I loved him regardless of my own safety, and fell in love with you in a daze by Jane

I thought I showed up just as you and she were about to separate.

I thought you no longer had any expectations for her and would not allow her to hurt you again.

…

I thought my tenderness could give you the whole universe

I thought I could do my best to fill your emotional gap

Stay with you wholeheartedly and make up for all her mistakes

Maybe I was too naive and thought a miracle would happen

…

When I heard this song, it was the spring of the second year after I divorced Yingzi. He called me to tell me that they had met and decided to start over.

I bless their love calmly, cut off the phone calmly, and returned to the conference room to continue the meeting.

One of the senior executives attending the meeting was a Chinese woman, and her cell phone ringtone rang so abruptly in the quiet conference room, lingering in everyone's ears.

It turns out that you have already thought about who you want to stay by.

I thought I was strong enough, but I lost so desperately

Give me less hope, hope is not extravagant hope

…

When the ringing sounded, everyone in the conference room looked at me in astonishment.

In Hang Hang's worried eyes, I saw a face filled with tears.

But I didn't notice it at all.

…

I didn't cry when my parents didn't agree with her marrying him. The seven years of mutual respect as a couple didn't make me cry. Even when I took the initiative to mention divorce two years ago, I only cried once.

, since then there have been no more tears.

It has been two years since the divorce, why am I still crying!

He finally found the happiness he wanted, I should bless him, right?

It's just that he is happy. What should I do if I support these two big families alone?

There was a party that night. I could go or not, but I went anyway. Of course, I would inevitably be teased and drunk by those men.

I am already the most powerful, richest and youngest woman in France. Naturally, some men are afraid of me, and some want to get close to me with ill intentions.

Before nine o'clock, I was completely drunk. I usually have enough alcohol capacity, but today I don't know what happened and I got drunk.

When I came out of the bathroom, I fell into someone's arms. I looked up and saw a familiar face, which seemed to be my ex-husband, but the voice in my ear was not.

The voice was like Hang Hang's, "You are drunk, I will take you back."

It seemed that he was not the one driving the car, because I kept leaning on his arms. I couldn't even stand still, so I was half-carried into the car by him.

I feel extremely dizzy, and I feel aggrieved and depressed for no reason. I am not a woman who cannot afford to lose, nor am I a woman who cannot let go. It’s just... just looking at his happiness, without my own share, I still feel uncomfortable.

Very powerful.

I spent seven years not only failing to warm his heart, but actually cooling my own. I transformed myself from a princess loved by my parents to a strong woman who is feared by everyone. But who knew that I would only be a strong woman after all?

.

I was brave enough to let him go, and brave enough to support such a big business on my own. Who would have known that I would be tired, feel miserable, and want someone to rely on.

Sometimes I would be hypocritical and wonder why the person I love can't love me and give me a safe haven and just let me be a good wife and mother instead of playing intrigues with these men in the mall.

That night I leaned in his arms and cried uncontrollably, as if I wanted to cry out to him all the grievances and sorrows I had experienced in the past ten years.

…

When I woke up the next day, I was not at my own home, but at Hang Hang's home.

My eyes hurt, and my clothes were still the same as yesterday, but they were already dirty and messy, and there was no trace of tidiness at all.

Hang Hang was holding a glass of freshly squeezed juice. The moment I saw him, everything that happened last night flashed through my mind; I felt ashamed, embarrassed and at a loss.

I wanted to run away in a panic, but when I walked to the door, he held my wrist.

"Let go!" I turned my back to him and didn't even dare to look back. It was so embarrassing. I mistakenly thought he was a widower and said something I shouldn't have said.

It is true that you talk too much after drinking, and you will make mistakes if you talk too much.

He held my hand tightly and said nothing.

"No matter what I said last night, please forget it!" I said with difficulty. Those past scenes were like dust rolling violently under the sun. Scenes of them came to my mind, making me heartbroken.

"If you want to cry, my chest will always be there for you to lean on. If you want to say, my ears will always listen to you. If you don't want me to remember, I will forget."

His voice came from behind in a low voice, and his breath was particularly close, "I just hope you don't hold on to everything. Sometimes women should behave like women. Don't live like a man. It's too tiring.

"

I looked back at him and caught a vague fluctuation in his eyes. What was it?

Feeling distressed or pitiful?

Throwing away his hand, he said in a trembling and stern voice: "What qualifications do you have to say these words to me? And why do you look at me with sympathy? Why did I, Jane Langstro, need others to sympathize with and give alms! Even Jane

So what if Yao is a test-tube baby? After all, he is the child of me and Yingzi, so what if Yingzi doesn’t love me? He and I have been married for seven years, and I was his wife... I had him for seven years,

I……"

I couldn't speak anymore and choked up inexplicably.

After seven years of marriage, there was no love or sex. I had never experienced love between a man and a woman, but I was already a mother.

In order to overwhelmingly overthrow Madam Hong, Yingzi and I must have a child, a child with my and his blood flowing through his body; but he couldn't do it, and he didn't react at all when facing me.

To be precise, he couldn't do it with any woman other than her.

We tried many methods, including blindfolding, drinking some wine, etc., but nothing worked. It was impossible for him to rely on drugs, which would be a humiliation for him and even more humiliation for me.

In the end, there was nothing he could do, so he said forget it, it would be fine without children, but he would have to wait two more years.

But I am unwilling to wait and unwilling to give up.

I am his wife, and I want to have children for him. I want to be a woman and a mother. In desperation, I came up with the idea of ​​in vitro fertilization!

At first he disagreed. He said: This is too unfair to you! It’s too unfair to you!

I am so stubborn. I am not afraid of grievances or suffering. I am just afraid that from the beginning to the end of this marriage, I will have nothing.

Perhaps from the moment I started trading for a ten-year marriage, I knew that I was destined to not get this man's heart in this life and couldn't keep him, so at least he would leave something about him for me.

In the end, he compromised and agreed to me.

I asked my mother to try to invite Mrs. Hong to go abroad for a while and give Yingzi and I time to do this.

When Mrs. Hong came back, she found out that I was pregnant.

From Ying Zi's perspective, Jian Yao's appearance might just be to bring down Madam Hong; to me, this is the best and most precious gift he gave me.

Without Jian Yao, how could I let him go so easily!

It's just a marriage in name only for seven years, but it is a disease in my heart after all. If people know that the count has never touched me and gave birth to Jian Yao, but I am still a woman who has never experienced love, I will be the whole country, and even the whole country.

The laughingstock of the world.

His eyes deepened, and he reached out and grabbed my shoulders with great force. I broke away and refused to look. I really didn't want to be embarrassed in front of him, but last night and now, I made a huge joke in his eyes.

"How could I sympathize with you?" His voice was inexplicably hard, and there were many things in his eyes that I couldn't understand. "How could I sympathize with you..."

Before he finished speaking, he hugged me tightly.

My eyes were blurry with tears, and the pain in my heart gradually faded with the passage of time. On the contrary, as time passed, the wound became bigger and bigger, and it became more and more empty. It tortured me day and night. Only when I saw Jian Yao could I realize it.

That precious happiness.

He said nothing. I was held tightly by him, and in the quiet space there was only shallow breathing and the sound of his wildly beating heart...

In the sound of his fierce heartbeat, I seemed to realize something, but I couldn't believe it.

Because I have never thought about it and I dare not think about it.

——He has feelings for me.

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After that day, we tacitly agreed that nothing had happened, and we continued to work and live as usual. However, the occasional unintentional eye contact made me panic and uneasy. I was afraid that he would say something to me at any time that I would find difficult to respond to.

It was because I felt that something was wrong and I was acting on my own.

I have known him for many years. The British widow regards him as a brother, and I regard him as an elder brother.

He is a good helper at work. Because he stayed in Paris to help, many things were solved smoothly. In life, he is also a good friend and is very good to me and Jian Yao.

I never thought about what would happen with him. In my heart, except Yingwu and Jian Yao, I could no longer let go of anyone or anything. I was afraid of changing the status quo and that something should not happen, which made our relationship change.
To be continued...