Chapter 26, to shine, not to be illuminated
"Jin Chuntian, you have to understand that you are a gift."
"I will give you to the Master, when the right time."
"Don't escape your fate, you must learn to surrender and learn to please."
In the past, Huang Dongcheng adopted goldfish from the orphanage for these brainwashings, with the purpose of treating her as a gift and giving it to the so-called "master".
Those memories are torture by inhumanity. They completely let go of self-esteem and submission to human nature.
Looking at Kim Ji-soo's eyes, Jinyu couldn't help but recall her past. Although her first half of her life was only a dozen years, she has lived in hell since she had memories.
While Kim Ji-soo was still enjoying his wonderful youth, Jinyu had already been tortured by Huang Dong-sung. He was tied up in handcuffs and locked in a dog cage. He was punished with other people's preferences out of thin air. He was whipped for no reason and didn't know when the darkness would end.
Since those beautiful things have never been possessed, the goldfish also thinks that these happy girls are so hateful. Especially Kim Ji-soo in front of her, the things in her eyes are too clean, as if there is a lamp illuminating something. This bright look makes the goldfish jealous.
So Goldfish has been looking for trouble and bullying people countless times. This feeling makes her feel that she is stronger than them, so she can despise the happiness they have, but she should not care about it.
But the most hateful thing is that no matter how arrogant the goldfish is, Kim Ji-soo always stands up and looks at her with this kind of eyes.
What does Kim Ji-soo look like?
Without any compromise or fear, looking at the goldfish is like looking at a poor worm. It seems that everything in its eyes is full of courage, pride, kindness, disdain, as if full of hope,
And these beauty is not available to goldfish. This is why goldfish hate Kim Ji-soo, because this look seems to remind the goldfish that you are just a reptile in the dark, not suitable for living in the sun, not suitable for standing with them.
Although Kim Ji-soo had never had this meaning, even when Goldfish first joined the trainee team, Kim Ji-soo was still taking care of her because Goldfish was young... But Goldfish had long been swallowed up by her inner thoughts.
The feeling of inferiority is overwhelming, and the goldfish just feels that they are being discriminated against.
Why, at the same age, such a clear, simple and brave look, I didn't have such a clear, simple, and brave look, but it appeared in this person's eyes.
"I hate your eyes!"
Jinyu looked at Kim Ji-soo and said coldly.
After hearing such words, Kim Ji-soo didn't care at all. After all, this is already very slight compared to what Goldfish has done.
"Why don't you talk?" Jinyu picked up the water beside him and poured it on the salad on Kim Ji-soo's plate: "If you don't have a mouth and can't speak, why should you continue to eat? Why don't you die? Why are you still alive? Otherwise, die, I don't want to see you."
Kim Ji-soo just smiled contemptuously.
The goldfish was angry and reached out and overturned a plate of salad directly onto Kim Ji-soo's clothes.
Kim Ji-soo's clean clothes were stained. This was the one she had changed for a while. How long has it been, Kim Ji-soo's clothes had been stained twice by the goldfish.
The goldfish even felt unsatisfied and grabbed a handful of sticky things mixed with fruits and vegetables, and threw them directly on Kim Ji-soo's face: "Don't look at me, eat it for me! Bitch!"
Kim Ji-soo wiped his face and looked at the goldfish with provocation in his eyes.
"I hate your eyes, I don't like such eyes. Sooner or later, I will let the light in your eyes be extinguished. Kim Ji-soo, remember this sentence, I will destroy the light in your eyes." Jinyu was extremely angry.
Finally, Kim Ji-soo spoke, and only one sentence made the goldfish fall into the abyss: "Pity."
"You!" The goldfish was really angry: "You say it again?"
Kim Ji-soo looked at the goldfish and was actually smiling: "Pity. I will say this no matter how many times I will. What do you want to destroy? The light in my eyes? But you will never understand. The light in my eyes is not illuminated, but my own light."
The goldfish's psychological defense line was instantly defeated.
Go to shine, not be illuminated.
Haha, it's light!
This is why she hated Kim Ji-soo. No matter how Jinyu was in a different way, she could not make Kim Ji-soo's eyes look as dull as herself. Compared to hatred, this contempt is more unacceptable.
Kim Ji-soo's eyes turned and he saw a strange face appear. At this time, the person who appeared here was either the trainee or the goldfish's backer. Even the trainee Kim Ji-soo knew him, so this person should be that person.
But... so young.
Kim Ji-soo originally thought he would be a bald or big belly uncle, but he didn't expect that he would be a very young man. Because of this kind of youth, Kim Ji-soo was not sure about it again.
After all, at this age, he really doesn’t look like a person who can hold any power in Korea. He can keep Yang Hyun-shuo away from the edge for the time being. He is so young? He doesn’t seem to be much older than himself?
However, Jinyu's actions made Kim Ji-soo confirm the identity of the person in front of him. Because Jinyu felt Kim Ji-soo's gaze, he looked back and saw that his whole body changed his appearance and hurriedly came over.
"Dad, sorry, I didn't notice it. My relatives and I are playing here! The joke was a bit big, I forgot the time." Jinyu hurriedly said, "It's a bit messy here, why don't we talk about it in another place!"
Kim Ji-soo didn't speak, and it was too embarrassing to cry at this time. As long as he was not stupid, he should know what was going on.
But will he succeed? Is this person’s heart righteous or as vicious as a goldfish? Forget it, he has tried his best.
Thinking of this, Kim Ji-soo just closed his eyes and took a deep breath. No matter what, he worked hard, and he had endured it for so long and had been waiting for this moment. So, accept the result.
If this person is really a guy who doesn't talk about right and wrong, then even if he tries to be a trainee, he must beat up the goldfish well. This is also a contribution he has made to others. It's really impulsive, but it doesn't matter anymore. Young people are qualified to take risks.
Wang Taika was speechless when he looked at this scene. The goldfish was still explaining flattery, and a girl she didn't know closed her eyes and sat on a chair and rested, as if she was waiting for her to fall.
However... Wang Taika doesn't have so much kindness in mind about these other people's business. He just looked at Kim Ji-soo indifferently, thinking that he was quite beautiful, but that's all.
With his eyes back to the goldfish, Wang Taika just said, "Please!"
Kim Ji-soo smiled coldly when she heard this.
Chapter completed!