breathed a long sigh of relief, as if he had let out a lot of the breath that had been pressed in his chest for so many years. He looked up at Su Jie, but felt a little strange.

What about building blocks?

After hesitating for a few seconds, Xu Lingdong noticed the source of the strangeness.

The building blocks that had been rolling around Su Jie's fingertips just now disappeared.

Suddenly, Xu Lingdong turned his head and looked at his tower of blocks.

On top of the crumbling tower of building blocks, I don’t know when a large and heavy building block appeared.

The complete building block tower was finally put together, and the last building block also played a role in stabilizing the overall structure, making the entire building block tower look more stable and solid.

For a moment, Xu Lingdong's eyes felt a little hot.

at this time.

Su Jie looked at Xu Lingdong and asked again:
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