Volume 21: Naive Sin (Seventeen)
What is the biggest malice that a child can do?
Lin Yingkong felt that Feng Rong must be very understandable, but he remained silent during the discussion just now.
——His minister has long learned how to strip himself from that past, and can remain expressionless no matter how painful it is.
Lin Yingkong thought about how Feng Rong had been through the past twenty years, and he could feel a heartbreaking suffocation.
Feng Rong didn't speak, but he just leaned on Lin Yingkong's shoulder gently and handed over all the weight of his body to him.
Perhaps this is the greatest weakness and trust that Feng Rong can express.
Lin Yingkong kissed his hair, his heart sore and soft, "I love you."
Feng Rong smiled, "Well, I know."
Lin Yingkong stroked his back with a sense of comfort.
The two of them leaned together like this, without talking or moving.
After a while, Feng Rong said calmly: "Actually, you don't have to think so much. All the time you should have passed, and I'm living a good life now."
"It's still different, although I don't want to admit it..." Lin Yingkong murmured, "But hurt is hurt, and time can't heal all the wounds."
It may even create a huge black hole, sucking the whole person in, squeezing his bones and ashes, and not being able to resurrect.
...His minister almost fell into the black hole, and Lin Yingkong held his hand tightly and pulled him back desperately.
But Lin Yingkong is still worried that the black hole will restart again.
Feng Rong hugged him, "Don't worry, didn't Tao Youjing say that, I'm almost done."
Lin Yingkong looked at Feng Rong with a little sadness, "But he also said that your heart disease can only be relieved and will never be cured."
Mental cancer is more terrible than physical cancer.
Mr. Assistant is always optimistic and laughing. Feng Rong rarely sees him so sad, and he is a little panicked, "Yingkong?"
Lin Yingkong tried hard to lift the corner of his mouth, "It's okay, it's just... it's just a little unhappy."
Of course, he would not think that it was because Feng Rong's psychological endurance was too poor that he encountered so many difficulties and had irreversible mental illness. However, he still could not be kind to those who had hurt Feng Rong. Whether it was Luo Cheng, Feng Rong's mother, Baili family, or even those children who had bullied Feng Rong, whether it was indirect or direct, intentional or unintentional, Lin Yingkong was unwilling to forgive them.
——They personally caused Feng Rong's disaster for half of his life, almost killing him.
Lin Yingkong once saw this picture. On the one hand, glass with countless cracks was smashed, it represents the harm a person has to a person. A small band-aid patch was pasted in the middle, which represents the person's sorry, but a small band-aid patch can never make up for those cracks.
His minister was almost broken by these people. Lin Yingkong spent countless efforts to carefully repair him, and had seen his pain and despair. There were even deeper cracks that Lin Yingkong could not touch hidden on Feng Rong, and it has not been completely repaired yet.
So, why should those who have hurt Feng Rong be forgiven?
Lin Yingkong can be regarded as a kind person. His only time he was not kind was used on those who had hurt his beloved.
Feng Rong didn't know how to comfort Lin Yingkong, who was depressed, could only hold him and say, "It's okay, it's all over, and you've done a good job, really."
Without Lin Yingkong, he wouldn't know what the picture is about living alone.
Feng Rong never felt that he needed to blame anyone, but he didn't want Lin Yingkong to resent anything for him.
Lin Yingkong sniffed, "Minister, do you think you deserve it if you are not doing well?"
Feng Rong was slightly stunned because Lin Yingkong rarely discussed the past with him so bluntly.
Lin Yingkong looked down at Feng Rong, with a power of insight into everything in his eyes.
Feng Rong smiled helplessly, "I'm sorry."
Lin Yingkong said hoarsely: "You don't need to say this to me, you are sorry for yourself."
Because the flood caused by birth killed too many people, because his mother repeated his damn over and over again, because he intentionally or unintentionally hurt Baili Mengyan's lover, Feng Rong rejected Lin Yingkong's full love in the sea of consciousness and chose to escape.
——He felt that all this was his fault, so he chose to self-destruct.
If Lin Yingkong hadn't grabbed him, Feng Rong would never have chosen to muster up the courage to face all this suffering.
——He was afraid to fight against these disasters, and he felt that this was his due retribution. Instead of facing it in person, he would rather jump out of the abyss alone to atone for sins.
Feng Rong's eyes were a little empty, "Actually, I don't mind Luo Cheng treating me as an experimental subject. In some ways, he made me what I am now, but..."
But sometimes he would think that having such ability may not be a blessing, but a curse.
His powerful ability to defy the heavens made him a hero in the supernatural world, but it also brought him the suffering that was like a shadow in his life for more than 20 years, just like those who were implicated by him, which became his motivation to climb to a high position.
Many things are double-edged swords, mixed, and no one can only get results without paying the price.
Lin Yingkong asked: "It's just what?"
Feng Rong took a deep breath and shook her head, "It's nothing, really, it's all over. I can accept all this now."
Lin Yingkong looked at him with complicated eyes, "What if someone bullies you again?"
Do you think that you deserve it?
Feng Rong smiled, "No one will bully me."
Lin Yingkong said: "No, there are still many people..."
Feng Rong interrupted him, "You won't let someone bully me, will you?"
Lin Yingkong was stunned.
Feng Rong smiled, the curve of the corners of her mouth was very relaxed, and the smile on her face was very moving, "I believe you won't let me suffer a loss, right, Yingkong?"
Lin Yingkong couldn't help but reach out to touch the smile on the corner of his mouth. His movements were very light, as if he was afraid of breaking a beautiful dream. He murmured: "You are right, I won't let anyone bully you anymore."
Perhaps in the eyes of many people, Feng Rong is stronger than him, has a higher status than him, and has more power than he has, and it seems that there is nothing to impress him.
But only Lin Yingkong knew that Feng Rong had too much experience and had not finished it in half a lifetime, but seemed to have suffered all his life. He was so strong and fragile, and only Lin Yingkong could stand in front of him and block all the suffering for him.
Apart from him, who else can let Feng Rong put down his defense, put down his weapons, put down his mask, and reveal his soft inner body?
...
downstairs.
Di Bingqiao changed a bottle of drip for Sun Bingbing, and then went to cook some noodles for Cheng Xiaodai and Ding Youlan as a midnight snack.
Ding Youlan was using real-time satellite maps to search for abnormalities nearby. Xiaodai originally wanted to help Di Bingqiao, but Sun Bingbing had not woken up, so he went to Ding Youlan as an assistant.
Di Bingqiao's skills are not good, but Ding Youlan and Cheng Xiaodai still gave him a clean meal.
It was late at night and the work was boring and boring. The three of them sat together and started chatting casually.
"That's right..." Cheng Xiaodai suddenly thought of something, "When he talked about those children bullying Sun Bingbing, the Lord's expression was a bit strange."
Sir Jue is the title given to Nangong Jue by those fans, and he is quite domineering. Members of the field team of the General Office would occasionally shout this.
Ding Youlan was not surprised, "Nangong Jue's life in an orphanage was not good when he was a child."
Cheng Xiaodai was a little puzzled, "Is the orphanage really that bad?"
"No, most orphanages are not bad. At most, there is a lack of some standardized management," Ding Youlan said seriously, "but the Lord is so beautiful."
Di Bingqiao thought for a while, "Isn't this a good thing? Actually, I didn't understand why he was so good-looking, so why wasn't he adopted?"
Ding Youlan scratched his cheeks, "It's because he's so good-looking that the staff of the orphanage may treat him preferentially, and he will definitely be excluded and isolated by other children. Judging from the situation I found out, three families wanted to adopt him at that time, but they were all destroyed by other children. Later, the Lord was unwilling to be adopted by others, so he stayed in the orphanage."
"No family has successfully taken him away?" Cheng Xiaodai was also surprised.
"Uh..." Ding Youlan was a little reluctant to speak but stopped.
Cheng Xiaodai saw it and asked: "It really happened? What happened later?"
Di Bingqiao didn't want to gossip about Nangong Jue's **, but Ding Youlan's expression caught her attention.
When they were staring straight at each other, Ding Youlan was a little embarrassed and whispered: "Actually, he was adopted by two families, but both were returned. One family was pregnant because their mistress was pregnant, and the other family... The male owner saw that he was so beautiful. You know, the appearance of the Lord, who didn't grow up when he was a child, was similar to a little girl..."
Ding Youlan expressed it a little vaguely, but Di Bingqiao and Cheng Xiaodai understood it, showing a terrifying expression on his face.
Seeing that they understood, Ding Youlan coughed dryly, "So that's it... The male owner of that family has volunteered several times in the orphanage. The other children may have discovered something. When he said he wanted to adopt a little boy, he pushed the Lord out..."
Cheng Xiaodai had a cold war, "What should I do? I dare not look at the child directly..."
Di Bingqiao's mouth twitched, "You are a child yourself."
Xiaodai hugged her head, "But I have rarely seen such a terrible child before--"
Although the field team of the General Office has taken on many tasks and is related to children, overall, the probability of children being criminals is relatively small, and they often play the role of saving children.
Ding Youlan said: "Most of the children are still relatively innocent, but the children we have met recently are negative teaching materials."
Di Bingqiao sighed, "I always feel that there are more and more naughty kids nowadays."
Ding Youlan pondered, "It's just a problem of family education. Parents cannot set an example. Behind every naughty child, the parents are the bears."
Chapter completed!