Chapter 58: The World of Heart (New)
"Do you regret it?"
Shinji Ikari was sitting in the seat of the tram. For some reason, his thoughts were a little confused, and outside the tram window was blurry, in a daze, not knowing where to go, nor what to come. Shinji Ikari didn't think about all this, he just sat in the original place in silence.
At some point, Miri's shadow appeared in front of him, and Miri asked.
"Repent... no regrets. As long as the uncle can survive, I can do whatever I want..." Shinji Ikari murmured with his head down.
"What about us?"
At this time, Miri's figure also appeared in the carriage and stood in front of Shinji Ikari and questioned him.
"What about us?"
"Where are us?"
“…what are we…”
"……Woolen cloth……"
Gradually, the staff in the Nerv supported Liangzhi and his classmates, and all of them appeared in the carriage, and they all asked such questions.
"I don't know...I don't know...I don't know!"
Shinji Ikari suddenly covered his ears and shouted loudly: "I don't know! I don't know what to do, but, but... but it's impossible to make me give up Uncle Roger!"
"People are all indifferent and only care about themselves. Can you be gentle to me?" Shinji Ikari looked up at everyone in front of him, but no one spoke, they just looked at him quietly.
"That's it. You just look at me like this. Even if you smile, you will smile perfunctorily. If I can't drive the EVA, will you not smile at me anymore and will not need me anymore?"
Shinji Ikari lowered his head again and said dejectedly: "Everyone is like this, it's all like this. It's just that I need mine because I can drive EVA, right? But Uncle Roger is different. It's not that he needs me, but that I need him. He told me a lot, and also made me realize a lot, giving me the courage to face everything, and giving me the hope of facing the cruel future. But... But if there is no Uncle Roger in this world! I will never want such a world!"
When Shinji Ikari said this, these figures gradually faded away and gradually disappeared into the carriage, and the paleness and nothingness outside the carriage became more visible, and even the carriage gradually became a little unreal.
At this moment, a cold voice said, "Is this your choice? Shinji-kun."
Shinji Ikari looked up again and saw a person who had not appeared before. Ling Boli, she was still like that. But for some reason, Shinji Ikari seemed to be able to see a kind of sadness and an inexplicable emotion in her eyes that made him stand up, but gradually, he sat down again dejectedly and just said, "Sorry, Li, I didn't have time to eat the dinner you prepared for me and my father. I am very grateful to you, and... I'm sorry, I was unable to save you, but I, I treat you, I..."
Shinji Ikari was silent when he said this, while Ling Boli shook his head and said, "No, it doesn't matter, Shinji-kun, I want you to live happily without driving the EVA. This is your choice, so..."
Ling Boli gradually disappeared with the sound of her words, and Shinji Ikari was the only one left in the carriage. Suddenly, another female voice sounded.
"Shiji, if this continues, our agreement will not be fulfilled."
Shinji Ikari looked up suddenly and saw Asuka standing in front of him. Asuka was no longer as arrogant and indifferent as before, but looked at him gently, just like this.
Shinji Ikari's tears suddenly flowed out. He wiped his tears, not knowing whether it was shame or something, and did not dare to see Asuka. He just lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, sorry, sorry... I didn't fulfill our agreement, I didn't do it because Uncle Roger... Uncle Roger is no longer here. This world cannot be achieved by courage, and hope is not achieved by courage. People's indifference and cruelty in this world will not change because of you. I really want to travel with you after peace. I really want to see everyone's sincere smiles. I really want to... I really want to, but I don't dare to try anything anymore. Uncle Roger... I, I already..."
"It's okay." Asuka was the only one who could act again. She smiled gently, her eyes full of tears. She walked silently to Shinji Ikari, wiped his tears with her hands, and gradually disappeared while talking.
“…I really hope that peace can be achieved, that way, we…” |
"……I……"
Tears surged in Shinji Ikari's eyes, and he cried and shouted: "But this world is not just about having courage, I can't do anything about it..."
"Then...just do it again!"
This incident, the appearance of a voice, made all Shinji Ikari's movements stop suddenly. He trembled violently, trying to raise his head, and then he saw a familiar figure.
Roger smiled heartily and stood in front of him and said, "Boy, I don't remember that I taught you to give up."
While talking, Roger walked to him and patted his shoulder with his hand. However, Roger's hand slashed over his shoulder and did not touch him at all. Roger still smiled and said, "This world is indeed very cruel. Hope is shattered and dreams are trampled on, but... so what!?"
"The so-called courage means that after you fail, you are in despair, you are already defeated, and at that time, do you dare to stand up again and do it again! Do you remember what I asked you when I first met you? Then now, I will ask you the last..."
When Roger said this, his figure was about to disappear, and the last thing Shinji Ikari saw was the last sound from Roger's disappearing mouth.
"Do you have a dream?"
The tears in Shinji Ikari's eyes slowly flowed out. He shouted loudly with all his strength and said, "Yes! I have dreams! I want my mother, I want dad, I want a peaceful world, I want everyone to get along well, I want everyone to smile at me from the bottom of my heart, I want everyone to be gentle to me, I want everyone to be needed, I also want to give them support, I want... I have dreams! Uncle Roger!"
In an instant, the carriage suddenly disappeared, and all the nothingness around began to dissipate. A white light burst out from Shinji Ikari's chest, and then illuminated everything...
Shinji Ikari suddenly sat up from the bed. He touched his face. His face was wet, as if he had just cried. It seemed that there was something in his dream that made him cry so much, but he could no longer remember what was in the dream...what did he dream about? It seemed to be a cruel, terrible, cruel thing, but it was so warm...
Just as Shinji Ikari was in a daze, the alarm clock at the head of the bed suddenly rang. He was shocked and quickly put on his clothes, washed up, and then ran downstairs. Sure enough, he saw his back in the kitchen. It was... His mother, Ikari Yoshi was preparing breakfast for him.
"I'm awake, go and eat quickly. It's already very late." Ikari Yui turned around and looked at Shinji Ikari and smiled gently, then continued to be busy there.
For some reason, Ikari Shinji felt very moved when he saw Ikari's smile. He was a little confused because the scenes he could see every day actually made him feel urged to cry. But now it is not the time to think about this. He hurried to the dining table, picked up a piece of bread and started eating. At the dining table, there was a man watching with a newspaper.
"Shiji Ikari..." The man said in a disgusting tone.
"Ah, yes, dad." Shinji Ikari quickly replied.
"Although you fail in math, don't stay up too late. Remember to turn the alarm clock earlier." Gendo Ikari said in such an indifferent tone while looking at the newspaper.
"Yes, yes..." Shinji Ikari quickly lowered his head and said. For some reason, he suddenly felt a little afraid of his father... Hasn't he been used to his father's tone long ago?
Suddenly, at this moment, a woman's voice came from outside the door and said, "Idiot Shinji! I'm almost late! If you are not ready, I'll go to school first!"
Shinji Ikari was shocked and quickly took two slices of bread, lunch boxes and schoolbags on the dining table, and said, "Then I'll leave first, Asuka is already at the door..."
After saying that, he ran to the foyer, and behind him, Ikari Yoshi said in his voice: "Wait for your sister to go to school together! Ri, that's fine hair, it's okay."
All of this...
All of them appeared in the eyes of the four people in the distance, Roger, Axing, Xiao, and Edwin Van Cliff, all of them were watching all this silently, and Axing said: "From the electronic perspective... this world is real, not an illusory fantasy or virtual reality, nor is it formed by the light of the mind... It's incredible, but there is no memory of all this before me. I only remember that when I finished it, the huge Lingboli emerged from the ground..."
Speaking of this, Ah Xing looked at Xiao, but Xiao said without looking at him, "Don't look at me, I know you are looking at me, don't think I know what happened. Sorry, because of the distance, Edwin Van Cliff and I first became orange juice. Fortunately, we did not become apostles."
Four people, no, are three people, because Roger died before that, and the last impression of the three people was that the huge Lingboli emerged from the ground, and then among all the humans, some of them turned into orange juice, and the other became apostles, all rushed from all directions on the earth. Then, they found themselves standing next to this ordinary Japanese street and saw Shinji Ikari and the others.
"Hahaha, I don't remember it either. I'm dead, right? It's great that I can still be resurrected." Roger laughed loudly, regardless of the face of Ah Xing next to him who was already angry and turned pale.
"You bastard!" A Xing directly grabbed Roger's neck and said, "Did you know that this would happen in the end? Those who entered the final dogma would directly become an apostle, and those who did not enter would recover after completion even if they turned into orange juice and died. You bastard, don't turn your face over!!"
At this time, Shinji Ikari and a girl with a very similar appearance to Wei Ikari walked out of the door. Standing outside the door was Asuka with a hip on her hip. Although she had a hip on her hip on her hip, Asuka looked at Shinji Ikari with a gentle look.
Shinji Ikari heard the laughter outside the street, which was a very heart-warming laugh. As if something was touched in his heart, he suddenly left the two girls and rushed towards the street. While rushing over, his tears had flowed out naturally, but when he rushed there, there was no one in the street. I don’t know if it was an illusion, he seemed to see the light pillar, but he didn’t recall anything. In the end, he could only stand there alone, only in his chest...
The unspeakable emotions seemed to turn into courage. The incomparable courage made him look back at Asuka who was following him. He shouted: "Aki, Asuka, I, we... When we grow up, let's go on a trip together!?"
Asuka's face turned red and she was about to get angry, but when she saw the tears on Shinji Ikari's face and his expression, for some reason, she softened her heart and just turned her head, but a voice came to Shinji Ikari's ears...
"Um……"
"travel……"
Chapter completed!