Chapter 30: Thinking and Fear
Seeing Zhang Xiaolan go back, An Yinong turns around and goes to chase Yang Wan, but he doesn't follow Yang Wan's way to the newspaper because he knows that he can't find it.
When she arrived at the place where she had parted with Yang Wan just now, An Yinong knew that she must be nearby. An Yinong looked around and started looking for it.
After running a few laps, An Yinong couldn't find Yang Wan. Just when An Yinong had no idea how to return to this place again, she stood here when she saw Yang Wan.
An Yinong looked at Yang Wan, and Yang Wan also looked at An Yinong, and the two looked at each other.
An Yinong asked first: "What did you do just now?"
Yang Wan said, "What are you doing?"
"Did you meet with the people in the organization?" An Yinong asked. Yang Wan suddenly left just now, and there was only one explanation, otherwise there would be no way to explain why Yang Wan suddenly said that.
Yang Wan also said: "Since you know, you shouldn't follow me. Don't you know that it's wrong for you to do this?"
This is wrong, but An Yinong has his own ideas because he finds it very strange and things feel very strange.
"The last time you told me that you and the people in the organization concealed my identity, I believe you. But why did they find this place? Since you concealed my identity, you can't tell them where I live." An Yinong said.
If Yang Wan really concealed her identity, she shouldn't tell the people in the organization where she lives. In this way, the people in the organization will know who they are.
Moreover, this time the people from the organization came to find Yang Wan, not only saw An Yinong, but also saw Zhang Xiaolan. Yang Wan should not make such a mistake.
So there is only one possibility, that is, Yang Wan did not hide his identity from the organization. This is nothing, but it is normal.
But what is abnormal is that since that is the case, why did she tell herself that she had concealed her identity from the organization?
I believe what she said is true, so there is another explanation, that is, the person she met today is not from the organization, so who is this person?
It was with these curiosities that An Yinong asked Zhang Xiaolan to go back alone, and he came out to find Yang Wan.
When Yang Wan heard An Yinong's question, her face looked a little unnatural, but she immediately covered it up.
Yang Wan came to An Yinong and said, "To be honest, I don't know why the people in the organization suddenly found me. They may have found my whereabouts from the newspaper where I am. But don't worry, although they saw us together, they are not sure that the people in the building are."
An Yinong didn't know whether she wanted to believe Yang Wan now, because Yang Wan's words made sense, but she always felt that it was a bit far-fetched.
But now An Yinong is also thinking about it. Is it good for him to have a falling out with Yang Wan now? An Yinong doesn't think he is no longer the rookie at the beginning. He now thinks about the problem more comprehensively.
So An Yinong did not plan to make trouble with Yang Wan, but said: "The people in the organization are not fools. Today, I will definitely investigate me when I see us together. If you make them think you are with a traitor, it is better to tell them my identity."
"I will consider it." Yang Wan said.
"I want to meet with the people in the organization." An Yinong said suddenly.
Yang Wan smiled and said, "You should understand. I can't disclose their identities casually, and I don't have the right to tell you."
"Okay, let's go back, Zhang Xiaolan is still waiting at home." An Yinong stopped asking and stopped talking, which made Yang Wan breathe a sigh of relief.
But An Yinong had another idea in his heart. He felt that Yang Wan had something hidden from him, and they all had something hidden from each other, but this was different from those.
Those were understandable by An Yinong, but now Yang Wan hid something from her, which made An Yinong feel abnormal.
He didn't know where the problem was, but he knew that Yang Wan must have a problem, and she had a secret in her heart.
But now An Yinong doesn’t want to make trouble or argue with Yang Wan, because Yang Wan is right.
What she said makes sense, but even if it makes sense, An Yinong still couldn't let go. Now he didn't express his feelings, so he believed Yang Wan without saying that he believed him.
Yang Wan felt relieved when she saw An Yinong stop asking. She was really worried that An Yinong would not forgive tonight.
When the two of them came back, Zhang Xiaolan had not slept yet because they were a little worried about them. She was also curious to see that they were back so soon.
Yang Wan naturally explained that he had left the newspaper affairs to others and he would come back first.
Everyone went back to rest, but An Yinong did not go to bed. After entering the room, he sat in front of the table.
Take out the pen and write and draw on the paper.
Zhang Qinian?
Yang Wan?
The two names made An Yinong fall into deep thought. Zhang Qinian committed suicide in order to clear his suspicion of being a Japanese and protect Zhang Xiaolan and himself.
Since Zhang Qinian committed suicide, it means he was prepared and he prepared a lot of things in advance.
Should this include telling people in their hometown that they may not be able to contact him and ask him to directly look for him?
An Yinong didn't think so before because he didn't know that Zhang Qinian committed suicide. He thought Zhang Qinian was killed by the enemy. So he died suddenly, and he couldn't handle these things and could not tell the people in his hometown about the situation here.
But when An Yinong knew about these things from Xu Zhiming, he didn't think anything was wrong, but now he felt that it was wrong because Yang Wan's appearance was wrong.
At that time, An Yinong didn't know that Zhang Qinian committed suicide, so he wanted to help Zhang Qinian get in touch with the people from his hometown. He thought of various ways and finally successfully got in touch with Yang Wan in the cemetery.
In An Yinong's opinion at that time, there was no problem. It was normal. He successfully joined Zhang Qinian.
But at this moment, you look back and think about it. At this time, you have to add a known condition, that is, Zhang Qinian was not killed suddenly, but committed suicide.
Zhang Qinian, who committed suicide, could not not tell the people in his hometown that the situation here was impossible for him to commit suicide silently even though he knew that the people in his hometown were coming. This did not conform to the style of an underground worker who was already determined to die.
He is going to die, and he cannot leave the danger to others, he will definitely notify the organization.
An Yinong didn't think so before because he didn't know that Zhang Qinian committed suicide. Now that he knows, of course he thinks there is something wrong.
Zhang Qinian obviously committed suicide, but did not tell her how to connect to people in her hometown. Then there is only one possibility that Zhang Qinian did not intend to let herself get involved with people in her hometown.
Zhang Qinian's idea should be very simple. He wants to get himself out of this circle and live well with his daughter.
So before Zhang Qinian died, he probably just notified the organization not to come, but did not say that he still had his own existence.
Then if An Yinong's assumptions are all reasonable, the organization's people knew that Zhang Qinian was dead, and no one came to join in.
So who can tell An Yinong who Yang Wan is?
Cold sweat suddenly flowed down An Yinong's body, and the sweat fell on the paper. An Yinong felt scared.
I actually lived with a woman who has no identity for so long and even brought Zhang Xiaolan here.
An Yinong forced herself to calm down. Yang Wan's identity is now a mystery, and no one knows who she is.
But what An Yinong is sure of is that Zhang Qinian has never told her that she existed. If Zhang Qinian wanted to associate with Yang Wan, he would tell herself before he died.
Since he didn't tell himself, he just didn't want to see Yang Wan's appearance now and how he felt strange.
At that time, An Yinong thought he had found the person from his hometown and was a little happy, but now it seems that he is too naive.
In fact, after killing Xu Zhiming, I should have been alert, but I didn't react.
If it weren't for what happened today, An Yinong felt that she might not be able to react. She would also be grateful to the unknown person who suddenly appeared today, which made Yang Wan reveal her flaws.
Although I was already sure that Yang Wan might not be the person she was looking for, An Yinong did not intend to say it out, nor did she plan to verify it, because it would not matter if she died if she took the wrong step, and Zhang Xiaolan was in danger.
But the only thing that made An Yinong glad was that Yang Wan was not sent by the Japanese because she asked for information from the Sakura Club, and then the Japanese died in the Sakura Club.
At least one thing can be proved, that is, Yang Wan is not Japanese, and the rest of An Yinong is not sure about it now.
An Yinong burned all the things on the paper and sat in front of the table in a daze. Why is this happening?
Why did things turn out like this? Is it because I was too careless?
An Yinong felt that it was not, but that many things were beyond his expectations. At that time, Zhang Qinian died suddenly, and he suspected that he was killed.
So I was very anxious to find someone from my hometown in Yan'an, and then that person appeared, which was Yang Wan.
Just like a drowning person, he caught a straw, do you think An Yinong can be unhappy?
But when you find that the straw you caught may be the tail of a crocodile in the water, how will you feel?
He patted his face with both hands, An Yi let out a deep breath, and he told himself silently in his heart.
Now is the real time to test yourself. I can't let Yang Wan see that his thoughts must be the same as usual.
An Yinong knew that this was difficult, but this was the most training person. He had to do it, and he had to do it perfectly and flawlessly, so that Yang Wan could not see the slightest difference.
"You can do it." An Yinong said to herself in the mirror in the dark, unable to see her face clearly, and it was very blurry.
But what he wants is this feeling. He doesn't know what he is originally. What he wants to do is become what he wants, just like a chameleon.
He should regard what happened today as never before. Yang Wan is the one who came from his hometown in Yan'an, and there is no second possibility.
"Sleep, sleep, sleep..." An Yinong said hypnotically, lying silently on the bed, slowly adjusting his mentality, and he knew that he could do it.
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Chapter completed!