He was praised for his intelligence since childhood, and of course, he was also very naughty. His mother could not stand his father's work all year round and his relationship between husband and wife became increasingly indifferent. Finally, he filed for divorce. He was taken abroad by his mother at the age of eight and lived abroad for six or seven years. In front of his remarried mother, he was speechless. When he went out, he became a completely out of control, smoking, drinking, fighting, playing motorcycles, and even flying leaves. He never wanted to do anything in the future, and it didn't matter. Anyway, he just survived like this and would never starve to death in this life.

This kind of life lasted until when he was fourteen years old, when he returned to his country and met the girl who was one year older than him.

He thought he would probably never forget that night, in the study of the wise and approachable elder, she told him about the past and present life of the bridge.

At that time, he knew nothing about the bridge world. But when he stood silently and heard the girl tell her grandfather that her wish when she grew up was to be a bridge designer and design the most solid and greatest bridge in the world, he told himself in his heart that he would become a bridge builder in the future.

She designed it.

He came to create it.

He thought he could not forget the way she learned the bad news and cried in her grandfather's arms. At that time, he wanted to go up and hug her and tell her that although she had lost her father, he was also a man, and he would continue to protect her and accompany her.

She is so outstanding. He knows that being a man alone is not enough. He must be as outstanding as her, or even better than her, so that he can be qualified to protect her and accompany her.

It was from that night that the boy shaved off his head and flattened the thorns on his body. He returned to school, studied hard, and got into high school with her, sitting silently in the corner of the classroom, while burying his head, occasionally looking up and looking at her back.

He wanted to find a chance to go to college and tell her the answer to the question she asked that day, why did he choose his current major?

But he never dreamed that on the first day he entered college, she became someone else's girlfriend.

It was also at that time that he realized that she had liked Ye Zhizhou for a long time, and in her eyes, no matter how hard he tried or how much he liked her, he was just her younger brother.

Oh, fucking brother, he smoked a cigarette and thought coldly, and watched her get in and out with Ye Zhizhou, who was a few years older than him. He didn't want to disturb such a ridiculous so-called "like" that others don't care about at all, or humiliate himself.

Overnight, he also lost all the motivation to work hard for it.

His old appearance became cute and soon let him go. His youthful freedom felt quite happy.

It's gone, it's just a woman.

He played like this for almost two years until the summer vacation was about to start in the second half of his sophomore year. One day, he carried a bass and returned to the huge home that was always empty. He saw a big red gold-plated invitation on the table. His father called and said that the son of the Ye family was engaged and held an engagement banquet in the hotel on the weekend. He was away from home and could not come back, so he asked him to go there.

My father's tone was a little regretful.

Since he went to college, his father has hinted or made it clear more than once, hoping that his son would pursue her and talk to her. The reason was that his father had no intention of covering up, saying that he was too wild and that only she could control him.

Now that Ye Zhizhou graduated from university, he will soon be studying abroad.

The Ye family wanted to get engaged first and then go out. The woman's family was originally a little worried, but the Ye family's mother was sincere, and Ye Zhizhou herself was indeed impeccable, so she finally agreed.

He knew that there would be such a day sooner or later, but he always thought it was quite far away before, but he didn't expect that this day would suddenly come like this.

He stared at the name of the girl who was standing by Ye Zhizhou on the invitation, slowly put down the phone that was talking to his father, and remained silent for a long time.

Her engagement banquet was set up in a luxury hotel in Wangfujing, with a buffet style of Western food. That night, the guests were like clouds and the arrangement was like a dream, like an ocean of flowers. She was walking out by Ye Zhizhou holding hands amid the applause of relatives and friends, so beautiful that even the beautiful Diana Rose beside her was so beautiful that she was not so beautiful.

Xu Shu had never seen her dressed like this. That day she wore a pink Chanel dress with a small crown on her head, bright eyes and white teeth, beautiful and noble, just like a princess led out of a prince from a castle.

The prince beside the princess is Ye Zhizhou.

Xu Shu once told himself more than once that she is not water, nor is he a fish, and he will die if he doesn't get it.

But at that moment, he suddenly understood.

She is not water, he is not a fish, he will not die if he can't get her, but he will be sad.

Very sad.

He can't deceive himself.

He watched Ye Zhizhou kiss her cheek gently under the cheers of his relatives and friends. A smile appeared on her lips, a little shy, but sweet and happy.

He stood behind the crowd of applauding and laughing, and looked at the scene and could no longer stop - in fact, he shouldn't have come here tonight.

She and her relatives and friends smiled and turned around inadvertently. Before she could see herself, he retreated and exited the place that belonged to them.

But the night is not over yet.

Six years have passed, and Xu Shu can still smell the scent of his nineteen-year-old midsummer night. It is surrounded by the exhaust gas from roses, cigarettes, hormones and motorcycle smoke exhaust pipes. It is so depressing and suffocating.

Later that night, he finally couldn't control himself and the motorcycle stopped outside a high-end community called Haitang Bay.

This is the new house prepared by the Ye family for their son to get married early in the future, and the access restrictions are strictly imposed.

He climbed over the wall and passed by Ye Zhizhou who had just parked in the garage. Finally, he stood in the shadow of the window downstairs, looking up.

The engagement banquet ended and he brought her here, their future love nest.

He knew that at this moment, she was with him, in the window upstairs.

In the window, the lights started to light up, and later, the lights dimmed, and then...

No more later.

The nineteen-year-old boy smoked the last cigarette he had found in his pocket in the night, until the cigarette butt began to burn his hands, and turned away his eyes, which were so hot that he was about to cry. He finally turned around and left and returned to the bungalow rented outside the school.

They were not there, he was the only one, and the drum set on the concrete floor in the middle of the house with a cold metallic light.

He had red eyes, fucked the stick, and used all his strength to hit the drum hard.

The drum face trembled violently, making a loud bursting sound, which made people's eardrums tingling, blood flowed backwards, and their hearts almost ruptured. The wild dogs who were staying in the nearby black squid factory were alarmed by the sound and made a series of barking sounds one after another.

Sheng Sisi drove a new sports car that her parents gave her as a birthday gift and pushed him to the ground.

In the dark night, he lay on the hard and worn concrete floor, closed his eyes, and gasped in a big mouthful of sweat evaporating the hormonal sweat. Just as she unbuttoned his pants, what she should be doing with Ye Zhizhou now appeared in his mind, and suddenly he felt like a dull knife was cutting it in his heart.

He pushed Sheng Sisi away, turned over, rushed under the faucet to wash cold water, and looked at himself with red eyes in the mirror.

Sheng Sisi chased him and bit him.

He pushed her away again and said: Don't come again in the future. You are pretty good, but I'm not interested in you. Otherwise, one hundred people would have gone to bed early.

Sheng Sisi was stunned.

He picked up his clothes and put them on his shoulders, came out, and abandoned the nineteen-year-old summer night behind him.

...

Xu Shu opened his eyes and stared at the smiling face on the phone screen. He was a girl he had liked for so many years.

She was leaving tomorrow and left him alone.

He suddenly couldn't help it anymore and didn't want to wait any longer. He turned over, opened the door, and climbed the stairs in a few steps, and soon arrived at the door of the room on the third floor where she lived.

It was late at night and the snow became heavier and it was getting louder. Almost all the colleagues who had gathered went to rest. The footprints that Lao Zhang and his wife stepped on in the snow in the courtyard were gradually covered by heavy snow.

Zhao Nanxiao liked this place quite a lot. Thinking that he would probably not have the chance to come again in the future, he crawled out of the bed on a whim, ran to the terrace, took a few night snow scenes with his mobile phone at the snow mountain, returned to the room, closed the window and went to bed, enjoyed it, and was about to turn off the lights to go to bed, suddenly he received a message.

xs: Have you fallen asleep? I'm outside your door.

Zhao Nanxiao looked at the direction of the door, hesitated, got out of bed, put a coat on his body, tilted his slippers, and opened a 45-degree crack in the door.

He was really standing by the wall outside the door. The smell of alcohol seemed to have not dissipated, his eyes were a little red, and he looked at himself, and he looked like...

As if he was sick.

"What's wrong with you?" she asked him.

He didn't say anything, and he looked at her like that.

Zhao Nanxiao reached out and touched his forehead. It felt a bit hot. He put it on his forehead and tried it. It was really much higher than his body temperature.

"So hot! Are you sick and uncomfortable?"

He nodded softly.

"Come in quickly, I'll get you medicine, you can take two first."

Zhao Nanxiao immediately opened the door completely, asked him to come in and sit down, dragged out his box, found the spare cold medicine he bought later, and poured water. While busy, he said, "Xu Shu, don't think I'm annoyed, I've wanted to talk to you for a long time. Now in the middle of winter, how cold is here? How much is the degree below zero! You wear this little! If you really have no clothes, you don't want to buy it. Instead, you say, I'll buy it for you!"

She remembered the scene when he opened the door shirtless that morning.

"Also, you don't wear clothes when you sleep at night. If you don't freeze, who will freeze..."

She held the cup and poured warm water, and suddenly felt a hot back. She lowered her head and found that her arms were stretching out from behind and hugging her waist.

Zhao Nanxiao stopped and his hands that poured water stopped in the air.

Xu Shu just hugged her tightly from behind, motionless and without saying anything. The room was terriblely quiet. Zhao Nanxiao felt as if he heard the thumping sound of his heart beating behind him. There were hot flashes in his neck under his collar, all of which were the heat he exhaled from his head down, and the skin on the back of his neck was hot and itchy.

She suddenly woke up, put down the water cup with a bang, struggled a few times, and said, "Xu Shu, what are you doing? Let go."

He didn't seem to hear it.

She reached out and beat him up, and then she realized that she had never noticed that his arm was so strong before. Her strength could not shake him at all.

She quickly panicked and did not dare to look back. Her back, which was burned as if it had caught fire, and a layer of hot sweat burst out.

"Xu Shu, are you drunk? Don't do anything wrong. Listen to me, can you let go first? Say something well..."

She begged him almost humbly.

"Zhao Nanxiao, I like you. I like you a long time ago. I like you very much. Can you like me as much as you like Ye Zhizhou and be my girlfriend?"
Chapter completed!