Chapter 43 Elina and Zhao Shishi
At this moment, the innocent expression of the girl in front of me, Roald's daughter, did not seem to be pretending, and what she said did not seem to be fake.
"I really don't remember my name anymore. I still remember everything else, but I can't remember my name no matter what."
I just can't remember my name? This is strange. I remember everything else but I can't remember my name...
But while I was standing there, she continued, "So, don't I have a name? Isn't Spider also not a name? So we gave each other a name."
Give each other a name? How could these two guys do such things? But it is indeed... After all, they are both lonely people and only have mutual existences.
"So, the name he gave me was Alina, and the name I gave him was Zhao Sida."
Wait... the names you both have chosen are a little wrong, right? Why is one a very normal Western name and the other a such a strange Chinese name?
Forget it, I won’t complain anymore…I asked Alina: “Alina, then what… Why do you want to see me? Why do you see me for?”
Oh no… I originally planned to break the topic, but now I said this so that I just told her that she wanted to ask me about Roald?
However, Alina did not continue to ask me about Roald, as if she realized that I was deliberately avoiding this topic just now, so Alina said, "Actually, I am very curious about you. About you - after knowing that there is a person who is exactly the same as myself, no one will be interested, right?"
That's true. After I learned about her existence, I was also very curious. I really wanted to meet her.
I nodded to Alina and then said, "I can understand your mood. If it weren't for you but someone else... No, even you, I was surprised by it when I saw you before, and I wanted to find you."
Alina nodded and continued, "What I want to ask is actually about your heart - I know some of your things, how you were born, what is your heart like. What do you know about yourself after inheriting other people's memories?"
Am I going to discuss philosophy with me? I really don’t know what I should say about my understanding.
Looking at Elina, I hesitated, "I don't seem to understand what you mean, after all, I don't know how to answer the concept of "knowing" about myself."
Alina held her chin and thought for a while before saying, "That is to say, don't you feel any doubt about your existence? After knowing that your memory does not belong to you, and after knowing that you are an existence created by others, don't you feel a trace of hesitation?"
"I did have to say hesitation, after all, no matter who knows the truth, I won't be so calm, right?" I told Alina about my situation: "But when I learned about this, Tang Zhihang was imprisoned by others. At that time, I really didn't have so much leisure to care about these things. What I was thinking about at that time was how to do it.
Rescue Tang Zhihang... Later, after rescuing Tang Zhihang, I hesitated, but..."
But, I seem to be a little too nervous, right? I just didn't think about these things after a short while.
Alina looked at me with her head tilted, and she continued to ask, "Why? She was made into a body according to others and gained a soul through other people's memories... Although she felt that saying this was a bit too much, none of your existence seemed to belong to you. Why can you live so happily? Can you tell me?"
I understood, at this moment, I finally understood why Elina came over and saw me.
Alina was also curious, she was hesitating for her own existence, just like me, she was hesitating for her own existence.
What should I do? How should I answer? How did I get out of that hesitation?
By the way, I was because of Wu Xuan, Wu Xuan and others who belonged to me alone, not Tang Zhihang!
Although Wu Xuan has left me now, the memory of Wu Xuan and I have existed, and that past has not been denied. This kind of me still exists here, this kind of me is independent, not because of others.
So I said to Alina: "Although I am not very clear, I have not hesitated for too long because of what you said. Although my life has only begun, all my life in the past few months have been experienced by me personally, and there is no false life. If you hesitate about this, can you recall what you have experienced over the past period of time."
"What I've experienced during this period..." She scratched her head and thought for a long time, but she seemed to be unable to understand what I meant.
In this way, Alina seemed to have been asleep a long time ago and didn't wake up not long ago. By time, her mental age is actually only ten years old, right? However, this ten-year-old child asked me such words as "knowing his existence"... Is this guy a child in his psychological age aged 10?
"I'm not very clear, but I'm really confused..." It's also possible that it was influenced by the spider? Alina showed behavior that a little girl in her teenage years old shouldn't have: "I just wanted to confirm it just now, but from your performance, I knew... My dad is actually gone, right?"
Sure enough, I was known, after all, I couldn't hide this kind of thing... I nodded to her, and I could only answer honestly: "Your father died in an accident. It seems that what happened this year... But I don't know much about the specific situation, so I can't explain it to you clearly."
Alina said calmly and said, "Is this true? I am confused because of this. Since my father has passed away, don't I have no relatives in this world?"
Strictly speaking, this is true. Although Lin Lin is Roald's daughter like Alina, Lin Lin is an adopted daughter and does not have Roald's bloodline. So when I think about it, Alina has no relatives in this world.
"Since I have no relatives and no one knows me, what's the point of living if that's the case
What about righteousness?”
Alina's question, I didn't know how to answer for a while. If I answered incorrectly, would this girl who had just woken up from her sleep have the idea of committing suicide?
No, I can't say anything strange, I have to find a way to make her stop being sad about this.
So I was so anxious that I said to Alina: "If you say so, I am not necessary to survive? Just like you said, my body and soul are given to me by others. Without my own relatives, I am the same as you. But if you think it is meaningless to live just because you don't have relatives, it would be a big mistake. There are so many people in this world who have no relatives, and they are still living strongly. Have the children in the orphanage thought about it? Surely not. They still have their dreams and are still planning their future. Are you even worse than those children?"
Alina scratched her head, and I didn't know if what I said to her was effective. Anyway, I think these words would have troubled her for a long time.
"But... I am still different from you." Alina said again: "Although you have no relatives, you were born based on Tang Zhihang's memory. After you have your own consciousness, you have Tang Zhihang's friends, who can date others as Tang Zhihang, and then meet the person named Wu Xuan, right?"
Damn, you guys even know these things? How did this spider get these situations?
Hey? Spider? Yes, why didn't I expect it?
So I took advantage of the spider's incident and said to Alina: "As you said, I have the memory of Tang Zhihang, so I had Liu Lang as soon as I was born, and I met him with Liu Lang and Wu Xuan. But aren't you the same? You met Zhao Sida after you were born..."
"Don't call me that name!" Alina, who was already well, suddenly raised her voice and said, "I don't admit that name at all!"
It seems that it was suddenly changed to Zhao Sida at this time, right? But can Zhao Sida appear on his own initiative? Isn’t this a bit unfair?
I asked Zhao Sida: "What can you hear us when I talk to Alina?"
Zhao Sida replied: "Yes, but she doesn't know when we talk. After all, my power is stronger than her. Although she can interfere with me, if I don't suppress me strongly, I can easily steal the dominance of my body... Tang Zhihan, I don't think we need to continue talking."
"Hey? Why?" I asked Zhao Sida: "Aren't you afraid that Alina will do something stupid like suicide?"
"She doesn't know. As long as I'm here, she can't commit suicide." Zhao Sida said with a sharp look: "I don't want her to continue talking to you. To be honest, you will not only not be able to enlighten her, but also make her doubt her existence more and more. Next, I will take her out of Minhai and go to other places. I will find a way to enlighten her and let her gradually relax and accept her existence, so..."
"Wait a minute, why do you do this?" I asked Zhao Sida: "Do you still want to invade the earth?"
Zhao Sida hesitated for a moment and replied: "I suddenly feel that I prefer eating food from people on earth than invading the earth."
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Chapter completed!