Chapter 54: Courage
This dark ocean is not a drop of liquid, but a condensation of countless negative emotions, using pain, sourness, numbness, and strange itching. In addition to these physiological negatives, there are also various mood negatives, such as fear, depression, anger, and even negative emotions, which will accumulate in them.
Shinji Ikari was looking for that light in this negative ocean. Yes, there was not even a slight light in this darkness. The only light was its own light, that is, a person's consciousness was the only light in this negative ocean, because even the most vicious people also had a slight kindness and positive in their hearts. And this was the light in this dark ocean. Although it was very few, very small, very dark, very dark, as if it would completely disappear in the next moment, in this completely dark and negative ocean that did not even have a slight light, such light seemed to be the light conveyed from heaven.
Shinji Ikari relied on this little after-lightness to sneak in and search in the dark ocean. These negative states kept eroding all his perceptions. The external manifestation was that his own light became dimmer and dimmer, and even the entire surface was stripped away, revealing a body with internal force and light, but a red light like flesh and blood.
"There...Asukka, you're there..."
Shinji Ikari's eyes were never so firm. Even though he was so painful that he just wanted to escape from here, the courage suddenly burst out in his heart made him sneak into a deeper negative.
In fact, Shinji Ikari has never heard of what this place is. He just vaguely remembers that Miss Miri seemed to say that when a person drives an EVA, the synchronization rate is too high, he will sneak into here. This is the deepest part of life, the place where the AT force field is generated, and the so-called sea of life.
If you know, you will definitely know that the place where the light of the mind bursts out is the deepest place of the essence of life, a place that is deeper than the subconscious, the deepest consciousness, and even the instinct, and even the soul. There is great horror here, which is both a god and a demon for life, with great power and great destruction. This is an invisible and intangible place in the darkness, but at the same time, it is also the place where a life bursts out from the light of the mind. In this darkness, the light of the most primitive essence of life bursts out, and this is the beginning of transcendence and the beginning of immortality. This... is the light of the mind, the light of the mind.
At this moment, Shinji Ikari burst out with such a light, lit up this dark negative ocean. Whether it was his reliance on EVA, his courage in his heart, or his luck, in short, he relied on this light to penetrate into the depths of this dark ocean, where he saw a slight faint light that was about to be extinguished, that was... Asuka.
Shinji Ikari immediately sneaked into Asuka and saw Asuka crying with her legs in her arms. He immediately cried while snorting: "Asuka! Asuka! Can you hear my voice?"
Asuka seemed very confused. She looked up slightly and saw Shinji Ikari trying hard to dive from top to bottom. Her eyes slowly became wider and wider from being confused. Finally, she showed a surprised expression. Then, after Shinji Ikari sneaked in front of her and stretched out her hand, Asuka hit Shinji Ikari in the face.
"Shiji Shinji! Big Stupid Shinji! Why did you come in here? You don't know where this place is? You...you will not become human-like!"
Asuka slapped Shinji Ikari, but her palms became lighter and lighter, and the tears on her face became more and more. In the end, she could only touch Shinji Ikari's face and she burst into tears silently, and she only recited the words of the fool Shinji in her mouth.
Shinji Ikari was surprised at first, then became warm, and the courage in his heart became more and more surging. Inexplicably, he thought to himself that if he came to save Ling Boli, then Ling Boli would probably say that she would not leave because there was no place to go...
And in front of me was Asuka, Asuka's personality, Asuka's words... It's so good, I found her.
Because of the courage in my heart, the sudden excitement, the slowly fermenting feelings, and the indescribable emotions, for some reason, Shinji Ikari hugged Asuka at this moment. Before Asuka could say anything, he had already spoken: "I said I would come to save you, I will definitely come to save you, other people's thoughts? Okay, other people's plans are good, no one can stop me from saving you! We have made an agreement... When we go on a trip together in peace, I still remember this agreement!"
Asuka was originally stiff when Ikari Shinji hugged him and was about to resist, but when she heard Shinji Ikari's words, her heart was suddenly filled with an indescribable softness, the kind of pain that was covered by negative emotions, lonely and helpless, without light, no hope, and everything would be lost unknowingly, so she also hugged Shinji Ikari softly, and just whispered: "You finally came to save me... You finally came to save me. I was so scared. I was so scared to stay here alone..."
"Well...I know, I'm here..."
"There are negative emotions everywhere here, it's so uncomfortable and painful. I can't feel life, I feel that I'm slowly decaying, and I don't know anything..."
"Well...I know, I'm here..."
"A lot of memories come up. I remembered when I was a child, when I was not driving the No. 2 aircraft, and I remembered many things I didn't want to remember. They all emerged on their own. I kept crying..."
"Well...I know, I'm here..."
"Shuji... Save me, I'm so scared by myself..."
"Well... that's for sure!"
Shinji Ikari listened to Asuka's unprecedented weak words, the courage in his heart became more and more exciting, as if it was about to turn into substance. He shouted loudly under this emotion, hugged Asuka even harder, and then began to float up to the sea frantically, but it was easy to dive and difficult to float up. When he floated up, the negative sea water around him seemed to be coming alive, squeezing him and pestering him, which was to leave him and Asuka here!
The only one who can fight against these negative black emotions is the light on the two people, but at this moment the light on the two people is already very dim. The light on Asuka is about to extinguish. Shinji Ikari's light on the body is slightly better, but it is also so dim that it will be extinguished at any time. The two embraced each other and struggled upwards in this dark ocean, but the light was about to extinguish, and they were increasingly unable to break free from this negative ocean.
"Silly Shinji...you will stay here all the time, you stupid..."
"I don't regret it."
Shinji Ikari suddenly smiled and looked at Asuka seriously and said, "One thing that Uncle Roger has taught me is courage... If you don't have the courage to face all this, the result will definitely be sad. I never understood it before, no, I understand, it's just because I'm afraid of being hurt and don't have the courage to take on all this, so I'm escaping, escaping difficulties, and escaping you... But I want hope and a better tomorrow, whether it's you, Miss Miri, Ling Boli, or father... I want you all to be happy, and I want happiness myself, so I must have the courage to wait for others to give, wait for others to change, and then is the result really what I want?"
"I told my heart this way that I have to have the courage to face everything, and I have the courage to overcome all this, I..."
"Have courage! No matter what you are facing!"
Just as Shinji Ikari said this, a ball of light slowly rose from his gradually dimming body like a small flame, and a little light burned from his chest. The light was so weak that it could be extinguished by a negative wave. But it was this little light that blocked the countless negatives and surrounded the two people, warm, the light from the heart, the flame from the heart, the courage from the heart, this is...
In an instant, the light surged, violent and vast, as if it had turned into a star, into an infinite amount of light, illuminating this dark ocean and evaporating this endless dark ocean. Shinji Ikari and Asuka rose in this light and gradually moved upwards.
This is the flame bursting out from the deepest part of the darkness in the heart, this is the light bursting out from the most hidden part of the soul, this is courage, faith, persistence, and a person's deepest understanding of his own nature. This is...
Chapter completed!