483: leave (2)
This is undoubtedly a torment for me.
Painful torture.
Finally, he asked me, "What's going on with Gu Yunyan?"
Is this the question he cares most about?
My hands, which were resting in front of me, couldn't help but tighten.
I took a deep breath without a trace. After a long time, I looked up at him, "Didn't you read my Weibo? I have been liked him since high school, and I have always liked him until now. When I was entangled with you..., he and I broke up because of a misunderstanding. Now we have solved the misunderstanding and we have made up again. Sorry, I know I shouldn't be sad when I broke up...ah———"
Before I could finish my words, Lu Jingchen, who came in, suddenly pushed down and pressed onto the bed.
His eyes were scarlet, like an angry lion, staring at me condescendingly, "Do you think I will believe these nonsense?"
His eyebrows were trembling because of anger.
I looked at his red eyes, my heart was weeping blood.
The eyes were wet.
But I told myself that there is no room for improvement in this matter, and I must let go...
"Whether you believe it or not, this cannot change the result of me reconciliation with him."
I choked, my throat tightened, and after enduring it, I continued, "I thought I might have really had a little bit of heartbeat for you. After all, compared with other men, you are excellent and handsome, and can almost be said to be the standard male god image in the minds of all girls. I occasionally think so, why is such an excellent and beautiful boy my brother? So, when you told me that you like me, at that moment, my heart did go off the wrong way, but it was not my sincerity, but my vanity, because there was such an excellent boy who suddenly confessed to me. I was young and I didn't understand, so I couldn't resist it for a while. But when this matter was exposed and when Gu Yunyan came to me again, I realized that I could not bear such a result at all, and I didn't want to be next to me. But when this matter was exposed, and when Gu Yunyan turned around and came to me again, I realized that I could not bear such a result at all. I didn't want to be next to me. But when this matter was exposed, and when Gu Yunyan turned around and came to me again, I realized that I could not bear such a result at all. I didn't want to be next to me.
People are pointing fingers and commenting on me, and I don’t want to be the disgusting person in others’ words. Only then do I understand that I don’t love you at all. If I really love you, how could I not be willing to accompany you through these ups and downs? If I really love you, how could I not be able to bear these pointed fingers? Because the person I love is Gu Yunyan, I like him, I love him, since I high school, he has never been in my heart. Do you know why I refused to go abroad in the past? It was not because of your obstruction, but because Gu Yunyan, it was Gu Yunyan who told me that he had no plans to study abroad, but now he is going to the United States, so I was in a hurry to go with him. Brother, I have said so much, do you understand? It’s not that you slept with me, my heart will be on you... I don’t love you! Please, let me go!"
In my eyes, countless mists were constantly spinning.
I could hardly see Lu Jingchen's face clearly.
His deep eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of gauze, blurry and unable to see clearly.
But under that layer of gauze, there was heavy pain, tolerance, and a blow.
His big hand clamped my wrist tightly, and I was very hard and hard. I had the illusion that my hand was about to break into the palm of his hand at any time.
But I didn't even shout a word of "pain".
Because I don't have the right to shout.
How can I be called pain?
He must have hurt more than me!
I know, I hurt him...
"Everything you say is true?"
He asked me.
The voice was completely hoarse.
"……certainly."
My voice trembled slightly.
"Lie, thunder strikes!"
"Okay. Lies are lying and thundering."
My tears kept spinning in my eyes.
But the one on his body suddenly smiled, and the smile on his lips was a little desolate.
He stood up, "I can't bear to let you hit you with thunder."
After saying that, he turned around and left my bedroom, leaving only a decisive sentence, "Stay well abroad and never appear in front of me again..."
He left...
The sound of engines came outside the villa, and then disappeared quickly.
I lay on the bed and cried into tears.
It was not until my mother came in again that I put away my tears and pretended that I had nothing to do to continue to pack my luggage.
But helpless, tears were out of control and were pouring out like broken pearls. They could not hold them, and could not stop them.
"Wuyou, if you don't want to leave, you don't have to..."
"Mom, you don't have to persuade me anymore. My intention to go is decided."
My mother sighed, "Okay, then I won't advise you anymore. After going there, Uncle Wei will pick you up. You are relieved to have him take care of me and your dad in the United States. Your dad and I will go to the United States to see you once a month."
“…Well, OK.”
When I thought about leaving this family, leaving my parents, second sister, and Lu Jingchen, my tears began to stop me again.
But I don’t want my mother to be sad with me, so I dare not cry, I only dare to wipe my tears quietly by myself.
****
The next day—
This day was the day when Gu Yunyan and I left here and flew to the United States.
My dad, my mom, and my second sister all came to see me off in person.
My mother was very worried about me and kept reminding me, "In the past, you must pay attention to safety. It is not as good as in China. You should pay attention to the people around you, go out with your classmates less, stay at home as much as possible, be safe, do you know?"
My dad disagrees with my mother's point of view and just said to me: "Although I went there to study, I still have to make more friends. My classmates still have to get along well, do you understand?"
My second sister is not willing to be outdone. "You two are one of you, and Wuyou is both immersed by you. Good sister, after you go out, you can learn foreign languages well. If you don't understand, ask me any time. My parents and I will come over to see you."
"……Uh-huh."
I nodded in response.
But my eyes always swept to the airport gate inadvertently.
But there was no familiar figure.
Will Lu Jingchen come?
My parents started asking Gu Yunyan to take good care of me again.
Gu Yunyan responded politely one by one.
After the explanation, it was not too early to register. Gu Yunyan reminded me, "It's time for us to leave."
My mother glanced at the time, "Yes, it's time to leave..."
My second sister knew what I was thinking the most. She looked at the door anxiously and asked, "Do you want to wait any longer?"
Just now, there was a sound of urging boarding on the radio.
And Gu Yunyan and I still haven't had time to go through security checks.
"Forget it, don't wait."
Finally, I made up my decision to pick up my suitcase and pass the security check.
But until I boarded the plane, I never waited for Lu Jingchen.
I was still wondering if he would come when I passed the security check.
But it turns out that I just thought too much.
Lu Jingchen did not come.
Because, he is not available.
He is very busy.
Busy getting engaged to Chen Wei'an.
Just as I was about to turn off the phone, my phone suddenly rang out with a "ding----" and a news came in.
And the news is the video of Lu Jingchen and Chen Wei'an getting engaged.
The two of them looked so disharmonious in front of the media reporters.
I looked at the scenes in the video and smiled self-deprecatingly.
What qualifications do I have to be sad?
I chose to let go of this man myself, so naturally I am not qualified to be jealous or angry.
But I felt so uncomfortable that I was gnawing at the millions of insects and ants.
I couldn't help but keep asking in my heart: How could he be so bad? How could he get engaged to another woman on the day I left? How could he be so unwilling to even send me off?
I closed my eyes and forced my tears back into my eyes.
Tell yourself that all the troubles are finally... over at this moment!
A breaking symbol was completely drawn between me and him.
But I know that one day... we will meet again.
That is my home, he is my relative, and we will always meet again.
When we meet again, will he be married? Will he be the father of several children?
By then, what about me?
How should I face him...
How do you face him?
I just hope that everything is fine for him!
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