Don't remember?

Xu Anning was stunned.

Why can’t you remember your Chinese name? Is it a subjective factor or an official factor? The three words “not remember” contain too many meanings!

As if he saw the question in Xu Anning's heart, the Marquis spoke lightly and continued: "Actually, this is the case. I had lost my memory about twenty years ago..."

Amnesia?

Xu Anning felt even more astonishment.

"What's wrong?"

"I can't even remember what happened. I forgot everything, including where I came from, who I am, what my past looked like... I don't remember everything. I only remember some things that are engraved in my bones and blood and have developed habits, such as speaking Chinese."

The Marquis narrated lightly, his tone was very calm.

Amnesia is obviously a very terrible thing, especially if you forget your past and don’t even know who you are.

Xu Anning has also experienced amnesia, and she can feel that feeling. Her heart is always empty, as if she is wrapped in a thick layer of cloth, unable to see clearly or can't see through. She will feel inexplicably panic, afraid, and even have a severe suffocation. Especially at night, the feeling will be stronger. Regular nightmares, even need to be maintained by drugs in the early stage.

The wife's situation is even more serious than hers. I don't know how desperate the wife will feel when she first realizes her memory loss!

But now, she said this matter so calmly, and she must be very strong inside!

Because of empathy, Xu Anning felt a little distressed to the Marquis.

She frowned slightly and opened her red lips: "That must be very painful. Sorry, mention your sad things..."

"No, this experience is not a sad thing for me. Although it is indeed painful, without it, I would not have met a Marquis."

The Marquis smiled slightly, his tone as gentle water flowing.

"Are you a marquis you met after you have lost your memory?"

Xu Anning asked along the topic.

"Yes. To be precise, it was the Marquis who picked me up."

Speaking of this, the Marquis covered his lips and teeth with his slender fingers, and chuckled shyly like a little girl.

"Pick it up?"

Xu Anning didn't react for a moment, thinking that the Marquis lived in F Country for too long and was not very accurate in some Chinese words. Unexpectedly, the Marquis nodded seriously.

"Yes, pick it up."

The Marquis picked up the teacup again, drank a sip of black tea, and continued, "I lost my memory because of an accident. I don't remember many things. I only remember that the Marquis saved me. Those days were very bad, with a lot of nightmare, I don't know where I was, it was very painful and scared. Fortunately, he has always been with me, helped me find a doctor, and asked a psychological expert to help me treat my illness..."

Recalling those difficult years, it seems that with the company of the Marquis, there is not much pain on the Marquis' face.

"Later, my body gradually healed, and although the lost memories were still not retrieved, my mental state had improved a lot, and gradually I realized that I could not live without him. And he felt the same way for me..."

The Marquis simply described the past, with a tiny light shining in his eyes, and a gentleness like water.

It turns out that there is such a touching love story between the Marquis and the Marquis. Although there are only a few words, it can be seen that the great significance of the Marquis to the Marquis. Those who have lost all their memories of the past can live a very happy life now, which shows how much effort the Marquis has spent.

Such feelings are really enviable.

"So that's the case..." Xu Anning said softly, "Then is it related to your previous experience when you came to China this time?"

The Marquises smiled and shook her head.

"No, this time I came to China, I just came to relax."

Xu Anning was a little surprised.

When she realized that she had lost her memory, she also struggled and suffered. Although she knew that the memory was painful, she still had the idea of ​​trying to find the truth. People like herself who did not have completely amnesia tried to find the truth. Are people like the Marquis who had completely amnesia not curious about their past?

Have you never tried to find it for so many years?

The Marquis looked at Xu Anning with gentle eyes, as if she had guessed what she was thinking.

"Actually, this is not the first time we have come to China. Over the years, in my very vague memory, I remember that I have family. It was a feeling, a feeling that there was no way to prove it. With this feeling, I have never given up looking for my own life experience and family. I was in poor health before, and the Marquis came to China more often on my behalf, all for this. But I have never gained anything..."

The Marquis said, a clear trace of sadness flashing across his eyes.

"You know, my identity restrictions make me unable to rely on the power of the media, so I can only find it bit by bit by bit. But my memory is really too blurry, and China is so big..."

As the marquis of F State, there are indeed some restrictions on their identity, which is also impossible to achieve both.

Xu Anning could feel the other person's sorrow, and he felt a little sad.

The Marquise seemed not to want her sad emotions to infect the first visitor, so she adjusted her condition and smiled softly again.

"I won't talk about this anymore. Let's talk about it. Why do you want to know my Chinese name?"

"Actually, that's what it is..."

Xu Anning took a deep breath, not knowing how to continue.

Before she came to see the Marquis, she guessed many reasons and possibilities, but she didn't think of the amnesia. She originally thought that if she asked for a name, everything would be simple, but she didn't expect to ask about the experience of amnesia. When she recalled the painful feeling when she had just recovered her memory, she couldn't bear to stimulate it too directly.

But she could see the desire for memory loss between the Marquis’s words, and perhaps her inquiry was a good thing.

Sometimes the lost memories cannot be retrieved, just because there is no accurate stimulation. For example, if Bai Qianqian hadn't spoken on the phone, she might not have recovered her memory until now.

Thinking of this, Xu Anning clenched his fists secretly and gathered up courage.

"I wonder if you know the Yan family in Huaxia?"

The Marquis did not know why Xu Anning did not answer her question directly, but instead said anything seemed completely irrelevant.

She lowered her eyes, thought hard for a while, then raised her eyes and looked at Xu Anning.
Chapter completed!