Chapter Thirteen I Decided to Give Up Therapy
Although Mu Xiu focused his main attention on the guinea pigs, he had always devoted a little energy to paying attention to the girl next to him.
Even from his perspective, Araya Zongren's comments to Asakami Fujino were indeed short and concise, accurately summarizing her essence—
"There are discomforts who come into contact with death and are happy for it."
In fact, even if he has not mastered the terrible ability to awaken the origin, Mu Xiu also knows that if Asakusa Fujino awakens the origin, then what is the greatest probability of its origin itself?
--"distortion".
Those who awaken the origin will be subject to the origin.
But ordinary people will not be aware of their origins. This is because once a person becomes aware of their origins, the person will be swallowed up by their origins.
After all, the origin is a kind of chaotic impulse, which is conceptually similar to primitive instinct and fatalism. It refers to all things, including life, which already have its direction at the beginning, and will inevitably develop in this direction.
For humans, this directionality will produce a primitive impulse, but there is still the possibility of postnatal personality and wisdom suppression. However, since its essence is the absolute command of all things as the core, even if the cycle of reincarnation cannot be changed.
——So even if humans know it, they cannot fight against the directional nature of their own existence.
This is because the personality that ordinary humans have been born within less than a hundred years cannot cover the core meaning that has existed since chaos, so they will inevitably be dominated by this directionality from the root.
But everything has its pros and cons, and everything in the world has two sides. Nothing can only be good or bad, and vice versa.
Therefore, although the Awakening of Origin will pay the price, it will obtain the accumulated past lives, thus becoming a mixed group that exists for all ages, and will also obtain the powerful power brought by the origin attributes.
For example, Bai Chun Rio awakened the origin of the original fate trajectory, and its origin was "eating". Aozaki Orange's evaluation of this is "If you have the origin of eating, Bai Chun Rio's previous life should be a predator creature."
Moreover, he was the kind of person who was conscious of his origin before he awakened the origin. Before he truly awakened, he had the idea of eating the person he had killed by mistake, and indeed took action.
Asakusa Fujino is undoubtedly in a similar situation. She mastered the demonic eye that twisted everything, and later even her own ideas were distorted.
She became a murderer who tasted the taste of blood and would be happy for killing.
But just like Bai Chun Rio cannibalism, she should be affected by her own origins... because "distortion" is her essence.
While Mu Xiu was thinking, the girl's voice had already sounded—
"So...is this the reason?"
Asakami Fujino's expression seemed very entangled. She bit her lower lip and finally nodded in disappointment: "That means, my essence is actually such a twisted existence?"
Is it because of this? Will you feel the reason for your pleasure when you see other people’s pain and death?
I can't tell whether she was relieved or something else, but at this moment she did feel complicated. Because if her essence is very distorted, then such distortion is not her choice.
It’s a certain factor that was determined innately, and no wonder she was.
"Theoretically, this is indeed the case." Mu Xiu nodded deeply about this, then sighed and said.
The girl has no will to awaken the spiritual power of her absolute self, but as an ordinary person, she is aware of her origin and cannot suppress the chaotic impulse. This is the source of the tragedy.
But in the next second, he suddenly felt something was wrong.
"That-" Mu Xiu pulled the corner of his mouth with a little surprised expression of Asanumo Fujino, turned his head and asked softly: "I probably didn't say anything to you just now, right? I probably didn't speak, right?"
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"Mr. Mu Xiu, aren't you talking to me just now?" He opened his mouth, and Asakusa Tengo looked at the boy in front of him in surprise, as if he didn't understand why he said such words.
I just said a lot of unheard things to myself, but now I'm...
Wait, talking to yourself?
"I seem to understand something, Mr. Mu Xiu... This, should I forget the things you said before?"
Perhaps after realizing it, the girl's expression suddenly became amused and crying, and there was an inexplicable... pity in her sight when she looked at Mu Xiu?
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"It's true, did I say it again?" In a burst of unspeakable silence, although there was a rather relieved smile on his face, Mu Xiu's eyes were always wandering.
But just a few seconds later, he shook his head vigorously, as if he had already calmed down his mood, and his originally empty eyes suddenly turned into unshakable firmness-
"Forget it, don't forget, I'm... used to this kind of thing."
...Wait, can you get used to this kind of thing?
No, don’t get used to this kind of thing! Trying to correct this problem is the key, isn’t it?
Mu Xiu's words that could not be complained about and his distant eyes that had seen through the world directly made Asakusa Fujino hold back the next words.
But it was precisely because of this that she couldn't help but feel a funny feeling, and the anxiety and tension in her heart seemed to disappear directly.
But Mu Xiu smiled like a self-deprecatingly, and then let out a long sigh.
Since he had already made it, he simply didn't hide it, so he entered the topic without any hesitation: "How much did I just talk to you... Forget it, what do you think about the things you just heard, Fujino?"
"Thinking?" Asanakus Fujino hesitated for a moment, his face became a little weird, "Mr. Mu Xiu, you said... I will become a murderer in the future. Is this true?"
As expected, she still seemed quite entangled in this matter. She was destined to become a famous figure like Jack the Ripper in the future?
Well, it's very likely. It's exactly 1998. Isn't it very appropriate to recreate the style of a murderous ghost in Guanbuzi City? She couldn't help but think about it.
Mu Xiu couldn't help but gently curl the corner of his mouth and stared at her and whispered: "Do you care about this first thing? You really don't have to worry about this. You will pay attention to this problem first, which means that Fujino, you are still a very normal girl..."
Then, without waiting for the girl with a slightly red cheek to say something, he waved his hand and pointed at his eyes.
"I have told you before that if you don't see through the eyes of the world, then a magician is not enough to be called the highest position. I happen to be one of the highest position magicians..."
Although he had already developed the fighting habit before becoming the highest magician, even if he had a high level of magic attainment or even mastered the field of magic, he still prefers to rely on his own strength to solve problems.
But this is indeed not wrong. He is one of the highest magicians, and isn’t he also a proof of the highest magicians incompetent?
——Pretending to recite a few spells, and then swing a sword when the enemy is not paying attention. This is where the dignity of the crown caster is!
"The highest magician..." Asakusa Fujino looked directly at Mu Xiu's blue eyes, and then found that it was not pure blue.
To be precise, it is the bright blue iridescent color with the subject, which can only be seen by careful discernment. Recalling the knowledge that the other party had just told her before, the girl knew that it was the most inhuman "eye" among countless demon eyes.
Because the level of the demon eyes is differentiated by color, the usually demon eyes will emit red or green light, the powerful demon eyes are golden, and the demon eyes in the divine realm are brilliance like gems and rainbows.
This means-
"I can see the past and the future, so I know some things, but the future is not fixed, otherwise everything will lose its meaning, so Fujino, you don't have to worry so much."
Mu Xiu said lightly, explaining in a light tone why he knew those things. After all, it is better to say that he has the Ex-level clairvoyance than to say that the other party is a character who appeared in the fantasy works he has seen.
Asakami Tengno was a little aware of this, and he was taken over by him in a daze.
The Qianli Eye itself is just the most ordinary magic eye. Only by reaching the Ex level can you have the ability to see through the world. However, even so, the holder's eyes will not change anyway, and there will be no characteristics of gem-level magic eye and rainbow magic eye.
Of course, strictly speaking, Mu Xiu is not just lying to her.
"It's like I'm going to let you see this kind of scene... Huh? Why is another one dead?" Turning back, Mu Xiu pointed at the holographic image projected by the white light ball in the sky, and then was slightly stunned.
But in a flash, he returned to normal, his face remained unchanged, as if nothing had happened before, and continued quietly—
"The origin is something that ordinary people cannot detect, but there are always people who are born close to their own origins. Fujino, you are such a person."
"So it is unwise to avoid this problem. You may always realize your essence due to some factor. Choosing to invisible problems will not solve the problem, but can only make it come more violently when it explodes."
"My suggestion is that if you really can't avoid it, just take the initiative to face it, see the fundamental crux of this problem, and then solve it, or if it is not effective, it can be controlled within an acceptable range."
This is how the original Asakusa Fujino was. She didn't understand why she felt overwhelmed by hurting others, and why she felt the real sense of survival because of killing others.
The violent nature that was far from her usual self made her feel surprised and unacceptable.
But that feeling was so clear and real. She was so ignorant, constantly repelling her behavior rationally, but she became more and more obsessed with the things she did.
The final result is naturally that it is that it is getting deeper and deeper in the quagmire and cannot extricate itself.
Mu Xiu now wants to let her understand that her essence is an extremely distorted existence, but it does not necessarily mean that she will completely distort herself from the perspective of concept. This is not something that really cannot be confronted.
"Because your willpower is not enough to suppress the chaotic impulse in turn, simple suppression cannot last long. The key is to control it, neither blindly suppressing nor thorough indulgence."
Asakami Fujino nodded thoughtfully, then looked at the holographic image on the light ball.
Mu Xiu laughed softly: "Just as you think, to put it coldly, you must know how to choose a partner... If you don't say anything, you are a murderer, but if you choose to eliminate harm for the people, you will naturally be a superhero."
The best way is naturally to control the impulse that is primitive and instinctive at any time. But for ordinary people, this is too forced, especially at the beginning.
So many times it is better to lose your mind than to get stuck. If you really can't control yourself, it is better to consciously choose a better partner to vent your impulses and thus spend the most difficult period in the early stage.
After that, as long as you get used to that primitive instinct, the situation will be much better.
Chapter completed!