How could I fail like this?

In terms of talent, being able to get into the 985 exam is obviously not a mediocre person. Although it is a literary and historical category, a literary and historical category is not a casual cat or dog.

What's more, after graduation, I took the national examination. Once again, I crossed the single-plank bridge and passed the exam to my favorite Academy of Social Sciences. I was assigned to the Literature and History Research Office as I wished.

It can be said that until this time, I was smooth sailing, but from then on, I had no inch to make progress in my career. I was a clerk when I came in, and I was still a clerk when I left.

Is it because of the sour and rotten smell of traditional literati?

Xiao Ye thinks there is a reason for this.

I never flatter my leader and never give gifts to my leader during festivals. However, in a clean yamen like the Academy of Social Sciences, such people are not rare.

Some outsiders say that the Academy of Social Sciences has a poor courtyard, and it is not as poor as others.

By the way, it’s a chanting and reading calligraphy!

It must be a chanting and reading calligraphy!

Xiao Ye recalled the past and since he sorted out the calligraphy of "Arizona" and "Arizona" and "Arizona" have become sarcastic and sarcastic all day long. His wife's dissatisfaction with him mainly comes from the calligraphy of "Arizona" and "Arizona"!

It was the chanting and reading calligraphy that hurt me!

Instinctively, Xiao Ye wanted to completely forget the calligraphy of chanting, but there was another voice in his subconscious mind that chanting, reading calligraphy is your foundation, and if you lose him, you will lose everything.

Xiao Ye hesitated.

It can be said that he can make a great contribution to reading calligraphy today, but others do not understand the benefits of reading calligraphy, but he can feel that it can calm his heart and find real interests in the articles of the wise and ancient philosophers.

Reading the calligraphy brought him fun. The greatest happiness every day was that after dinner, he read a book for an hour. He felt that he had the righteous spirit of Confucianism. Although he was invisible and intangible, he even more rejected the omnipresent unspoken rules.

But people are social creatures after all. No matter how noble the mind is, they cannot be separated from the food, rice, oil and salt. Xiao Ye is a little shaken. In life, should we indulge in material enjoyment, be happy for the rest of our lives, have no regrets when we die, or stick to our hearts, rather be poor than to act with our hearts?

For a moment, Xiao Ye struggled quite a bit.

By the ice lake!

Princess Taiping and Chunlan's four girls were worried about Xiao Ye, and they were still standing. Lingyuan was suffering. Yin Pingcao and Yin Jicao kept cursing Xiao Ye for failure to overcome the tribulation and did not leave.

"not good!"

Xia He's face suddenly changed.

"What's wrong?"

Princess Taiping asked hurriedly.

Xia He said: "Xiao Lang's breath is uncertain, and it seems that he has encountered something difficult to make a decision. If you make a mistake, you may be doomed!"

"Why didn't I feel it?"

Princess Taiping frowned.

"this……"

The summer lotus is speechless.

She once used the flower demon body, that is, to help Xiao Ye do that more than once. She could absorb some of Xiao Ye's essence every time and was most sensitive to Xiao Ye's breath changes. Even through the lake full of resentment, she could sense it.

But this is a little secret between her and Xiao Ye, and it is not worth telling Princess Taiping.

Still Chunlan smoothed out the situation and said, "Xia He is an elf with water attributes. Maybe she can sense Xiao Lang's changes. Princess, you should have confidence in Xiao Lang!"

Princess Taiping thought about it, this guy could enjoy such a dangerous place in Bing Lake. How could a mere Nine-turn delusional disaster stump him?

...

“Hahahaha~~”

Xiao Ye suddenly burst into laughter. Even if he was poor all his life, so what if his wife and children were separated? I am me. I cannot lose my true heart just because I cater to others.

Every philosopher is lonely!

"The angry hair rushes to the railing, and the rain stops..."

Xiao Ye couldn't help but sang Manjianghong loudly with his sings and reading calligraphy!

Passers-by looked at him one after another, and some people called him crazy.

Indeed, a middle-aged man in a rider uniform sat alone by the lake and sang Jianghong in a strange tone. Isn't this a psychopath or something?

Not far away, behind a rockery, my wife and son poked their heads out, their faces full of disappointment.

"Hey, your dad is out of rescue!"

The wife sighed.

"How did Dad become like this?"

The son didn't understand.

The wife shook her head and reflected in her heart, how did her ex-husband fall from a top student in 985 to this point today?

In fact, from the heart, the couple's relationship for more than ten years was free in love back then, and his wife still had feelings for Xiao Ye, thinking that if Xiao Ye could change better after divorce, she could consider remarriage.

And at this moment... I completely lost my mind.

Xiao Ye has completely turned a deaf ear to the outside world and immersed in his inner world. In fact, at this point, ordinary monks have successfully broken their delusions.

A normal person can leave peacefully with just one thought, that is, he will return to the true mind to truly recognize his own heart, know his true thoughts, what he needs, what regrets he has, and what spirituality will become perfect.

But Xiao Ye’s disaster is to transform the true mind into the realm of falsehood. Apart from continuing to break the falsehood, there is no second way to go.

According to Zi Gu, only Huangdi successfully transformed the realm of true heart and falsehood, and everyone else failed. Why is this happening?

The vast majority of monks will be happy in their hearts and withdraw directly at the moment when they break through the false realm. Everyone will only experience the false realm once in their life. Missing is missing is missing, and regret is useless.

There are also a few monks who subjectively pursue the pursuit of transforming the true mind and the false realm, which requires the combination of the false realm with the mind, the mind, and the spirit, which is extremely test of the will and the soul. If the mind is slightly weak, or if there is any doubt about oneself, it is impossible to break the false and succeed.

This is not the most difficult thing. The history of the Jiuzhou cultivation world is no longer verified. Over the years, Tianjiao has emerged twice as much as possible, with strong will and powerful souls. Even if it meets once in a hundred years, the total number of people will not be small.

The key is that the false realm is a world built by a monk based on his own obsession. It is almost a fact and will not realize that he is in a false realm.

Like an ordinary person, would you think all day long about breaking the world, breaking away from the constraints of the world, and going to see the scenery outside the world?

Almost never.

Reflected in breaking delusion, there is no motivation to break delusion. It is natural to think that living in this world is natural.

If you don’t do it, how can you break it?

This seems simple, but the truth is the simplest step, which has stuck countless geniuses in the long river of history.

Except for Huangdi, all the monks who seek to transform the true mind and integrate the false realm will eventually be lost in the false realm, lose themselves, their consciousness will be assimilated by the false realm, and their physical body will gradually wither!

Xiao Ye was still sitting on the bench, singing a song by Jianghong, strengthening his beliefs and calming down his wavering mood, but the reality of poverty still has to face.

It turns out that nothing can be done by myself, and even the most ordinary takeaway cannot be delivered. So, if time can go back to the time when I first graduated from university, I will not take the national exam and find a job that suits me in society. Will everything change?

Inexplicably, Xiao Ye had an impulse in his heart, and the impulse to go back to the past became stronger and more intense and difficult to suppress.

Xiao Ye slowly stood up, pointed his hand, and shouted, "I want to go back to the past!"

A burst of laughter came around. This was really a lunatic. People kept taking photos, posting on WeChat Moments, and kind-hearted people called the police.

Behind the rockery, the wife and son looked at each other.

Xiao Ye was unmoved and read the calligraphy with a sigh and said, "I want to go back and go!"

"No!"

Suddenly someone heard a terrified scream!

The space is broken!

Xiao Ye suddenly felt dizzy and was shocked and happy when he was awake.

What I'm happy about is that I'm indeed back in the past!

But I was shocked that I did not return to the university at the moment, but stood outside the Civil Affairs Bureau, dragging a box, and watching my ex-wife take Didi and leave.

'how so?'

Xiao Ye wondered why he could go back to the past, why not to start over, but to return to the node where he got his divorce certificate?

I felt a little clear in my heart, but it was very vague and I couldn't tell the reason.

‘Forget it, forgot it. Since God doesn’t give me a chance to do it again, I’ll try to live a personal life.’

Xiao Ye shook his head.

Based on the previous experience, Xiao Ye confirmed that he was not suitable for physical work, and literati should be engaged in the job of literati.

‘What the hell can you do?’

Eh?

Xiao Ye suddenly had an idea. He remembered a friend who was a middle school history teacher. In the past two years, he had been talking about history on the forum and was full of rumors.

After studying the imperial examination for half of my life, I was the top in the country when it comes to my attainments in the imperial examination for the Ming and Qing dynasties. I can completely sort it out and try my best to go to the forum through that history teacher.

Thinking of this, Xiao Ye went to rent a house first, and was still in the basement. He wrote articles at home every day, using Fan Jin's passing to the topic, starting from the imperial examination lectures during the Hongwu period of the Ming Dynasty to the last top scholar in the Qing Dynasty.
Chapter completed!