For several years, I have been swaying between making money and loving. If I can combine the two into one, it will be the best, but unfortunately my abilities are limited.

This book made me go naked and put it on the shelves, and I was really confused for a moment.

I thought about it for several days and finally made a decision today. I have been writing at Qidian for more than ten years. I shouldn’t have had such an experience. Maybe this book is too bad, so bad that it can’t even compare to the books produced in the studio.

I was depressed. Since I didn’t have any recommendations, why did I sign that exclusive contract? The so-called exclusive means that all belong to Qidian. Naturally, I have to get Qidian’s resources. If I sign exclusively, I don’t have any resources at all. Is it a joke?

If I was a newcomer, no problem, I could fight and be patient, just to fight for a future. This is how I came here, but now I am standing in the future, letting a middle-aged greasy uncle start from scratch?

The Yangtze River pushes the old waves, and the old waves die on the beach. This is a natural law and I have been able to see through it for a long time, so I haven't argued for anything for many years. I'm grateful for my recommendation. If I don't recommend it to me, I will continue to write. But there are many ways to die. For more than ten years, should I make me more decent? I recommend it to me. If I can't read it, I recognize it, and I have nothing to say.

I was just a little depressed and couldn't say anything else. I still felt endless gratitude to Qidian. My mother had been struggling in the hospital bed for two years, but I couldn't do anything, so I could only accompany her all day. After the funeral was over 20 yuan left in my pocket. I spent one dollar to buy four pies every day. One pie soaked in a bowl of water for a meal. I had to eat four meals. I had to eat the last meal before going to bed, otherwise I would be too hungry to sleep at night.

That was a real desperate situation. Then, Qidian's manuscript fee came to more than 300 yuan. Although I later made a lot of money, the maximum was over 560,000 yuan, but it was not as good as the manuscript fee of more than 300 yuan that time, because it saved my life.

So, no matter what, I will not complain about Qidian. At the lowest point in my life, Qidian brought me back to life, but now I feel that it is time.

Since I was asked to start from scratch, I would switch from a psychological perspective to a newcomer. If I had changed to the past, I would have been frightened, but now I am very stable.

Even if it is a pig, I have written tens of millions of words and have mastered my writing skills, and I still have this confidence.

Letting go of the past is sometimes a kind of relief. There are many ways in front of me. I rely on my wife to do small business, or do something with my friends, just borrow some resources and connections from my wife, or change my pen name, change my IP, and go to other places to find other editors. Maybe I will recognize my writing skills and recommend them to me a lot.

The most unhealthy thing is, taking some money to manage finances is enough to support me. My life requirements are not high, so I smoke some cigarettes and drink some tea. I have a wife for other living expenses, so I can make three or four thousand yuan a month.

Even if I didn’t do my financial management well, I still have the New Year’s greetings that my wife gave me this year, which is more than the manuscript fee for the whole year last year. I will be able to pay New Year’s greetings by the end of the year. I will definitely be able to make it a mess.

Of course, I can't bear the shame of parasites and I must work hard to do something.

I just regretted the promise that I gave too early, what should I do with this book...

I thought about it for a long time and had to do what I said, but no one reads it. I can't write it stupidly, so I can't rely on recommendations.

Starting from Monday, two thousand recommendations are updated in one chapter. As long as there are 500 book friends reading books and giving recommendation votes, it can become my motivation. If there are less than 500 people and the efforts are not rewarded, it is inevitable that I will be discouraged by this book.
Chapter completed!