what before(1/2)
"Gu Yanbo, before you," Hu Chenqiu saw a bit of sadness in Gu Yanbo's ancient Jing Wubo's eyes. It was something Gu Yanbo had never had before, and perhaps it had never been in front of him. Gu Yanbo was a person who would hide all his thoughts and never reveal any of them. Sometimes, he always felt that Gu Yanbo was cold and not like a person in the mortal world, and like a god.
The Gu Yanbo he knew was a cold and cold person who was not as cold as an ordinary person, and seemed to have the ability to look down on the world. He never felt ashamed, but he never thought that such a person was just a human being after all. He was a human being, and he would have fragile times, and he would have such an incomplete thing.
No matter how ruthless a person is, he still has something that makes him obsessed with.
If you have deep obsession, you will hide it deep in your heart and not let others know it, but you will roll in your heart when the night is in the middle of your life and you will not let go.
There are no perfect people everywhere. I am afraid that it is a god and cannot do everything, so it is really tiring.
"Before, the previous massacre of my relatives, and from then on, the word Gu Yanbo in the world will not have any love affinity with anyone." Gu Yanbo said, with a bit of sadness and coldness in his eyes.
After Cang Wei's work, he also doubted whether it would be the master's work. But he could not convince himself. He knew clearly that if it were not for the master, there would be no Gu Yanbo today. A proud and cold person like Master would definitely not do such a thing. However, the other elders of the Tianji Sect were a different matter.
After hearing this, Hu Chenqi was stunned for a moment. He didn't know what to say, but the coldness between his fingers made his mind regain some.
"Did you enter the Tianji Sect after that?" Hu Chenqi's heart was a little cold. He had never thought that Gu Yanbo had such a person. He just thought that his coldness was born with him. But there were a few people who would be naturally cold. If he hadn't experienced such a thing, Gu Yanbo would have been a free and carefree young man.
He just knew that Gu Yanbo was very respected by others in this Tianji Gate.
But I forgot, so-called before.
Most of the people from Tianji Sect are those who practice Taoism, and they all have to break up their fate with this mortal world.
For thousands of years, Master Gu Yanbo is just an exception.
The so-called previous things have only become passing clouds and mists. Whether it is joy or sadness or coldness, they are all separated and can never be seen again.
Even so, the Tianji Sect still attracted a lot of people.
Practicing Taoism is secondly. Most people just want to live. Who doesn’t want to live forever? As for this immortality, the so-called kinship may be despised by people.
What I don't want to be is just the face.
It is so tempting to really put this opportunity to practice Taoism in front of you.
Living for a long time, even if it is lonely, is joyful, and it is also flocking to it, making people carefree.
Apart from long-lasting life, the so-called love is just a vassal.
Without life, everything is nothingness and is despised.
"It's not so easy. That night, everyone except me died in cold blood. A woman in black clothes saved me, and then led me into the Tianji Sect. Master saw that I was smart, so he stayed. But this temperament became colder day by day." Gu Yanbo said, as if he was telling someone else's story. He suddenly felt relieved. The words that had been pressed in his heart for several years, and suddenly he said it, and he felt relieved.
It seemed that he no longer cared about everything he had before.
Since he survived, he had to bear the pain and ask for some trouble for those who died. After all, blood is not in vain. Life is not in vain. Everyone has more or less his own responsibilities, and his responsibilities are the blood that dyed that night.
"So, do you think Zhu Leng is that person." Hu Chenqiu said, as if he understood something.
He always felt that Gu Yanbo had extraordinary thoughts about Zhu Leng, but he just thought about it and never did anything. After all, Zhu Leng was Master Gu Yanbo's wife. If he really had the heart, he would definitely not be able to see anything from this face to Gu Yanbo's temperament.
In recent years, I have never seen any woman who can get a little closer to Gu Yanbo. Most of his side are Ling Ziruo and Bai Liuji. The one who is closer is Cang Yan. But I don’t know why he and Cang Yan have been in a very stalemate over the years.
"Yes, I used to think she was, but she told me, she was not. I asked who it was, but she just smiled and didn't say anything. I knew that it must be the one who told her something and didn't ask her to tell me. But I took it more and more. But gradually, I stopped thinking about this. Everything in the world gradually turned into blue smoke for me and disappeared in the morning and evening. Only then did I know what Wuqing Tao was practicing." Gu Yanbo said, his eyes were confused, as if he had returned to that day. She was wearing a mysterious suit and hugged herself, and the sound of the wind whistled by. He had never opened his eyes, but only smelled a faint fragrance of pear blossoms on the man's body, but it smelled very pleasant.
She said: "You have wisdom and good practice, and you will definitely become a great person."
For this sentence, he gritted his teeth and thought that there would always be one day when he could become a person who practices like that person.
But when he was about to do it, he still didn't know who that person was, as if she had not appeared in this world, but lived in front of him alone, only him, just as he could see it.
After that period of time, he felt that perhaps he had never had this person before, all of this was just a fantasy of himself. But A Leng's words really made him know that yes, there was such a person.
Most people will never forget the person who pulls himself back from the brink of death. This has become his obsession, which cannot be eliminated or retreated.
"There are so many people in the world who practice. As you say, that person's practice is no longer under A Leng. If you have the intention to hide it, you will not be able to find it." Hu Chenqiu looked at Gu Yanbo with a cold face and said in a low voice.
That person, Gu Yanbo, might be Gu Yanbo, who was the one who was so impressed. But Gu Yanbo's thoughts were deeper, and he had become an obsession and could not be eliminated.
"No matter what, I must have found it." Gu Yanbo murmured.
I didn't know that I was a guest in my dream, but how long has it been since he dreamed of that person.
The ruthless way, called him so ruthless.
Perhaps after leaving this time, he will forget most of everything in this world. Ruthlessness is also toward his own ruthlessness. Without emotion, is it true that he is the truth?
The first time, Gu Yanbo raised questions about his thoughts on his own for many years.
Suddenly, the sound of the barrier reached his ears. The barrier in the pear garden was set by him. As long as someone approached the boundary, there would be a warning. Most people in the palace knew that this place was a forbidden place and could not come many times.
However, he found out that the person who came was wearing tender yellow clothes, and although his face was young, he was sad.
Jun Yanqing.
He has always been confused about why Jun Yanqing always gave him a sense of great familiarity. The answer was in his heart, but it always couldn't come to his heart. He was afraid that the day when the answer was truly revealed was his dream and the time when everything he had broken.
Is there an extremely pure love in the world that makes people feel panicked and unforgettable?
He didn't know all this, and the people outside the wall couldn't answer him.
Bai Liuji said that people should live freely and freely for themselves. But he could not. Seeing Bai Liuji's unrestrained appearance, he had envied him, but he could not become a person like Bai Liuji. From the beginning, from that bloody moonlit night, he could not turn back.
Whether it is obsession or nightmare, he can't let go of it. He would rather harm himself and make himself more ruthless, but he would not want to live for himself freely. He could not do it, nor could he let it go.
The breeze rolled up the screen window, disturbing the bamboo curtain shaking violently. The falling moon-white petals rolled in with the breeze and fell on the bluestone slab, which was cold and brought the sweet smell of a room.
The pear blossoms can always bring him some thoughts. It is like the fragrance of that night, which makes him understand the meaning of life. Only by living from death can he understand the difficulty of life and the coldness of death.
There was a silence in the room, as if the sound of falling flowers falling on the bluestone slabs were audible.
"You made this porridge." Gu Yanbo suddenly laughed and said to Hu Chenqian in a soft voice.
Hu Chenqi heard this call and pulled himself out of the meditation just now. He didn't know what his question today meant to Gu Yanbo. After all, he was reluctant to remove the wounds of others' pain, with blood and flesh.
He was just too worried about Gu Yanbo.
If he is not careful about entering the pass this time, he will be wiped out. Even the opportunity to meet again will disappear. He can't bear to leave, but he really can't bear to leave such a person and disappear in the world like this.
But even if Gu Yanbo came out of seclusion smoothly, he would become more and more cold in the future until the end, and there was no one around him.
"Naturally. This is either seeing that you are not at ease in your dreams these days, or asking for this chicken porridge to make it for you to eat." Hu Chenqie swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva and hid his already filled tears together.
He can't do this. Gu Yanbo has so many things that he can't let go. He can't be this bad guy. Even if he is reluctant to leave, Gu Yanbo has his own way and what he follows. All of this is something he cannot destroy.
People always have to survive on something, and this will become a spiritual pillar. Gu Yanbo's spiritual pillar is this. He can destroy this only spirit, which will undoubtedly destroy Gu Yanbo.
"It tastes good." Gu Yanbo judged, swallowing the chicken porridge a few more times until the bottom of the bowl was clean, and then put the porcelain bowl back into the desk a few places.
"Of course, my craftsmanship." Hu Chenqiu teased extremely stiffly, trying hard to be his previous slutty look. However, he didn't know that Gu Yanbo had already seen his thoughts completely.
Gu Yanbo naturally remembered the kindness Hu Chenqun was treating himself, and he also kept it in his heart. However, Wuqingdao had already made a choice for him from the beginning. His only choice was to continue to be cold-hearted until he became a god.
But if you become a god, can you really be happy?
"You have been in this room for a long time. Today is the Lantern Festival in the capital. Why don't we take someone out for a while and take me to go out for a leisurely life. It's just that we've taken it apart." Hu Chenqi said, his eyes stroking against Gu Yanbo's condensed eyebrows.
The fireworks on Gu Yanbo's body have become less and less. Perhaps this is because he practiced the ruthless Tao, but he is always keen to ask Gu Yanbo to have more fireworks on his body. Perhaps only in this way can Gu Yanbo be more like a person, a person with flesh and blood, and his own thoughts.
"It's OK, too." Gu Yanbo curled the corners of his lips slightly, and there was a little softness between his cold eyebrows and eyes.
He had been out of this world for too long, and he had to forget that there were so many joys in the world.
Perhaps Cang Wei was right back then, saying that he was a man of Yue, and his coldness was not considered a human being without any fireworks.
It turns out that when he had Cangzi in Tianji Sect, his days were not so boring. However, in order to protect her, he was going to be far away from her. He said, perhaps it was not suitable for her.
Master once said that people like him are so cold that they are most suitable for practice. Practicing requires putting a lot of things, and emotions are one of them. At first, he felt that it was understandable, but the way was too bloody.
But from Cang Wei's eyes, he saw shock and sadness. It was something that appeared in his eyes. However, as his practice deepened, except for the hatred engraved in the bones, he could no longer remember what other emotions there were in the world.
Perhaps, before entering the pass, he can go and see what the fireworks in the world look like.
"Even if I asked someone to call Lingzi, if Lingzi knew that he wanted to go to the capital to see the lanterns, he would be jumping up and down happily, like a skinny monkey." Hu Chenqi teased, and there was a bit of joy in his eyes.
"Spirited Monkey? It's rare to call someone else to be a skinny monkey from the mouth of such a skinny monkey." Gu Yanbo smiled, looking at Hu Chenxi's appearance, and he felt funny. Hu Chenxi was the most skinny monkey he had seen except Chi Yue.
What kind of person has produced what kind of disciples?
It is good to make people look like him the most, but this makes me feel so tight. When you can live a life of freedom, you should still be free.
"It's rare for me to be able to do this under Nai Jin." Hu Chenqi teased, but the figure seemed to appear in front of him, very cold and similar to Gu Yanbo.
"I'm really good for you." Gu Yanbo said, looking at Hu Chenlu's teasing look, and said softly.
Hu Chenqi also saw clearly in his heart. Indeed, Najiu really did it for him, but he was just talking so awkwardly on his face. If it weren't for Najiu, he wouldn't have even been to Wangjiang Tower, let alone Luoshuang City.
Look at him, the word "Najin" cannot be called by him.
But they were just calling him a frost string.
霜弦,字奈尽.
What can be endless?
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The pear blossoms in the pear orchard cannot be fully bloomed and fallen.
After entering the soil, it turns into spring mud and protects flowers.
Jun Yanqing didn't know why she came to this place today. She was happy that Gu Yanbo seemed to know the whole palace, but she was so angry that Gu Yanbo never took it to heart. She did want to stay with her before, but now she can see it more clearly.
Sometimes, if you don’t like you, you don’t like you. How can there be room for change?
To be continued...