"Because I love you." Xu Xiaoqing did not avoid Ye Lingtian at all, nor did she dodge at all, and directly raised her head to look at Ye Lingtian.

Ye Lingtian still chose to hide when he looked at Xu Xiaoqing's eyes as hot as he had been more than ten years ago. He did not dare to look at Xu Xiaoqing's eyes, but chose to bury his head and drink.

"I have never forgotten you for so many years. I still love you in my heart for so many years. I can tell you with certainty that Xu Xiaoqing has only loved one man in my life. This man is you, Ye Lingtian. In the past, now, and in the future, I am such a person. I have recognized something, and even I can't change it myself. Love is even more like this. From the day I fell in love with you, I knew that either I got you or I will be destroyed in your hands in my life, because I know that I will never forget you again, and I will never fall in love with a man other than you again." Xu Xiaoqing continued, still looking at Ye Lingtian with a hot look.

"Ling Tian, ​​you can't not know about these things. You know more than anyone else how crazy and enthusiastic I loved you. I can say without hesitation that if I could, I would die for you without hesitation. I wouldn't even blink. This is me, love is so humble and love is so reckless. I am just a moth. Once I recognize the flame of love, I will hug the flames without hesitation, even if I know that I will be burned completely."

"Later... I don't want to say more about what happened later. You and I understand in your heart that I love the humble love, the persistent love, the selfless love, but I don't want to lose my dignity as a human being, and I don't want to lose the friendship that I value the most. So, I chose to leave, but even if I leave, I can't forget you. I can't convince me not to think about you, I don't love you, nor can I control myself from going back to Donghai to see you. In addition to the pressure from my parents, I finally made up my heart. At that time, I lived in pain and torture, and I almost chose to commit suicide because my life was worse than death. So, my parents forced me to go on a blind date. In the end, I chose a way that was almost self-destructive and even self-harm. I agreed to that

A man I have no favors at all got married. This is a kind of self-harm and a crazy act made after extremely distorted psychology. At the beginning, it was completely this violent emotion. After calming down, because I had already agreed to the other party, I couldn't take back what I said. On the other hand, I decided not to take it back because I think this may be the only way I can forget you to live your own life, that is, find another man to marry, form a family and have children. After a long time, I will naturally forget you, be able to find yourself and be happy. So in the end, I insisted on choosing a lightning-like marriage, which is why I got married."

"But I was still wrong. Even after getting married, I still can't forget you. My body belongs to another man, but my heart has never left you, never for a moment. Therefore, I was not happy in that marriage, and I never had it. Even if he didn't choose to treat me like that in the end, I was never happy because I didn't love him at all, because you were the only one in my heart."

"If you ask me why I know that Chen Jun is a good man but I am not with him, then I will give you a reason. The first reason is what I just said, I have you in my heart, and I can't explain him. Even now, I still can't force myself to accept a marriage without love. This kind of marriage without love is like finding a sexual partner. The relationship between the two is limited to physical intersection, and there is no spiritual intersection between the two, just like my first

The same is true for a marriage. In the first marriage, I chose to force myself, but in the end I felt very uncomfortable. I was not doing well, so this time I couldn't force myself to accept this marriage without love again. The second reason is that I don't want to get married. I may be because my own psychological trauma has been shattered and has been shadowed. I don't think marriage is a good thing, and I never think that in my opinion, marriage is synonymous with pain. It always gives people only pain, never joy and happiness. Look at my first

Duan Marriage, although I love you in my heart and I don’t love him, I am still very serious about that marriage. I am trying hard to be a good wife and mother, and trying hard to play the role I should play, but what in the end? What did I gain? If it is because we don’t love, then let’s talk about another example, you and Yuxin, you and Li Yuxin, love you and Li Yuxin to death. If there is no love between you, no one will believe it, but in the end? If you want to love so much, don’t you?

Is there still a problem of this kind? Didn’t you cheat in the end and be unfaithful to her? She was also injured and was completely useless? Ling Tian, ​​I didn’t say that I was not going to blame you. I was just saying a truth. Marriage is really not a good thing, nor is it a must-have, at least in my opinion. I think that being a person is much better than two people’s life. I don’t want to get married, and I never thought of getting married again. I’m just like this. I’ll live alone all the time.” Xu Xiaoqing said seriously.

"I didn't plan to say these words to anyone, but now, today you're here, I think I can't say it anymore. Ling Tian, ​​please go back and tell Yuxin, you can choose to tell Yuxin what I said today, or you can tell her word-of-letter. Sometimes the more I am afraid of hurting her, it will make her more uncomfortable. I don't have a prejudice against Chen Jun, nor do I don't cherish her kindness to me. I just don't want to get married, and I really don't want this marriage anymore. I admit that I live a very stressful life now, but this is the life I chose. I don't think I am so sad and pitiful. Let Yuxin stop taking care of these marriages for me in the future. I'm just alone.
Chapter completed!