The two usually don't come to the playground for a walk.

Because there are too many people on the playground, Xia Xin is not used to such crowded places. There will be many people watching the two of them. Usually they will watch Shu Yuewu first and then pay attention to him. Occasionally there will be people who disdain, and occasionally there will be people who show their expression of "flowers are placed on cow dung". In short, there will be many people who pay attention to him. Xia Xin is not used to it, and he is not used to being close to Shu Yuewu in such crowded places.

This is why he didn't kiss him last time and was bitten by Shu Yuewu.

So the two usually choose some people with few or even no one to go

If it were someone else, Shu Yuewu would still think that this person was planning to take him to a place where no one was, and do something quietly. But if Xia Xin said nothing, he would never do anything.

Therefore, Shu Yuewu didn't mind where to go.

Sometimes she even thought that even if she took off her naked and stood in front of him, he wouldn't do anything.

It is precisely because of this reason that she believed Xia Xin that he would not have anything to do with that senior sister at all.

Of course, we still have to get angry when we pull and pull.

Until Xia Xinyi calmly asked to go to the playground to stroll, this surprised her.

She keenly realized that something had changed on Xia Xin.

"Yeah? Why don't you leave?"

Xia Xin looked at Shu Yuewu who had stopped in confusion.

Shu Yuewu looked at Xia Xinyi deeply, shook her head and said, "It's okay."

It was already past 9 o'clock in the evening, and there were indeed a lot of couples walking on the playground.

By night, the places where couples are most densely distributed in the school are the playground and the woods.

The playground is used to do things that can be done in broad daylight, while the woods behind the school are used to do things that are ashamed of secrets among couples.

The two of them walked slowly on the playground. Xia Xinyi was walking straight ahead, while Shu Yuewu lowered her head, eating ice cream and thinking about Xia Xin's affairs.

After a while, I heard Xia Xin ask, “Are you cold?”

Shu Yuewu replied with a cold voice without raising her head, "Do you want to say that you are also very cold, so let's go back to the dormitory to keep warm."

"Please, where do you want to go."

"It seems like you haven't done it."

Logically speaking, the normal routine should be that the boy asks the girl if she is cold. The girl nodded shyly and said, "Somewhat."

Then the boy took off his coat and put it on the girl, and said gently, "Be careful, don't get frozen."

Then the two of them walked on a sweet road.

And when it comes to Xia Xin, it is like the situation last time.

Xia Xin asked, "Are you cold?"

Shu Yuewu nodded delicately, "A little."

Then Xia Xin moved the coat he was wearing, and Shu Yuewu was thinking about the wood being enlightened.

Hearing the zipper of the jacket, Shu Yuewu deliberately said with a reserved sentence, "No need, you will be cold if you take it off."

"I took it off? I didn't."

Shu Yuewuyi looked up and saw Xia Xin tighten her coat, zippered her coat, sealed her neck, hugged her arm and said, "Indeed, I'm quite cold, let's go back to the dormitory early."

Even though he had bitten it, Shu Yuewu wanted to take a few more bites of the meat on Xia Xin's body just by looking back.

"Please, I see you wearing so little, I'm afraid you will catch a cold."

Xia Xin said as he put his hand on Shu Yuewu's shoulder and asked Shu Yuewu to lean against him.

This surprised Shu Yuewu even more. Will Xia Xin take the initiative to be intimate?

Also choose to come to the playground?

Didn’t you do something wrong to me again?

Shu Yuewu is deeply suspicious of this.

Xia Xin looked ahead and didn't think much about it. He just took a walk with Shu Yuewu.

If you have to say why this change occurs, it is related to what Yan Mei said before.

At that time, talking to Yan Meiyi made Xia Xin suddenly understand a lot, and understand what his father often said, "Because you are a man." The specific meaning of this sentence, and also understand the father's true expectations, and of course, the mother's expectations.

To put it more deeply, it is the so-called "love".

Father’s love and mother’s love!

Now when I recalled the scattered childhood situation, Xia Xin understood that his parents bet on him a lot of love and expectations.

When my father was angry, it was anger that he was so angry that he could only use clumsy expressions. Fortunately, my mother was very gentle and made up for this point.

It is the parents' expectations, or the love of parents, that gave Xia Xin confidence, motivation, and the courage to face it calmly.

Since junior high school, Xia Xinyi has been a child without parents, and it has been 6 years like this.

No one knows how he survived it.

Only he knows how much children without parents are discriminated against, how unwelcome are, and how difficult they are every day.

At the same time, he had to force his face to smile and take care of his sister so as not to make her sad.

Anyone who hasn't experienced these will never understand.

Xia Xinyi has been suffering from the cold eyes and shirks from relatives, ridicule and disdain from classmates, and the indifference and discrimination of teachers, and has suffered a lot of unfair treatment, and has experienced all the sadness and coldness and coldness, and has endured it through hardships.

He has to take on all the things on his own, and no one can help him.

It is not easy to grow up in this environment just to maintain your own personality and personality and ensure that you do not go wrong.

As for what you say in any cruel environment, you must maintain confidence, courage, self-confidence, face difficulties bravely, strive to achieve success, and shock others, these chicken soup words that are just used by the "bricks" who stand and speak without back pain to fool people.

It's always easier to say than to do.

People who have never experienced it will not understand how difficult it is to live every day.

If other people live in the world, Xia Xin lives next to hell, and his environment is very cruel.

What he can do to the greatest extent is to protect himself, follow his father's wishes, take care of the remaining sisters, treat others gently according to his mother's wishes, do not steal, rob, cheat, and do not do bad things, ensure that his self exists, do not be ignorant of his conscience, raise his chest and raise his head, and do not be humble or arrogant.

The biggest motivation that supported him to survive in the past was to make money and work hard to cure his sister's illness.

No matter how calm he looks, his heart is also gloomy, but he is good at hiding and suppressing, and never reveals it.

He is even a little inferior and lacks confidence. Even if he is measured by common standards in the world, he can be regarded as an outstanding young man with an annual income of one million. This cannot make up for the confidence and confidence he lost because of his lack of parents.

He has nothing!

Not only material things, but not even talent.

He has no talent for learning, his academic performance cannot be improved, and his memory is not particularly good.

He has no talent for work, his job is just ordinary, he uses his hard work to exchange for rewards, and he is not even much stronger than others.

As for the shooting talent similar to Chen Dong, which surprised the photography teachers, Zeng Jun's talent to easily make girls happy, etc., he has nothing.

Yes, reality is not a fairy tale, and hard work will definitely lead to results. While God closes your door, he will definitely open another door for you.

He really has nothing, and he has no expectations, trust, or attention.

In this case, as long as you are not stupid, you will definitely feel something about your situation. As for the confidence and confidence, it will be strange if you have it. Where do you get the confidence and confidence? Who can you compare with?

You are not afraid of comparing goods, you are afraid of comparing people.

From childhood to adulthood, no one has had any expectations for Xia Xin.

No one expects him to do anything.

The teacher does not expect him to achieve results, and most of the ideas are to not cause trouble for himself. It would be a blessing to recruit criticism from the principal.

The classmates either ignore him or mock him, and insist on saying their expectations for him, hoping that this wild child without parents will do something funny to make himself happy.

The working boss and colleagues don’t expect his thin body to do anything, or he doesn’t expect him, an uneducated junior high school student, to do anything.

No expectations!

This also made Xia Xinyi Guan’s idea just be plain and unobtrusive.

He has no confidence or confidence either.

So, what he often says is that without expectations, there will be no disappointment.

No one has expectations of him, nor does he have expectations of anyone, so he will not be disappointed or hurt.

This is Xia Xin's self-protection.

It is like a bird breaking out of the shell. In order to protect itself and not be harmed by the outside world, it actively retracts into the shell, does not contact other birds, and does not intend to fly in the blue sky.

What he has to do is do what he should do and take good care of his remaining family. This is the only belief in his life!

If a psychologist analyzes it, you will understand that Xia Xin's situation is a typical lack of care, no love, no confidence, no confidence, and even inferiority hidden deep in his heart.

It is already difficult to maintain oneself alone.

But he understood from Yan Mei.
To be continued...