018. Confessions of a Murderer
To everyone:
Sorry, I have caused so much trouble to everyone. But please rest assured that everything is over now.
It was me who killed Chen Luofan and Chen Peng. Their sinful lives should have been gone a long time ago.
I don’t regret killing them with my own hands, I just regret that their dirty hands were actually stained with Qiu Xiaoling’s blood.
Xiaoling is my neighbor and good friend, and she has grown up with her playmate. I have always treated her as my relative and taken care of her. I am afraid, I will never deny my love for her.
Dear sirs, maybe you will say that I was in love early. But I can't control the love in my heart. The feeling of love is not that it should end. Especially when I am sure I really like the other person.
However, as I grew older, Xiaoling, who had always been following me and called me Brother Long, stopped running away with me without realizing it.
When she went to junior high school, after visiting a basketball friendly match between our school and another school on a whim, she was deeply fascinated by the handsome and chic Chen Luofan.
Yes, she fell in love with Chen Luofan. For me, this is a very unacceptable fact.
But, I don't intend to call this a change of mind.
After falling in love with Chen Luofan, Xiaoling often came to me to talk to him. After all, Shen Luofan and I were classmates. She also told me a lot of gossip about Chen Luofan, and what came out of her mouth was naturally good.
I have also heard of the reputation of Chen Luofan. I have heard of both good and bad.
Although I am sad, I like Xiaoling. Since I like someone, I have to make her happy.
So, I sincerely wish her a blessing. Although I can’t help her approach Chen Luofan in terms of love. However, I can protect her silently from the side, hoping that she can get happiness.
But, I didn't expect...
Really, I didn't expect that. I stood by and watched... I thought I loved her and let her go and let her take action. It turned out to be the last straw that saved her from the quagmire of the abyss and broke her with my own hands!
I don’t know if there was any relationship between Xiaoling and Shen Luofan before that.
I always thought Xiaoling should be able to stick to the bottom line. But if they really like each other, then even if they had a relationship before, I would probably be alone next to me and would never have any anger or despair.
That day, she came back crying.
It was raining, but she was not dressed.
I asked her, but she didn't say anything.
I really hate myself, why was I so stupid at that time? After seeing Xiaoling's appearance, she still kept a certain distance from her?
Yes, I hope to keep a distance from her and not get too close. Because if Chen Luofan saw that I was getting too close to his girlfriend, it would be bad for Xiaoling and Shen Luofan.
But that night, perhaps because I didn’t take the initiative to walk forward, but just watched her return to her home, she completely forced Xiaoling into a dead end!
The next day, I heard a girl hanged herself from the drama department.
When I saw Xiaoling, who had been cut off and had her pale face, was put off the rope, I couldn't believe my eyes.
What exactly happened?
Why did she commit suicide?
Why? Why is all this???
During that time, I couldn't get through and was sad that I wanted to vent everywhere.
Especially after I learned that Xiaoling might have been seeking a short-term view because of Chen Luofan's distortion, I really had the urge to kill that beast immediately!
But, I held back...
On that rainy night, Xiaoling looked at me with her eyes asking for help, but the scene of me retreating lingering in my mind for a long time. I feel that even though Chen Luofan was unwilling to see something, I was the one who really abandoned Xiaoling when she needed help.
I always felt that I was the real murderer who killed her.
This idea has been going on...for a full six months.
After entering the second half of the third year of junior high school, I was confused and my personality changed drastically. I became unreasonable, stubborn, and became casual and would get angry. It was at that time that I attended a party of some male classmates to drink. Chen Peng had drunk too much and intentionally or unintentionally revealed the sentence "Fortunately my suicide note has been destroyed."
The speaker is unintentional, and the listener is intentional.
My intuition told me that there seemed to be some hidden information here. So, I applied to join the Drama Department and planned to find out the news little by little.
Finally, Huang Tian lived up to the hard work. A year ago, I drank Chen Peng again, and then intentionally or unintentionally turned the topic to the suicide note. And he finally revealed the great secret they had been hiding to me.
That night, Xiaoling went over to find Chen Luofan to argue.
But at that time, Chen Luofan, Chen Peng, and some idle people in society were gathering together to drink.
After drinking too much, Chen Luofan pretended to ask Xiaoling to accompany him to open a hotel. Then, the idle people, Chen Peng, and the beast Chen Luofan, and the beast they were...!!!
From that time on, the flame of revenge was burning in my heart. I was not in a hurry, but implemented my plan bit by bit.
I first collected ** information online, and then made a bomb to send the social personnel to the west.
Fortunately, the maggots are usually dirty and make many enemies. The police first shifted the search target to the gang's revenge, which gave me a lot of time.
Next, my first target was Chen Luofan.
He should take part of the responsibility for Xiaoling's death. I originally wanted to keep him at the end before killing him, but when I thought that he was not the one with the most responsibility, I changed my mind and let him taste the same way of death as Xiaoling in front of all the audience.
He was knocked out, put it in a sack, and went to the platform while others were not paying attention, and then prepared, and then waited for the time to come and he was hanged. All of this seemed natural and not difficult.
The second goal is Chen Peng. He is easy to deal with. After the first performance, I asked him to the rooftop and told him something about suicide notes. The police seemed to know something. This could easily lead him up. Next, just stab him and the matter would be over.
However, the third most difficult goal came after all.
This goal is me.
Even after killing those two people, I think the guilt in my heart will not be reduced in the slightest.
"I killed Xiaoling."
This thought always surrounds my mind.
I can't forgive anyone who hurt Xiaoling. Even if this person is me, it's the same.
So, I plan to let this matter come to an end in front of everyone.
I bear the heaviest sin, and even death cannot make up for it.
However, I decided to die. I put poison in my drink and drank it.
I hope that after death, I will meet Xiaoling. When that time comes, I will apologize to her and sincerely...
Say to her-sorry.
Yu Yinglong.
Chapter completed!