135. Then heal yourself
"It's true. Gongshuyi personally should like Ji Hanshuang."
Mu Sheng's tone was still deep, "So, I guess you have noticed some things about yourself now."
Ji Xu narrowed his eyes, "Do you know?"
Mu Sheng shook his head, "Maybe Mr. Zou knows it, but I just have a little guess in this regard. Maybe I don't know much more than you."
Ji Xu's eyes were not disappointed, and after a little silence, he said, "No matter what, I will still go to tomorrow's wedding."
Mu Sheng looked at him, "I know I can't stop you. Do you want to know what my suggestion is?"
"Look attentively." Ji Xu's eyes were serious.
When he saw the other party this time, he had no doubts about Mu Sheng. This was a kind of insensation, and suddenly he felt that the other party was "white". The other party was really considering the Executive Bureau, and what he stood for was the overall situation of the Executive Bureau, or in other words, it was the official level of the Chinese Martyrs.
This made him wonder, what about the big gentleman at the special affairs headquarters?
But the other person's position must have been determined long ago.
Mu Sheng looked at Ji Xu and said slowly: "No matter what, what forces, or what plans are involved in your back, there is only one core, that is you. If you no longer exist, does it mean that these plans are useless, at least, they have nothing to do with you."
Ji Xu was silent. He knew that what the other party said was "no existence" not because he was dead, but because he was withdrawing from this line, that is, he would no longer follow the path of a martyr and return to the life of ordinary people.
In that case, everything in the world you are in now has nothing to do with yourself.
"But," Ji Xu smiled bitterly, "Can this really happen?"
Now, although something seems to be surrounding yourself, fortunately, there is still this strength to protect yourself. But once you return to ordinary people, what kind of self-protection is there?
The way of heaven is unbalanced, and the punishment of heaven hanging above his head has lost its original function. The balance in the world is just the peace before the storm comes. Everything is just waiting for an opportunity.
Mu Sheng was silent when he heard this, obviously he had thought about this before.
Now is no longer the original era. In the era he was in, he was used to seeing bloody storms with Zou Shang, but when he really wanted to withdraw from the world, all the disputes would naturally leave like dust.
But now, it seems that life and death really have to be separated.
The rules that seem to wash hands like golden basin are gradually drifting away.
Times have long been different.
Mu Sheng looked up at him and showed apologies, but before he could say it, the young man in front of him stood up.
"Then let it go." Ji Xu knew what he wanted to say, but he didn't want to make the other party embarrassed. "If something really happens, I think he will take into account his official identity."
Mu Sheng stuttered and watched the two leave.
His fists clenched tightly, and his blood-filled eyes were filled with anger, both of which were powerless when he was insufficient and his anger towards intrigue in the world, like a wave hitting a reef.
After a long time, a long sigh came from the room.
...
Walking out of the door of the Executive Board, the two gradually walked away as they watched the two deacons in suits.
Because of the wetness, the thick sycamore leaves will make a 'creaking' sound when they step on their feet, and the alley is deep and the wind becomes long as it passes.
His hair was blown by the wind, the broken hair on his forehead spread out, and his eyes narrowed slightly.
Ji Xu sighed, but his body never loosened.
A road, silently walking through.
At the end of the alley, Ji Xu turned around and looked at the small blue building buried deep. The light in his eyes was unpredictable and finally turned into peace.
He has come, but he understands, but he doesn't understand.
Just think that it is this glitzy world, there should always be something to keep in mind and keep in mind, but what about yourself?
Even though he is only a single person, he seems to have always had a reason to persevere. So what exactly is it?
Ji Xu looked up and dark clouds gradually gathered in the gloomy sky. In addition to sand and dust, the wind brought the dampness of earthy smell.
Affected by coastal typhoons, there will be rain in half of China, and the same is true for the capital.
"Go away."
Ji Xu was about to speak, but Chen Yao, who was next to him, seized the opportunity to speak first, which made him choke.
Someone looked at him secretly, Chen Yao smiled at the corner of her mouth, and walked towards the bus stop sign first.
Behind him, Ji Xu rubbed his face and followed.
...
I booked a hotel on the bus and sat a little lazy on the bus.
There was no destination temporarily, and the two of them sat opposite each other, passing by the bus and seeing the places everywhere.
It was already evening, and there were more headlights on the road, just like a guide, and cars were lit up.
There were not many people in the car, and many seats were vacant. Ji Xu leaned against the window and looked at the cars passing by, the pedestrians passing by, and the buildings and huts with lights on.
The air was very cold and the rain was about to fall. People in this city were walking in a hurry, and everyone had stories on their faces.
Or go home to cook for your husband and children;
Or you should buy some snacks and snacks to your wife and children when you pass by the snack street on the way home;
Or go home with fresh vegetables and meat you bought from the supermarket and cook a meal for your parents;
Or, go back to the not-so-spacious rental house and accompany your girlfriend to watch her favorite variety shows.
People are working hard, and then they always return home in the evening, even if it is just a temporary residence, where there are people waiting for them, and there is always a lamp waiting for them.
There will always be a beam of light in these ten thousand houses of lights, for itself.
Ji Xu suddenly laughed silently and his eyes half closed.
On the side, Chen Yao looked at his side face and suddenly felt a little distressed.
That kind of loneliness with loneliness hit her heart in an instant, even though her soul was not a human.
She could feel that the man around her seemed to be suddenly out of touch with the world. This was not a sudden feeling, but a transformation after a long time of experience, as if he was rejected by this world.
He has always been alone, Chen Yao thought.
He has been alone since he found the other person on the bridge that night.
I am alone when I eat, alone when I walk, even when I want to relax.
Until now, Chen Yao suddenly realized that there were only a few people who had contact with him, and these people were still looking for him when something happened.
The rest is gone.
She suddenly remembered a passage she had read online.
Humans are actually lonely beasts. They always fade out of their own circle of life. The people they know during school will gradually lose contact with them as they continue to go to school, and then completely cut off contact when they enter society. After that, they repeat the previous cycle, know and lose at work, and in the end no one really enters the heart.
Perhaps, even the person who will accompany you for the rest of your life in the unknown future does not fully understand yourself. The lonely heart is not relaxed, so one night when people are quiet, I look up at the starry sky alone.
"They are so pitiful." Chen Yao thought, then withdrew her gaze.
She knew that Ji Xu didn't need comfort now. This was the "weakness" that the unicorn beasts always appeared in the day. All they needed was their own healing.
Only one can heal oneself, and no matter how skilled a doctor is, there is no way for him.
Chapter completed!