The apartment was rented by the company. It only had a one-month contract to give newly moved employees a buffer period and find a comfortable place to live. In the apartment, the furniture, water, electricity, etc. are all complete, and even dialing and Internet access has been opened. Jiang Zhihan showed his driver's license, and quickly completed the procedures and moved his luggage in. The apartment manager told him that there was a pizza shop across the street. Jiang Zhihan asked for a phone call and called for takeout. He went to the shower room to rinse it, and came out to open the box. The pizza was still hot. He opened the iced coke can, took a big sip of the pizza, sighed with satisfaction, sat down, turned on his laptop, and connected to the Internet cable. After a beeping sound, a smiley face jumped out, the Internet was connected, and the world was right in front of him.

Jiang Zhihan was the first to go to his email address. Ni Shang really had two letters, but I don’t know why it was automatically filtered into the spam folder. Jiang Zhihan moved it back to the subfolder of Fa Fan 1y that he built and clicked:

The cold,

I wrote you a letter last week, but I don’t know if you received it. You must be very busy recently, right?

Last time I told you that my tutor was going to transfer to the University of Chicago because he offered him good conditions. Because he found my project, he advised me to transfer to the school with him. I thought for a long time, but decided to agree to him.

Many people advised me to stay in UD, saying that I would not have to worry about not having any project to do after staying. This is true. However, I always feel a pity for most of the things I made. California has the benefits here, and after staying for more than two years, I gradually gained many friends and felt a little home-like feeling. Some friends advised me that Chicago is very cold, and the public security is also very bad near Chicago, and living conditions, such as Chinese restaurants, are definitely not as convenient as here.

I have considered all these factors, and they are right. But in the end, I still think the project at hand is more important, after all, that is the main purpose of my study here. Moreover, Chicago is also a big city, and the flavor is quite different from here. I think it is also a new experience. Who knows? Maybe there is something good waiting for me in the future. So, why not try it? Anyway, I think that studying outside is really like duckweed floating outside. Here, or there, the difference does not seem to be that big.

I heard you returned to China some time ago. When Lin Mo and Siyi were on the phone with me, they all said that your Swedish girlfriend spoke very well in Chinese and was very beautiful and gentle. I hope this time, you don’t abandon others because of a small dispute... I also heard about Lin Xiao, thank God, and finally I was safe.

When I went to Chicago, I arranged everything about renting a house and was planning to go back to China for about a month, mainly to accompany my father. If you have something to bring from China and forget what you last returned to China, don’t forget to tell me that I can bring it to you when I come back and mail it to you.

Good wishes,

Ni Shang

Jiang Zhihan held his cheek with one hand, staring at the computer screen, and holding a slice of pizza in one hand. He took a random bite, but couldn't feel what it tasted. He read the letter again, and it was ordinary and plain, and it really seemed to be written by an old friend who had known for many years: a few words of life, a few words of work, a little ridiculous mockery of his love affairs, and finally politely provide help.

He closed the page, swallowed the remaining pizza in one bite, leaned against the backrest of the office leather chair, and sighed inexplicably.

Before coming to California, he really wanted to come to Silicon Valley to have a look, and he had some intuitive and close understanding and experience of this new wave of technology. But when talking to Zhuang Jiarong or Lan Xiaofeng, their first reaction was that there was another reason for you to go to California?

Jiang Zhihan didn't know if there was something in his subconscious that was driving him to get closer to this girl, or waiting for God to arrange it to let the story open the next page, and whether he could read some surprises. But in his clear thinking, Ni Shang was indeed not the reason why he came to Silicon Valley. No matter what other people thought or how Wen Chu persuaded him, Bai Bingyan's death has always been in Jiang Zhihan's heart. Two years later, the deep valley still cannot be crossed.

For Ni Shang, Jiang Zhihan may know more deeply than everyone in this world. In the early morning of that playground, she looked at herself and said word by word that lovers can choose, but parents cannot. That sentence, many years later, echoed in her ears like thunder.

Jiang Zhihan did not think that he was the culprit of killing Bai Bingyan. He even agreed with Wen Chu's opinion that perhaps the real murderer was the one. Ni Jianguo, himself, or Wu Yin were just pushing the lead in the tragedy he directed. But he did not think that when the dead mother was the closest and most dearest mother, Ni Shang would calm down and think rationally.

There were several times, including that Thanksgiving night, Jiang Zhihan didn't have a hint of impulse and wanted to tell her all the truth. After all, no matter what motive it was, concealment and deception were not a long-term solution. Just like some people who had been hiding the news of an elderly man's wife or child's death for years, or diagnosed the elderly with terminal illness, in order not to think that they would suffer too much mental damage. Jiang Zhihan used to disagree with this approach. In his thinking influenced by Western culture, everyone's right to know is the most undeniable, even if others were kind-hearted. But when things really came to the person they cared about the most, he hesitated and he made the same choice.

Reason and emotion are often at the intersection of this conflict.

Telling the truth to Ni Shang, she might hate herself deeply. But this is not what Jiang Zhihan is most worried about. With his understanding of Ni Shang, what he fears most is that Ni Shang thought about it and could not accept that he had the shadow of the two men he loved the most in the matter of his mother's car accident. With Ni Shang's personality, what she would hate in the end was usually not herself, or her father, but herself.

She probably thought that if she didn't follow Jiang Zhihan in high school, she wouldn't have conflicts with her father, and there wouldn't be any more births. She probably wouldn't have any more thoughts if she had to resist telling Director Jiang Zhihan about her troubles in pursuit of her, Jiang Zhihan wouldn't have tried to get close to her mother again, and there wouldn't have any more births later.

In short, with her personality, she would rather blame herself than the one she loves. When she is stubborn, no reason or persuasion will help.

Jiang Zhihan didn't want her to blame her mother's death on herself. Time passed, and the redness of the wound should have dissipated a little, and he didn't have the courage to uncover it again. Perhaps in many things, Jiang Zhihan was selfish. But in this matter, he didn't speak, not for anything else, but for the girl he once liked the most.

Bai Bingyan left. For this reason, Wu Yin chose to leave. Ni Jianguo also received notes from Bai Bingyan's "friend" from time to time, living in guilt and torture. Where is Jiang Zhihan? He looked at Ni Shang from a distance. Even though it seemed that everyone (including Wu Yin) believed that he would sooner or later he would go back the girl, he still chose to keep a distance.

So, everyone was punished. He comforted himself like this.

Life always moves forward, and what passes will always be indifferent, but for everyone, there are always one or two unbearable weights in this world.

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