Volume 22: Small Notes (16)
Feng Rong and Lin Yingkong were discussing the matter on the bed, but they didn't know if it was because the bed was too warm and Lin Yingkong's voice was too stable, so Feng Rong unknowingly fell asleep.
The little minister shrank in the nest made of furry blankets, so delicate and cute that it was like a simulated doll. Lin Yingkong felt so frustrated.
He carefully placed Fengrong next to the pillow and separated a trigger barrier so that he would not accidentally press Fengrong when he turned over in the middle of the night.
After turning off the headlights, there was only a very small night light left in the room. The light outside the room was also reflected by the white snow. It penetrated through the white curtains. Lin Yingkong lay down on his side, staring at Feng Rong in his sleep, his eyes a little confused.
Sometimes Lin Yingkong finds it strange. Why does he like Feng Rong so much?
This kind of love is not only forever, but also becomes deeper and deeper, making Lin Yingkong himself confused where the love begins and where the love begins.
If love at first sight is because of appearance and temperament, falling in love at second sight is because of communication and communication, and seeing three times determines life because of each other's running-in and determination, then what is the reason why the relationship not only fades but also deepens as time goes by?
Feng Rong, who was asleep, was always very well-behaved. Even if he didn't get smaller, he would lie in the same position all night and hardly move.
Before they fell in love, Feng Rong closed his eyes and made people feel that he was sharp all over his body, but after getting used to sleeping with Lin Yingkong, he might feel safe in his heart. His brows gradually relaxed, and even looked a little quiet. Just looking at Feng Rong's sleeping face was enough to make Lin Yingkong look at him all day.
Today's appearance of Fukui made Lin Yingkong start to think about some questions, such as how he and Feng Rong got to this point today, such as Feng Rong, who was once hurt by the word "love", had unconditional trust in him.
When he met Fu Kui, Feng Rong was only twenty-four years old. He had just taken the position of Minister of the Ling Law Enforcement Department. He carried this banner on his shoulders during the most difficult period of the Ling Security Bureau and took on the responsibility of protecting the order of the supernatural academic community. He had a high position, a heavy burden and a mountain of burdens. He was also troubled by glory.
Maybe it was because he had to convince others when sitting in this seat. Maybe he had already had a fight with Baili Mengyan at that time and had nothing to lose. At that time, Feng Rong was so cold and tough that most people felt fear first and then respect him, including the members of the field team of the General Office.
He almost used his thunderous momentum to wipe out the chaotic situation within the Spirit Security Bureau due to its just expansion, and also solved most external forces that were dissatisfied with the rise of the Spirit Security Bureau. Feng Rong had already gained fame after the war, and pushed his reputation to the pinnacle because of this series of actions. The so-called male god in the supernatural world is definitely not easily recognized by people with just a face and a hero of war.
Perhaps it was because Feng Rong was too dazzling at that time, and Lin Yingkong's love and admiration for him were mixed.
The busier Feng Rong was, the more time Lin Yingkong stayed by his side. Sometimes he didn't separate for almost twenty-four hours, but Lin Yingkong still felt that he was very far away from him, and between a few feet, it was like a thousand miles apart.
At that time, Lin Yingkong thought Feng Rong was arrogant. Later, he thought about it and he was just lonely. Unfortunately, no one could understand it, whether it was Lin Yingkong or his blood brother Baili Mengyan.
When Fukui met them, the relationship between Feng Rong and Lin Yingkong was basically maintained at the level of superiors and subordinates. He had a tacit understanding on the battlefield and work, but there was basically no communication in private.
Lin Yingkong took care of his daily life. He thanked him politely and bought gifts for Lin Yingkong as a thank-you gift. His etiquette and intention were sincere, but he couldn't see and didn't have the heart to see the sincere feelings behind Lin Yingkong doing these things.
That year, Fu Kui failed to confess and said to Lin Yingkong in a straightforward and confused manner: "What do you like to be a minister? He obviously doesn't need your feelings."
It is undeniable that no matter how calm Lin Yingkong is on the surface, he is still a little bit of ache by this sentence.
Unrequited love is a beautiful and painful thing. If your unrequited love partner never gives you any chance, what will you feel?
If the later waiting allowed Lin Yingkong to learn how to entertain himself in a single love and to deposit his temporary passion into a flowing deep affection, then he was in the most boiling and unable to express his feelings. He was calm on the surface, but a little anxious on the inside. Fukui's words even tear open the deepest hidden worries in Lin Yingkong's heart.
——Is it impossible for his feelings to be responded to in this life?
Lin Yingkong asked himself like this.
Fu Kui respected Feng Rong's immediate boss, but also said to Lin Yingkong very bluntly: "Assistant Lin, I can understand that most people who fall in love with the minister have the capital to make people crazy, but when you are with him every day, you don't realize... Doesn't he actually need you?"
Lin Yingkong was almost broken by her at that time, but he still shook his head at Fukui.
Even if the relationship between him and Feng Rong has no result, it is not a reason why Lin Yingkong reluctantly accepts Fukui. Doing so will not only be sorry for Fukui, but also for his own sincerity.
Then Lin Yingkong went back to pack his and Feng Rong's luggage with a wounded heart. The mission was over, and he just wanted to return to the headquarters of K City.
Unexpectedly, it was already late at this time, and Feng Rong, who had been busy for a day, was still waiting for him to come back in the room.
Lin Yingkong looked at Feng Rong who was sitting on the sofa reading a book and felt that he had been cured in an instant. He even felt that even if the minister scolded him directly, he could listen to it as love words.
Maybe Lin Yingkong's presence was too obvious when he stood there. Feng Rong raised his head, looked at him, and asked in a faint tone: "I'm back so late? Is there still work?"
Maybe she was so excited by Fukui that Lin Yingkong was rarely aggrieved and fragile at that moment. She just looked at Feng Rong with a hurried look, moved her lips, and couldn't even say a word. She almost got choked up by something in her throat, and her breathing was difficult.
Feng Rong noticed something wrong with Lin Yingkong, and was stunned immediately, put down the book, frowned and said, "Speak."
In fact, Feng Rong's tone was a little cold, but Lin Yingkong still heard the concern in his words. His nose was sore and he couldn't help blurting out and asked, "Minister, what do you think of me?"
"Hmm?" Feng Rong probably didn't understand what Lin Yingkong wanted to ask, but he still turned his head and thought about it carefully, saying, "He is very serious in his work and has a good personality."
Lin Yingkong was slightly stunned and said boldly: "It sounds a bit official... How about the minister, how is me?"
Feng Rong's eyes were a little confused. Lin Yingkong almost thought that he would stop talking like he didn't want to pay attention to him. However, Feng Rong thought about it and actually replied: "For me - if it weren't for you, my work and life would be worse than now."
With the minister's temper at that time, such words were definitely unexpectedly emotional, and they made people feel that such words were unlikely to be spoken from him. Lin Yingkong was completely stunned when he heard them, doubting that something was wrong with his ears.
Feng Rong thought he didn't understand, so he explained: "I'm not a very talented person. I live a casual life, but you helped me a lot and handled everything I couldn't take care of. If I can take over the position of Minister of the Ling Law Enforcement Department so smoothly, your contribution will definitely be ranked first..."
He sat upright and looked straight at Lin Yingkong. The focus between his eyebrows made people unable to take his eyes off, "Have I not said - Lin Yingkong, thank you, I'm very happy to fight side by side with you."
Feng Rong's words were so plain, but so inspiring, and Lin Yingkong's eyes suddenly turned red, "I want to thank you too, thank you for giving me this opportunity..."
Give him this opportunity to get close to his life and work, let him spend time with the people he likes, and let him show his strengths in the fields he is good at!
It was at that moment that Lin Yingkong suddenly realized that Fukui was actually saying something wrong - his minister didn't need him, but they had different feelings for each other.
For Lin Yingkong, Feng Rong is the person he likes, and for Feng Rong, Lin Yingkong is his indispensable left and right arm. Lin Yingkong does not want to leave Fengrong, and Feng Rong also hopes to be able to share side by side with him. The unequal feelings sound a bit sad, but this is the greatest tenderness and trust that the outsider's ruthless Minister of the Ling Law Enforcement Department can give.
The sorrow and unwillingness in Lin Yingkong's heart suddenly disappeared.
He had long known that "like" the feeling is very random. The wrong time, wrong encounter, and wrong people will turn love into a one-sided one-sided show. Since he made a choice, there is nothing to regret.
Fu Kui met him for a while, and when Lin Yingkong explicitly refused, she could still say that she would not give up such words. So, as his trusted companion, what reason does Lin Yingkong feel that she is very sad?
If you add a limit on "like" to "the other party must respond to me", then such a relationship will hurt others and yourself. If you can't get it, you will be disappointed. If you don't get it, you will be disappointed. If you get it, you will have more requirements. The reason why hot feelings cool down is that people have more restrictions on their relationship, but the other party cannot respond...
Disappointment accumulates a lot, expectations fail repeatedly, and even the intense emotions will become an extinct volcano that will no longer erupt.
At least, before his feelings cooled down, Lin Yingkong would always like Feng Rong so much, not asking for responses, not causing trouble to the other party, and when the time comes, he will fight for it. If love becomes empty in the future, at least he will not regret that the efforts he made in front of the love of his life are not enough.
If you can try your best to love someone in your life, even if there is no result, it is still a precious memory. After all, so many people are searching for it, and they have never even touched the word "love".
Fortunately, before Lin Yingkong's feelings disappeared, Feng Rong caught his expectations, responded to his likes, and treated him with equal cherishment...
He said to him, I like how you smile, but it doesn't matter if you don't want to laugh, I can make you happy.
Chapter completed!