Chapter 192 The gap in the soul
Are there any flaws in your heart?
I need a strong heart, not a locked heart.
A strong man, can you accommodate everything?
Instead of using resistance and blocking to protect yourself.
It seems...this is the reason,
Chen Le walked into the school while thinking about the words of the night.
I feel that he is indeed a mysterious and beautiful person, and he has the magical power to see through people's hearts.
If you try to work in the store, can you really become stronger?
After thinking, he received a call from Yu Hao.
"How is it? Let's finish reporting. Let's go out and pick up a skewer together?"
“…just pickle skewers?”
Tsinghua University is not far from Kyoto University.
Chen Le waited at the door for a while, but was taken to a nearby barbecue restaurant by Yu Hao who came over.
I ordered some tenderloin, wings, lamb skewers and the like.
This is barely considered "meeting an old friend in a foreign land", which is quite touching.
Sitting opposite Yu Hao, Chen Le was surprised to find, "You seem to have become stronger."
It has also become mature, and the neat clothes that look like a suit-like feeling, like an adult who is already working.
"During the summer vacation, I read a lot of books and did some exercise."
Because Yu Hao was a little fat in the past, not very fat, but he also gave people a bloated feeling. Now he looks a lot stronger and feels like he has become muscled.
While pouring wine for Chen Le, Yu Hao joked, "I can't beat him if my girlfriend runs away with someone in the future!"
“…”
This surprised Chen Le.
Because I was green and my girlfriend ran away with someone, it was well known to everyone in the school, and it has always been a great psychological trauma for Yu Hao.
Even even though he was the Minister of Discipline at that time, he had been ridiculed several times in public and secretly because of this matter, and was regarded as a laughing stock.
At that time, Yu Hao did not have a good time during the last period of the college entrance examination. It was not an exaggeration to say that he would spend his days every day like the New Year.
Unexpectedly, he would take the initiative to use this as a joke.
Ordinary people will not tease themselves for their psychological trauma.
Just like Chen Le, he didn't want to be mentioned about his affairs with An Youyue, nor did he want to say it, and at the same time, he didn't want to say anything about his past, which were his wounds.
Seeing Chen Le's sightline meaning, Yu Hao shrugged and smiled, "It's no big deal. Thanks to them for giving me such unforgettable memories, making me recognize many people, and finally I know that people should work hard to improve themselves, otherwise you are not a big deal."
Chen Le felt that Yu Hao's eyes were flashing with a burning flame caused by a bit of strong anger and hatred.
"Also, you are, too, seem to be much more mature than before, and there is a feeling that I can't figure it out, but it has become even more gloomy."
"She is gloomy? How could it be?"
Chen Le smiled and said, "I'm fine, it's been going well recently."
"Is that so good?"
Yu Hao didn't want to say much, so he held the beer and clinked with Chen Le, "Come on, clink."
The two of them had a drink and drank it all.
Yu Hao sighed deeply, "Everyone says that the longer the friend, the better. I didn't expect that in the end, you, the shortest friend, gave me a feeling that I would never be betrayed."
Chen Le keenly noticed something from Yu Hao's eyes, "Is it...what happened again?"
Yu Hao shook his head and said, "All it's over. I will definitely take back what I have lost. Today is my new starting point."
"That's good."
Chen Le didn't ask, but just cared about Yu Hao's "smooth" comment just now, and asked, "By the way, what did you feel when you first met me?"
"I feel like, I thought that the person who came would be a very powerful person, but later I saw you coming, what should I say?"
Yu Hao frowned and thought for a while, "At that time, you gave people a gloomy and dark feeling. There seemed to be no light in your eyes, as if you didn't care about anything, as if you didn't care about life or death. You looked very withdrawn and said lifelessly. Well, you didn't look capable, just come here to go, yes, like the feeling of playing supporting roles in the movie."
When Yu Hao said this, he laughed, "But I know there are two types of withdrawn people, one is autistic and incompetent, and the other is genius!"
"I realized at that time that you are a genius! You are definitely buried genius. You seem to be lonely and have no friends, so I just want to make friends with you!"
Because Yu Hao actually has a wide range of friends and has a good time with many people...at least, before the incident with her girlfriend, his friends were all over the school.
"Is it gloomy, dead?"
"Yes, it's like you've experienced a huge disaster, reborn after a disaster, and saved your life. Every day you live, you're the feeling of walking dead.... By the way, I said that there was a period of time in the middle, you were obviously very cheerful, but you looked very happy every day and you were much more lively."
When Yu Hao said this, he realized something, and hurriedly stopped talking, and shook his head and said, "Now he feels the same as before, well, he feels less energetic than before."
“…”
Chen Le knew that he was talking about the time he was dating An Youyue. Although he was ignorant and did nothing, he felt that he had hope every day and people were energetic.
Later they broke up...
Now, are you back?
It turns out that I give people the impression that I am gloomy and lacks energy.
Chen Le only realized this.
He thought he was at least very cheerful on his appearance.
So that's not the case at all?
Yu Hao smiled at Chen Le, "Okay, there are no other women in college, don't there be many women, try to hand over it again. In fact, in the days when they broke up, even when they were ridiculed by the whole school, I miss her like you, and even fantasized about whether she would return to me one day."
"I feel quite cheap, and as long as she says, I may forgive her. Now that I think about it, I am still too naive. Good men are determined by all directions, fame, wealth, money and power should be our pursuit. What kind of woman do you want at that time!"
"Believe me, you are an absolute genius, and sooner or later, there will be the day when everyone will get to know you again."
Yu Hao said this to Chen Le and to himself.
In his eyes, there was a clear flash of desire called ambition.
It is said that a man needs a woman's baptism when he matures.
Yu Hao was obviously too baptized, and had reshaped his outlook on life and world, and began to work hard to make everyone know themselves again.
On the contrary, although they were breaking up, Chen Le seemed much more depressed and tried his best to avoid the trauma of his heart.
Just like his past actions, since it is a bad thing and a bad experience, then selectively forget it. Like the painful experiences in junior high school, it will never hurt if you never mention it.
However, the wounds of the soul will not heal with the passage of time.
The two of them did it very differently, and Yu Hao chose to use something else to fill the wounds of his soul.
Chen Le chose to pretend not to care and carefully avoid these wounds.
This was also his habitual approach in the past.
An Youyue is just one of his many wounds.
Of course, this was a special wound that almost led him from a gloomy, lifeless boy to a vigorous, energetic boy, although it was still a little bit worse...
Because of the dark night, Chen Le finally realized his heart again.
Recognize the fragility of your own soul, the existence of the wounds of your soul, and its inevitability.
Yu Hao's performance inspired Chen Le a little.
Maybe it was because of the same illness, or because I came to Kyoto to go to college together, or I felt that I would never be betrayed by Chen Le, so Yu Hao had a special favor for Chen Le.
The next day, he didn't call a few other classmates, so he called Chen Le to come out to drink.
"Come, have a drink, and toast to you and my future."
"cheers."
The two of them drank the wine in their glasses, and Yu Hao patted the table and said aloofly, "Brother, look at it carefully. Since I have entered Qinghai University, I can't do it in vain. This time, I will first become the president of the student union and the first place in the school!"
Chen Le smiled and said, "Come on!"
"Of course, so are you! Believe in yourself, I won't read it wrong. You kid is definitely a genius. I could tell at a glance..."
“…”
The two of them were drinking while bragging, which was something most boys would do.
However, Chen Le received a call from Tang Xiaoqian before drinking for a while.
Listening to Tang Xiaoqian's crying crying call for help on the phone, Chen Le suddenly felt his head clear, and was shocked. He quickly put down his wine glass and said, "Sorry, something happened. We will continue another day. I have to go back to school first."
"Ah, what's the matter? Do you need my help?"
"It's okay, I'll go..."
Then he hurried to the girls' dormitory. Although he had been worried that something might happen, he didn't expect that something would happen on the first day.
I heard that she was crying sadly. It wasn't that someone beat me up...
Chen Le was a little worried. This worry continued until he saw Tang Xiaoqian...
Chapter completed!