Volume 26, Chapter 4, The Sleeping World (End)
I stared at Long Die Mingmie's uncertain eyes, and looked at the two bonfires in the dark night that sometimes surged and sometimes dimmed, imagining the despair when he split me out.
The vigorous and self-pretentious dragon butterfly traveled all his life in the northern border, and eventually wasted his time and achieved nothing. He could only place his hope on another me who started over.
"But life doesn't need to start over." I said calmly, "Longdie, why can't you stick to it by yourself? Are you afraid of facing failure constantly? You are tired and desperate, you have nothing to do with your hands, and in the end, all you have left is waiting, waiting for others to give you hope."
"Longbutter, you are also a Taisheng who died with a pillar." I shook my head firmly, "Look, we are different."
"Different?" Long Die let out a sharp sneer, "Of course I am not like you. You can get the inheritance of charm by buying something! Just jump into the sea and meet a master like Aluo! You have the Dragon King of the Sea, Tuobafeng, Kongkongxuan, Chi??????? But what do I have? What can I use to win?"
His face twitched and he shouted at the top of his lungs: "The more you struggle and the more persistent you are, the more desperate you are!"
The surroundings fell into death silence, and Long Butterfly's chest was undulating and gasping rapidly. After a long time, he said tangently: "What's the point of arguing about these things now? You and I are buried deep in the ground, isolated and helpless, and you still have to wait for death. Lin Fei, the northern border no longer needs you, your luck has ended." He seemed to have lost all his strength, and never spoke again, like an empty shell, slowly drying up in the suffocating darkness.
I was silent for a while and looked around. No matter how much time I had left, I seemed to be able to wait for death here slowly.
I reached out to support the ground, and there was nothing under me, but it was as real as it was. I arched my back, stood up with all my might, staggered forward for a few steps, and then fell down dejectedly.
Although the strangle saved me, the soul that was forced to be attracted was too weak and I couldn't even move freely. I simply lay on the ground, used my hands and feet, and crawled forward with great difficulty.
One inch, one foot, one zhang??????? In the deep and endless space, I crawled alone and hard. There was darkness in front and darkness behind, which reminded me of the scene of crawling and begging on the Lion Bridge in Luoyang when I was young.
Such humiliating actions, now looking back, they also have the dignity of life.
Climbing forward and keeping crawling, I held my elbows, pushed my knees, moved my weak body, and crawled forward invisible ways.
A month, a year, many years passed, and I kept crawling forward, repeating this simple and boring action. Suddenly, I heard the dry sound of the dragon butterfly, like a thick dust covered with thick dust: "What are you doing?"
Looking back in the sound, the dragon butterfly was still behind me. It turned out that I had not crawled far.
Such a result is indeed desperate. Everything I did seemed to have turned into futility at once. I began to understand the loss of Dragon Butterfly back then.
"No magic or skill can be without flaws. I have thought that the essence of silence should be the protective power generated by temporarily separating the body from the mind and sanitizing the self into dormancy. Although a little bit of spiritual intelligence exists, it is trapped in the core of the spiritual world and cannot be separated. It can only wait for others to wake up. Awakening is actually to use external forces to open up the closed spiritual core." I heard my voice, which seemed so small in this vast space.
“So what?”
"What do you think?"
"Do you want to rush out of your spiritual core?" Long Die was stunned and let out a hoarse and desolate laugh, "It's impossible. Without external force, you and I will never be able to truly wake up."
"So I said, we are different." I buried my head and continued to crawl forward. The distance ahead was as far as another world, with nothing visible, no light, no color, no mountains, rivers, and no reference distance.
I couldn't even hear the sound of myself crawling.
Time passes slowly, and maybe not long, but here, the years are so long that they are incalculable that they are even submerged in the day and night. Every moment, I am climbing forward, monotonously and stereotypedly.
When I look back occasionally, the distance between the dragon butterfly and me has not yet been further distanced.
"Silly, progress is too slow!" I vaguely returned to the dragon whale's belly. Because of the disadvantage of cultivation, I was shocked by my master.
"Silly! Silly! Silly!"
"It doesn't matter. I have time to study slowly in the future."
Hundreds of magical secrets were finally made. Before I knew it, a smile appeared on my face. At this moment, I finally understood the meaning of the white-haired old lady to me.
Climbing forward, I told myself that no matter how long it takes, hope does not take time.
After a long time in a daze, I seemed to have thick dust accumulated on my body, emitting a desolate atmosphere, but I was still climbing forward, and the distance between me and the dragon butterfly seemed to be a little further away.
"You can't get out." Long Die looked at me with a complicated expression, and the flames in his eyes were jumping weakly.
"I won't be trapped here." I was answering, and it seemed like Ning Zhen said this. In the dark abyss of resentment, I saw her bright and gentle eyes and told me: "You will never give up."
I chuckled gently, and there was actually light ahead like the eternal night. Countless people were chasing the Tao, just wanting to see the light behind the darkness?
I tried my best to climb forward, like swimming against the current on a deep and turbulent river. I have no boat, no oar, no give up or despair.
On the bank of the river, I saw Hai Ji, Jiu Danmei, Nangong Ping, Ahu, Wuyan, Ye Liubing, Chu Du????????? One by one, I floated like fog, and then drifted hazy. I experienced them again, experienced my own joys, sorrows, sorrows, sorrows, separations, and re-travels of lust.
I sometimes laugh, sometimes cry, sometimes amazed, sometimes sighed, and sometimes sighed. They made me feel no longer lonely. It was these figures that intertwined Lin Fei's life with me. If I deny them, I would deny myself and life itself.
No matter which one is missing, my life will not be perfect.
But they are not my strength to move forward.
Because fate gathers and distant, because all of them may eventually disappear, in this endless black river, only one can move forward.
After a long time, my body seemed to gradually rust and became heavier. I tried my best to climb, but I couldn't climb, so I moved my body bit by bit. As long as I moved forward, I could only move forward.
"Why?" I vaguely heard the dragon butterfly behind him asking. He was like a decaying grave, sighing in vain.
"Dragon Butterfly, do you know what is the biggest difference between you and me?"
"Since I exerted my sleep power, I have never expected anyone to wake me up!"
"In this life, I never wait for others to wake me up!"
"I will wake myself up!"
"This is Tao!"
Long Die looked at me in a daze, as if he had frozen. After a long time, he burst into deafening laughter.
The laughter shocked the entire spiritual space.
"Lin Fei, you can't get out by relying on you alone." He smiled, his empty eyes lit up again with a flaming glow.
"But it's not just you!" He flew up his wings, and a dazzling light burst out from his body, and the light splashed inch by inch.
The body of the dragon butterfly was also splashing inch by inch, and fragments rushed towards me like bright meteors, blending into my weak soul.
"Take me and live." Tears flashed in his smile. Perhaps what the dragon butterfly split back then was not a soul, but the last remaining persistence in his life.
The light in the sky gradually faded, and the dragon butterfly was left with only a vague shadow. "I lost again." His lips opened and closed, as if he was saying.
I stared at his floating figure and shook my head: "You said, you are me, I am you."
"I am us." I turned around, tried all the hopes of dragon butterflies and me, tried all the persistence of my past and present life, and climbed forward hard.
A hazy white light flashed in front of the darkness.
I rushed towards the white light.
Dragon Butterfly, have you seen it?
That is the other side.
Chapter completed!