Shen Ruofu looked at him for a while and said: "Junior brother, let's get over it. I went up to the mountain a few years before you, and things in the world are much the same. You went up to Lingshan because you are a demon-slaying disciple, but I went up to Lingshan. He saved my life." Han Yiming had never heard of his past, so when he heard him talk about it, he listened carefully. Shen Ruofu said: "I was sick when I was young, and I tell you, maybe you don't I believe that as long as there is any disease in this world, there is no disease that I have not contracted, including smallpox. But the strange thing is that every time, I can get better when my life is hanging by a thread. But after I get better, I will die quickly. I really didn’t get sick for three days, and my parents at home were going to burn incense. Many doctors said that I would get better after I turned ten. As a result, after I turned ten, it was still the same, and every day at home was the same. The medicines kept coming. And after I was ten years old, it became more and more dangerous. Every month, I would get seriously ill. No matter what the disease was, it had to be severe and almost fatal before the disease would start. When I was sixteen years old, A wandering Taoist priest came and he made a fortune for me and calculated that I could only live until the age of eighteen. On the day I turned eighteen, I would die no matter what. Naturally, my parents begged and begged him to save my life. . He said that destiny was destiny and there was nothing he could do to change it for me. My parents were very sad, but I was not sad at all. I was tired of being sick for many years. Living was just taking medicine, lingering on the sick bed, and being young. I'm sorry, but I want my elderly parents to worry about me. I really feel that life would be worse than death."

Shen Ruofu didn't look strong, but Han Yiming never expected that he was so weak before. Shen Ruofu said again: "Junior brother, I have never played outside with my friends in the same year, because it is just ordinary play. It can also make me seriously ill later. When other people are innocent and romantic, I either listen to my mother crying or listening to my father sighing. At this time, I especially hate myself, why do I have to live so long, why The disease was no longer serious and passed away in an instant, which relieved me and my parents. The only thing I could do was read. My parents didn’t know many words at home, but they hired a husband to enlighten me. I learned how to calligraphy. After I learned it, I kept reading. Even if I didn't leave home, I would get sick again and again. Many diseases were very strange. Others only got it once and never got it again in their lifetime, but I got it again and again. It’s endless. Every time I think I’m going to be liberated, but I can’t die, I come back to life. It’s really torture. So why do you always think I’m smart? I’ve read so many books and can’t go out, not much. After overthinking, I really don’t know how to hold on. Junior brother, you don’t understand. It’s very torturous to have such a patient at home. Walk softly, speak softly, and don’t say anything in front of me. He carries me on his back in everything, and eats differently from others. I am so weak that the wind blows me over. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, I feel like I have seen a ghost. My life is unnecessary. My friends in the same year, that’s what I want Don't even think about it, everyone is afraid of me, just afraid that if they don't pay attention, I will die in front of them. Even if they see me, they will move away, as if I have already laid a corpse on the bed. I know too well that I can't I blame others, but where can I express my grievances?"

He paused for a moment and said: "When I was seventeen years old, I met the third uncle. The third uncle was passing by my house and saw me. I was a dying young man. I was only seventeen years old. I was about to walk on a chair. I can only walk with a stick. On a hot day, everyone is complaining about the heat. I wear a cotton coat and cover myself tightly, and I have to worry about catching a cold. The third uncle calculated my horoscope and told my parents that I was destined to die. Tiansha is a creature of calamity, and can only live for half a year at most. My parents have known for a long time that I might die some time ago, and they have cried all their tears long ago. There is nothing else they can do except sigh. Third Master Uncle said He said he could save me, but he had to take me to Lingshan and ask my parents if they would let me go. At this point, even if I don’t want to let me go, I would also like to let it go. The third uncle said that after ten years, I can still go back to see my parents. I see my parents clearly. I didn’t believe it, but I was treated like a dead horse, and I agreed to Third Master Uncle to take me away. At that time, I didn’t know that I would really survive. I heard that someone could take me away, so that I would not die at home, or die far away. Point. I was grateful to be freed from that cage. I insisted on following Third Master Uncle up to Lingshan Mountain."

Han Yiming never asked about the past events of his fellow disciples. When he heard Shen Ruofu talking about his past, he felt quite sympathetic and did not say anything, so he listened quietly. Shen Ruofu said: "At the foot of Lingshan Mountain, I and other senior brothers It was different. I easily found the way up the mountain and walked up there. Along the way, I saw beautiful scenery that I had never seen before. It really made me feel that death was worth it. Junior brother, my almost eighteen years have been like this. I didn't go out very often, I was always in the courtyard, and often I didn't even leave the house. Lingshan Mountain was already extremely beautiful, and I hadn't seen much of it. When I saw it, I felt that life was as fulfilling as I wanted to be. I didn't even walk many times a day. I had to lean on a stick for several steps, and that day, I walked slowly to Cuiwei Hall. Of course, I walked for a long time and was very tired. I had never walked so far. I sat down and rested dozens of times on the side of the road while going up the mountain. After that, my master didn’t teach me much about the so-called spiritual practice. I just went to Baizhi Bookstore to find many books to read, and I also got the sharp sword. My eighteenth birthday came soon. I didn’t die, I just lived like this. I was eighteen years old. Later, my third uncle told me that as soon as he saw me, he knew that I had no connection with the world and that I would not last long in the world. As the wandering Taoist priest said, I am as if I were here. In this world, you will definitely die at the age of eighteen. But I went to Lingshan and broke away from the mortal world, so I survived. On my twentieth birthday, I asked Master to take me back home. When my parents saw that I was still alive, Of course I was happy, and I was even happier because I saw that I had a younger brother. My parents were not desolate, so I could rest assured to stay in Lingshan. Later, Master said to me, this is called the end of the world. Maybe I was destined to leave that home. My parents were naturally happy to see that I was still alive. When I saw that they were happy, I felt relieved. As long as I am alive, what does it matter where I am? If I really If they are dead, that is the suffering of my parents."
Chapter completed!