Karen's eyes made Kevin feel the same terror as before. When that gaze fell, it seemed as if it could directly trample your godhood and crush away all your pride.

After rolling on the ground for two times, Pu'er immediately got up and jumped to the edge of the bathtub. She carefully observed Karen's condition. She raised her right paw, and a soft spark was flying, preparing to conduct an internal exploration of Karen.

"Get out...get out...get out!"

Karen almost gritted his teeth and said to Pu'er. The black in his eyes became darker than before.

"We can find a way to ease your pain, we can, little Karen, just relax and don't be afraid, the cat is by your side."

Karen almost growled: "Kevin, take Pu'er out!"

Kevin, who was already lying on the ground and foaming at the mouth, immediately got up and stood up, grabbed the Pu'er in his mouth, ran out of the bathroom quickly, and closed the bathroom door with a flick of his tail.

Then it immediately lay down on the ground again, staring and panting heavily.

"Is there really no way?" Pu'er asked Kevin.

Kevin shook his head.

That was a problem that even the God of Order could not solve back then.

"You can't even look at him?" Pu'er asked.

"Woof."

"You mean, he doesn't want to treat me as food?"

…

In the bathtub, Karen clutched the edge of the bathtub with both hands, and the hunger that made his soul feel so empty was tormenting him crazily.

In comparison, the soreness in my muscles that I endured when I played against the captain last night was not worth mentioning.

"Ah...ah...ah..."

Gasps came from Karen's throat, and the black in his eyes was so thick that it almost turned into water droplets.

So hungry...so hungry...so hungry...

Karen began to relive the wonderful feeling when she swallowed the three-headed python, Fenites, over and over again in her mind, just like a normal person would subconsciously fantasize about the scene of a big meal before when he was hungry.

I really want to do it again, I really want to get that sense of satisfaction again, I really want to get that kind of happiness again.

After fantasizing over and over again, a new picture appeared in Karen's mind. In the picture, it was no longer Funites but the people around him: Alfred...Pu'er...Kevin...Muri...

This is a kind of rational decline. The most terrifying thing is that you can clearly feel that the incoming desire is eroding the dam in your heart.

Karen gritted his teeth and walked out of the bathtub. When he walked to the sink, he saw himself in the mirror.

It's so strange, so ferocious.

He looked at the bathroom door, then turned to face the sink, threw the towel into the sink, turned on the hot water, and scalding hot water flowed out.

Immediately, regardless of the temperature, he directly applied the scalding towel to his face.

"ah!"

Karen shook his head and dropped the towel. He grabbed the edge of the sink with both hands and looked at himself in the mirror again.

It seems that since the world just woke up, he likes to wipe his face again and again in front of the sink in the bathroom, because he was not familiar with his face at that time, nor was he familiar with his new identity.

Now, he found the same feeling again.

At this time, the self in the mirror was also so strange, so strange that he was a little scared.

"hiss……"

Karen took a deep breath, and the hunger deep in his soul once again pulled him into confusion.

Chains of order spread out from Karen's feet, first covering the entire tiles, and then covering all four walls of the bathroom. They surrounded Karen. The chains that originally symbolized majestic order now looked like chains.

A ferocious python that chooses people to eat.

It is not Karen who is hungry, but Order.

A chain bound Qianmei out and placed her in front of Karen.

Qian Mei shrank into a coil of mosquito coils, looking at the scenes around her, her soul trembling.

Especially when Karen looked at it with deep black eyes, Qianmei felt that her end seemed to be at the next moment.

All around, chains of order were like evil spirits breathing out their breath, as if their saliva was dripping out.

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"

Qian Mei let out a howl of soul. It was no longer pleading, but crying. As a life born with cruelty and violence as its foundation, it was completely suppressed at this time to the point where it had the most primitive fear.

"ah……"

Karen kept growling in her throat and began to swallow her saliva.

At this time, your rationality has lost its existence. If someone else uses a spiritual offensive against you, there will at least be a hostile relationship. But now, it is your own foundation that is threatening you.

Or, give it up;

Or, follow it.

Karen raised her gaze again and looked at herself in the mirror.

He knew very well that if he had to swallow Funites last time for a very good reason, then if he was coerced by desire and swallowed another one this time, he would completely step into the abyss.

I will no longer have the courage to resist it, and I will be driven by it to annex one after another.

Grandpa said that the God of Order is very hungry.

Even such a powerful God of Order cannot resist its coercion. How could I do it?

If this is something that must be experienced, if this is something that must be endured, then why am I still resisting here?

Karen's hand grabbed Qianmei, and the chains of order around her began to shake desperately at this moment, as if they couldn't wait any longer.

But Karen's hand stopped midway.

When I was inspired by God, why did I not listen to the words of the God of Order and insist on going my own way? Because I insist that practice is the only criterion for testing truth.

When I was a divine shepherd, why did I have to remove God and place myself on the altar of my inner faith? Because I don’t think there is a savior or divine emperor that I can rely on in this world.

Dis did not hesitate to self-destruct his godhood and sleep to pave the way for himself. What did he do for that? If he just allowed himself to follow in the footsteps of the God of Order, then he could become an elder of the temple and help his grandson in the church.

The greatest protection and support.

If he gives in, when he returns home and wakes up Dis, probably Dis will be very disappointed.

Karen took a deep breath and raised her head stubbornly.

I said that there should be no God at the end of faith.

I said he was wrong.

I said, I will go my own way.

The God of Order is very powerful, but in my eyes, he is a loser.

Isn't it normal for a loser to fail?

Why should I deny the possibility of winning because of the failure of a loser?

"hehe……"

Karen smiled.

He had said before that what Alfred studied and admired was not actually himself, because many of the notes he left behind were not his true original creations.

What Alfred was fascinated by was another great idea, and he was just a communicator, a medium.

I am actually not that great.

In other words, I, like Alfred, are walking firmly on this road. Because I believe in it, I have the courage to demonstrate it.

It is powerful, it is right, it is great, that is it...not itself.

A sentence, a principle, a thought cannot be completely integrated with oneself until one understands the words and realizes the deeper meaning.

There is always something to be sacrificed, something to be polished, and...some blood to be shed.

Karen retreated violently and fell to the ground. The chain of order that bound Qianmei was loosened and Qianmei was free. However, it did not dare to run now and just curled up there and continued to tremble.

The oppression of hunger became more and more intense, and the surrounding order chains also fell into an anxious mood at this time.

Karen raised the palm of his right hand, and a bright flame appeared in his palm. Then he brought the flame to his chest and let the flame enter his body.

"hiss!!!"

Karen curled up on the ground in pain, and this bright flame was burning his soul.

This is not a clever method. Most addicts have tried this method, using self-harm to distract themselves.

It's just that Karen played a more advanced game, breaking away from the body and self-harming, directly targeting his own soul.

This feeling of roasting your own soul is completely painful from the beginning.

But Karen didn't give up yet, enduring great pain while continuing to maintain the bright flame.

The chain of order around Karen also began to curl up painfully at this time, and began to swing continuously.

"Are you still hungry..."

"You continue to be hungry..."
To be continued...