Nanshan often thinks about what his life would be like if he had not been adopted by his master.

A baby with congenital defects is discarded at the entrance of the hospital and may be sent to the police station. Perhaps no one cares, freezes to death by the streets in winter, or perhaps stays in a welfare home because of the disease and is not taken away by anyone and grows up there alone.

No matter how you think about it, most of them are not very good possibilities. If everyone is really waiting for a price, Nanshan knows that he should belong to a very cheap category.

So he always thinks that the luckiest thing in his life is to meet his master, take him in, and become the so-called "closed disciple". Therefore, he has no obsession with most people or things in this world, no demands, and no jealousy, because those that do not belong to him in the first place.

But a person who looks very pessimistic will only bring negative emotions to the people around him. Nanshan knows it very well, so he smiles all day long and is used to laughing like this.

It could have been disguised like this, but his master was seriously ill and he couldn't afford to treat him. Seeing his master's illness worsen day by day, he had to go to the altar to take risks.

When he got the first sacred coin points, he returned to reality and allowed his master to be admitted to the hospital, Nanshan was no longer afraid of anything. He knew that he had to make a breakthrough like this.

In the altar, he was used to seeing people's sinister hearts until he met An Wujiu and his group, especially Wu You.

A child actually came to such a dangerous place and looked so calm and quiet, which attracted Nan Shan's attention in an instant. He handed the injection containing life-saving medicine to the other party, but he was not completely at ease, but he knew that if even the child could not save him, there might be no one else.

This kid really saved him.

When Nan Shan knew that Wu You had similar experiences to him, he had to admit that he did have subtle empathy. He could see through the fragility and confusion under Wu You's strong shell at a glance, but he did not expose it.

He was abandoned because he had no value, and Wu You was cloned because his heart was valuable.

These life-and-death friendships made Nanshan deliberately disguised frivolity gradually sink, gradually revealing his original appearance.

Even Nanshan himself didn't know when his feelings for Wu You started to be different, but he did change.

Death is the sword of Damocles hanging above his head, which may be cut down at any time. He can only turn his love into the courage to protect Wu You, and is ready to die for him at any time.

Back to the reality of peace, he retreated instead.

This child’s future is so beautiful, and there are thousands of possibilities, why should it be limited to his hands?

Will the two people in the suspension bridge still have a heartbeat once they leave that dangerous place?

Wu You stood in front of him, holding his wrist and looking straight at him, something shaking in his eyes seemed irresistible.

Nan Shan really couldn't refuse. He had told many lies in his previous life, all of which were all laughing, but now, he couldn't laugh out loud, and he couldn't lie to swear to Wu You.

"You don't want to say it again?" Wu You's eyes were a little wet, like a persistent puppy.

He couldn't see his eyes, so he thought he might not be very likable. Perhaps Nanshan just said casually that they had no memories of the past this time. In the past twenty years, Nanshan might have met someone he liked.

Wu You couldn't even confirm that Nan Shan really had different feelings for him before, so he still treated him as a younger brother.

These are all unknowns. He has had enough of exploring in the unknown and regaining his memory. He wanted to find the answer.

But Nanshan never spoke, as if she didn't remember the promise she made at all.

Wu You felt more and more sad when he thought about it, his eyes were sore and he turned his head.

The rain seemed to have no intention of stopping, and the water line flowed down the edge of the billboard, but the sun didn't go away.

Weird weather, like their contradictory hearts at this moment.

Wu You let go of his hand.

"What's wrong?" Nanshan took a step closer and turned her head, "Are you unhappy?"

"No." Wu You sniffed and turned his face, "I'll go home first if you don't want to say anything."

"It's not that I don't want to say it." Nan Shan stretched out his hand, held Wu You's shoulder, subconsciously trying to keep him, "Don't go home."

Wu You looked up at him without tears, but his eyes were red and he was very stubborn.

Nanshan couldn't bear to let him show such an expression, but he didn't know what to say for a moment.

"Can I hug you?" he blurted out.

Wu You still looked at him like a discarded puppy, returning to his master pitifully and stubbornly, but he didn't shout, pretending that he didn't care at all.

"If you don't object, I will act as your default." Nan Shan used his hand holding the marshmallow to pull out the marshmallow from Wu You's hand, held it for him, and then opened his arms and half hugged him.

The subtle distance between his arm and his back suggests his contradictory heart.

"Don't be unhappy, I want to say it." Nanshan comforted him, his voice was low, only two people could hear it. "The reason I wanted to say that day was because we might not have a future."

Wu You, who did not resist his hug, suddenly asked, "Then now we are all safe, don't you want to say it?"

Nan Shan paused, and Wu You could clearly feel his breath lingering in his ears.

"Because everyone is safe, there are many possibilities in the future, such as you, and there will be many choices in front of you in the future." Nanshan's tone was a little hesitant, as if even he could not firmly follow what he said.

But he continued, "Our life is not easy now. You and I know that before, did you say, are your parents now very nice to you? I don't want to ruin it because of my reasons..."

Wu You frowned and raised his head, interrupting him, "Do you want me to have a good life?"

Nan Shan paused, "Of course."

The crowd around was very busy, and everyone seemed to have their own important purpose. They ran around and shuttled indifferently into the rain. Only Wu You and Nan Shan seemed to be two people locked in time.

Wu You's hands in his pocket clenched into fists, and was even ready to escape.

"Like." The smile on Nan Shan's face completely disappeared, as if she had stripped off the shell that covered his loneliness and showed him helpless, lonely, struggling and timid to Wu You.

"I like you not only now, the past, and many cycles."

This sentence is like a hammer made of marshmallows. It hit Wu You, and it didn't feel the pain, but it made him confused.

In the moment of confusion, the sadness that he had been restraining finally poured out, and a few tears fell on his round and large eyes.

Seeing that the golden beans fell off with a confused look on his face, Nan Shan felt very distressed, and reached out to wipe them for him, and said very carefully and quietly: "Youyou, don't cry."

Wu You raised his hand and wiped it randomly with the back of his hand, "I can't guess what you think if no one tells you..."

This time he took the initiative to hug Nanshan, buried his head in front of his chest, and said in a muffled voice: "I know there are many choices in the future, but I have chosen you so many times in the past. Isn't that enough?"

"I like you, Nanshan." Wu You made up his mind to expose this relationship, so he simply said it all in one breath, "If I can't be with you, my life will be very regretful."

Nan Shan was stunned for a moment, his hands were holding up two tightly clinging marshmallows, and the sticky sugar liquid flowed down his fingers, without any time to stop it.

He could no longer hide the contradictions he called were actually the same.

Sacrifice to protect Wu You, and retreating back as a friend for him, are brave and cowardly, all Nanshan.

If Wu You asked him to stay, no matter how much he convinced himself, he would not choose to leave at all.

"Be with me, Nanshan." Wu You hugged him, clenched the fabric on his back, and his subconscious action was like acting cute, completely a foul.

Nanshan still retained her last sanity, "Early love has a great impact on you. I like you. I can wait for you and wait until you go to college before formally dating. Is it OK?"

Wu You, who heard Nan Shan's words, was a little out of place. He had already expected what Nan Shan was going to say. After listening, he hit Nan Shan's chest with his forehead and repeatedly fouled.

"I became an adult soon, just over a year."

"Yes, then on the day of adulthood, how about it?" Nanshan began his "straightforwardness" again.

Wu You's movements stopped, but his forehead was still pressed against Nan Shan, as if he was thinking.

Finally he compromised, "Okay."

Wu You raised his head, put his hands back in his pocket, staring at Nan Shan for a while, "...you won't change your mind then."

Nan Shan smiled helplessly and reached out to touch Wu You's head, "What are you thinking? How is that possible?"

After his smile was curled, he solemnly said to Wu You: "I will only like you more and more. You can treat this year as a test period, and I will perform well."

Wu You pursed her lips and glanced at Nan Shan's hand, "I can't eat my candy."

"Buy another one?" Nan Shan asked, turned around and saw that the old man who set up the stall had moved.

Wu You shook his head, "No need, come again next time, you will come with me anyway."

Nan Shan's lips curled up, "Of course."

The sun and rain stopped, and the crowded crowds scattered with the twilight, and the hazy moon appeared in the sky. Nanshan sent Wu You home. Along the way, Wu You didn't say anything, and later realized it was ashamed of his immediateness.

But Nanshan seemed to know that he would be embarrassed, and kept telling him what happened recently, such as the white wealthy businessman who believed in Feng Shui and what customers said about haunted things.

It was not until Wu You downstairs that he changed his words, "Are you there? It turns out that you live here and it looks relatively safe..."

Before he could finish speaking, Wu You, who had already adjusted from the embarrassment, interrupted him, "I'll tell you something."

Nanshan nodded, "Tell me."

Wu You found that he was completely stupid.

His embarrassment was too much adjusted and he returned to the very straightforward extreme.

Wu You put his hand in his sweatshirt pocket, stepped up and stood directly on the green flower bed, smoothing out the height difference between him and Nanshan. The air was filled with a fragrance of flowers, which made people feel dizzy.

Maybe it was because of this fragrance that Wu You really dizzy and leaned over and kissed Nan Shan on the cheek.

Because his movements were too fast, his accurate head was a little deviated and he kissed Nanshan's auricle.

no.

After reacting, Wu You didn't know what he was doing.

But he could not act as timid as Nanshan.

"Just treat it as a test, I'll go upstairs." Wu You took a cool look down from the flower bed, walked straight towards the door, stretched out a hand, and made a bow gesture without looking back.

Only Nanshan was left alone in a daze.
To be continued...