Pang Qian chased him to the cafeteria with the lunch box. Gu Mingxi was already in line. He stood up straight, tilting his head and holding a lunch box. Pang Qian quietly lined up at the end of his team, staring at Gu Mingxi's back.

When it was Gu Mingxi's turn, he bent down slightly, let go of his cheeks, placed the lunch box on the windowsill, and then placed the rice card in his mouth on the lunch box, and ordered the meal to the master inside.

Someone ran over Pang Qian quickly, and the pigtail behind her was happily shaking.

The master handed out the lunch box that had been filled with food and brushed the meal card. Gu Mingxi lowered his head and bitten it again. While thinking about how to get the lunch box, Jiang Zhiya held the lunch box on the windowsill in her hand.

"Gu Mingxi, I'll help you get it." She said coquettishly.

Gu Mingxi bit the meal card and couldn't speak. Jiang Zhiya took the meal card from his mouth thoughtfully again. Gu Mingxi whispered: "Thank you."

After they passed by Pang Qian, Gu Mingxi kept lowering his head, Pang Qian stared at him blankly, and then she suddenly stepped out of the team and stopped him.

"Gu Mingxi." Pang Qian called him, and Gu Mingxi stopped and stared at her quietly.

Pang Qian said: "I want to eat fried noodles. Do you accompany me to eat outside?"

Gu Mingxi calmly replied: "I have already cooked food."

"You can take it home, heat it up, and eat it at night."

“That’s not new.”

"Then throw it away!"

“It’s not good to waste food.”

Pang Qian's eyes turned red: "What are you doing?"

She looked at him with grievance and asked again: "Gu Mingxi, what are you doing?"

Gu Mingxi lowered his head again: "What did I do? I'm going to have a meal."

Jiang Zhiya was waiting by the side with her lunch box. Gu Mingxi walked past Pang Qian. The distance between the canteen team was narrow, and his hanging sleeves brushed past Pang Qian's stiff arms.

Pang Qian had only one thought left in her mind: Oh no, Gu Mingxi was crazy.

Gu Mingxi sat in the stands beside the playground, watching the classmates in the class attend physical education class, the teacher urged the girls to practice sit-ups, and the boys played basketball beside him.

Of course he didn't get crazy, he just...

What do you mean? He felt that he was a little tired.

The string in Gu Mingxi's heart has been tense for many years. Day and night, and at all times, he always has his own little goal in his mind. The small plan: get up at six o'clock every day, cook his life alone, spend more than an hour going to school, work hard all day in school, and help Pang Qian teach questions while taking advantage of the last self-study class. After he got home from school, he did not watch TV or read newspapers, and went back to his room to do homework after dinner. After the teacher finished the assignment, he had to find the questions himself and did it until twelve o'clock in the morning.

He practices using computers for an hour every day, but he is definitely not playing. Gu Guoxiang does not allow him to play games, so he doesn't play. At most, he will quietly sweep away the thunder when he is itchy.

On the weekend, he had to learn painting, and when he came back, he had to practice painting, do questions, and memorize English. In the past, Zhou Nanzhong and Wang Song would call him and ask him to go to play football on the weekend. Gu Mingxi actually wanted to go there, but his parents didn't agree with him. He felt that the road was long and wasted time and it was not safe to play football. After a few times, no one came to meet Gu Mingxi again.

Gu Mingxi missed that when he lived in Jincai Courtyard, Pang Qian was next door. He felt bored on weekends and would go out for a walk together. Even if he didn't go out, they could go to each other's houses to play, chat, flip through comics, and eat popsicles together.

When Jian Zhe and Liu Hanlin asked Gu Mingxi to play football, Gu Mingxi would call Pang Qian to go with him. Pang Qian hummed and thought it was troublesome, but she never refused.

Her task is to help Gu Mingxi put on and take off his football shoes, feed him water, and wipe his sweat. When she comes back, Gu Mingxi will reward her with a small meal of KFC.

But now, they live in two corners of the city, Gu Mingxi feels much lonely.

In the past, Gu Mingxi always remembered his father's request for him. Gu Guoxiang asked him to be admitted to a 211 university or even a 985 university, and asked him to always stay in the top three in the grade. Now, Gu Mingxi suddenly felt that the efforts he had put in seemed to have no meaning at all.

He tried his best to stay in the top three in the grade, but so what? Even if he can get into a 985 university in the future, so what? Whether he can enter school without arms is a big problem. How to manage his life after entering school is also a big problem. Look, he can't even go to the cafeteria to eat alone. Gu Mingxi feels that to some extent, he is too dependent on Pang Qian.

At this moment, he met sharks, clams and oysters, as if he had entered another world.

That night, while eating barbecue at a shark shop, Xiaozhu, the girlfriend of the oysters, came to find oysters to play with. The girl was only seventeen years old, only two months older than Gu Mingxi, and worked in a nearby shoe factory. She was close to the oysters, and the two often kissed and hugged their waists, showing off their sweetness as if no one was around. Gu Mingxi even saw the oysters touching their girlfriend's breasts and pinching them a few times. He blushed and looked at the others, as if they were used to it.

Clams and oysters are about the same age as Gu Mingxi. Clams are in their second year of high school and have no money at home, so they dropped out of school and went to work. Oysters are graduates from technical school and have been working for two years.

They don’t have much education, but they live a very cool and happy life.

Gu Mingxi remembered Xie Yi again. When he was in junior high school, Xie Yi's study was comparable to his. Now, Xie Yi's grades have dropped a lot, and he can only be considered middle and upper grade. However, anyone can see that Xie Yi is a happy boy.

Learning for him is a kind of enjoyment, never a restraint, nor is it oppression. Just like he plays table tennis, plays violin, and participates in comic clubs, everything he does is based on his own heart. I like it, but I do it. No one can force me to do things I don’t like.

Gu Mingxi thought, why can't he be as free and easy as Xie Yi? Why is he so entangled in his grades and rankings? Even if he was admitted to the best university in the country, what can he do? He still can't become the pride of his family and will never be an excellent child that his parents can show off.

Because he is a disabled person.

No matter how good he is to the girl or obeys everything, he still can't become the prince in her heart.

Because he is a disabled person!

He remembered how he looked on TV, and he raised his feet high on the table, holding chopsticks on his toes to push the rice to his mouth. It was not pitiful, but that look was really ridiculous.

Gu Mingxi, he told himself, after being tired for so many years, why not take a break first.

During the May Fourth Youth Day, Gu Mingxi really won the title of Outstanding Little League Member in the District. Teacher Dai accompanied him to receive the award. When the certificate was awarded, the other students went on stage to win the award. Only Gu Mingxi was accompanied by Teacher Dai.

Teacher Dai helped him get the red certificate and took a photo with his shoulder. Gu Mingxi looked at the camera expressionlessly, with deep and distant eyes.

In May, his grades plummeted.

He no longer had a cold war with Pang Qian, and sometimes he would talk to her, but Pang Qian didn't know if that feeling was her own illusion, she felt that Gu Mingxi was like a different person.

His tone of speech became much colder, and when Pang Qian asked him questions, he was cold and cold. When she said it once, she didn't understand, and he would say, "I didn't speak well, so you go and ask the teacher."

Sometimes, he didn't even take self-study classes, so he left school after carrying his schoolbag, but he didn't go home immediately. He would drag it until eight or nine o'clock in the evening, and then use a bunch of messy excuses to perfunctory Li Han.

Li Han called Pang Shuisheng, and Pang Shuisheng went to ask Pang Qian, and Pang Qian was also confused. She didn't know where Gu Mingxi went after school. She asked him, and he impatiently told her not to worry. She even followed him, but he soon discovered it.

At that time, Gu Mingxi just said to Pang Qian coldly: "There is a mess ahead, don't follow me anymore."

After saying that, he turned around and left. Pang Qian would not be scared by him, so he continued to follow her. Gu Mingxi ignored her and walked directly to bus No. 263, got on the bus home, and threw Pang Qian, who was stunned, on the platform.

On the weekend, Gu Mingxi walked out with the painting board on his back, but he did not go to the teacher's studio, but took the bus to the heavy machinery factory. He entered an Internet cafe with familiarity. The network administrator saw him and said, "Xiao Gu is here, clams and oysters are waiting for you inside. I'll drive it for you by machine No. 49."

Gu Mingxi asked: "How much money do I have on my card?"

The network administrator checked: "Oh, there are still many, don't worry about playing."

Gu Mingxi nodded and found the No. 49 machine. Clams and oysters were playing games with headsets. There were colorful swords and swords on the screen.

Gu Mingxi shook his shoulders and put down the drawing board, sat down on the chair, lifted his foot and turned on the machine. He brushed his username and password, and he skillfully opened the game, put the headset on his toes and started playing with others.

He lit a cigarette for the clam, threw another oyster, and turned around and asked Gu Mingxi: "Xiao Gu, do you want it?"

Gu Mingxi stared at the cigarette in his hand for a while, and the Adam's apple slid, and finally shook his head.

Sheng Oyster said: "Don't smoke Xiao Gu, Brother Shark said he shouldn't smoke him."

The clam said, "Just don't let Brother Shark know."

Gu Mingxi never spoke. His attention was only on the game interface on the screen. He put both feet on a high table. He quickly pressed the mouse with his right foot, occasionally moving to the keyboard and typing the shortcut keys together with his left foot.

It’s so easy to play games, and it doesn’t take any effort. It’s much easier than doing questions.

In the game, he is a muscular giant with a pair of strong arms that can swing a huge hammer and knock the monster's head.

It's so cool.

Gu Mingxi stared at the screen, it was so cool!

The clam saw the drawing board that Gu Mingxi threw on the table and asked, "Xiao Gu, what is this?"

"Paintboard."

“What are you doing?”

"For drawing."

"You can still draw?" The clams were fresh, "Will you go to class later?"

Gu Mingxi said coldly: "I won't go."

"Why?"

"It's not interesting."

Gu Mingxi's results are falling in unit tests one by one.

He does the questions as he pleases. Sometimes he feels troublesome, so he simply stops doing them. He said to himself in his heart, what's the point, I can do it anyway.

When his first unit test score appeared, Li Han was invited to school by Teacher Dai.

Everyone can see that Gu Mingxi did it on purpose. He either didn't understand it, he just didn't study hard or did not take the exam. He didn't even memorize English and couldn't write the newly learned words. Li Han asked Gu Guoxiang to persuade Gu Mingxi, but the father and son sat together and started arguing after saying a few words.

Gu Guoxiang was so angry that he wanted to beat Gu Mingxi, but was held back by Li Han. Gu Guoxiang said, "Who did you show you this broken pot?! Show me? Show your mother? Gu Mingxi I tell you that it is your own business to study or not. If you study hard, I can arrange a job for you in the future. You will not even beg for this little effort. Even if you go to beg for food in the future, I will not care about you!"

Gu Mingxi looked at him stubbornly and said, "Even if I go to beg for food, I won't come to beg you!"

"Mingxi!" Li Han looked at his son in surprise, completely unable to understand. It was just over a month that what had happened would cause Gu Mingxi to undergo such a drastic change.

Xiao Yujing asked Pang Qian, what's wrong with Gu Mingxi? Pang Qian said she didn't know.

Teacher Dai asked Pang Qian if Gu Mingxi encountered any difficulties? Pang Qian couldn't explain them clearly.

While practicing football, Xie Yi also came to ask Pang Qian, did Gu Mingxi's mind get drunk?

That’s right, this is what Xie Yi said: “Is Gu Mingxi’s brain watered? He failed the chemistry unit exam? Our chemistry teacher said that the chemistry teacher in your class was so angry that he had a high blood pressure attack.”

Pang Qian was silent for a while and said his point to Xie Yi: "I think Gu Mingxi seems to have made bad friends."

"Um?"

"He didn't tell me, he rarely talks to me now. But sometimes I can smell smoke from him." Pang Qian said in a low voice, "He seems to go somewhere to play after school. I wanted to follow him last time, but I didn't follow him, and he got rid of it."
To be continued...