Chapter 360 I have endured it, but I have never retreated!

"Silly girl..." I lent my chest to Ziyuan because I knew that she cried and stroked her head. My anger was even more intense, but my anger towards Ziyuan was gone, and all that was left was heartache and pity. "You are right, I'm wrong, I'm sorry, Xiao Zi, in the past five years, I have always forced myself to forget you. I don't know whether you are living a good or bad life. I don't know how much suffering you have suffered and how much sin you have suffered..."

Zi Yuan hugged my waist tightly, and his head pressed against my chest hard, "Stop talking! Xiaonan, I beg you, stop talking!"

"No, I want to say," How can I not say what I have been holding back for five years? How can I not say what happened last night? "I have been wrong for five years, but I will not be wrong again in the future. I will take care of you, care about you, and I will bear everything you have worked hard to bear..."

"No need!" Zi Yuan pushed me away, her pretty face was already full of pear blossoms, "The things I undertake are not something you can afford! Xiaonan, you can't be so cunning! I don't want you to be pitiful, don't want you to sympathize! So, don't give me a reason to forgive you! I don't want to listen to your explanation! If I hadn't had these five years of resentment, I wouldn't have been able to forgive myself last night, and I would have no shame to live anymore!"

"I can't afford it now. I work hard for five, ten, twenty years! I always have a day to take it! That's my responsibility! I'm not taking it for you, but for myself, so don't say sympathy or pitiful!" I unreasonably pulled Zi Yuan back into my arms. I was afraid that she would leave without saying goodbye again. I had this premonition, "You don't need to forgive me, because I made an unforgivable mistake, and don't say that I have no face to live. Whether you have that face should be decided by me. I didn't blame you, and you are no longer alone, because, since last night, you have been my woman, and I am your man, and you are living for me now."

Zi Yuan stopped struggling, she let me hug her quietly, then gently hugged my waist, and sobbed in a low voice: "Xiao Nan, you are really too macho, like a child..."

"Childish?" I smiled faintly, "It doesn't matter, this is my faith, the way I live."

"Can I really rely on you?" Zi Yuan cried sadly and laughed bitterly, "What should I do if Miss Cheng? What should Mr. Mo do? What should I do if Officer Dong?"

I didn't know... men are such simple animals. When they are handsome, they never thought so much. In the face of the responsibilities they should bear, we will not consider that there is actually a conflict between this responsibility and the responsibility they are already carrying. Even if we think about it, we will only say to ourselves: Let's take it on our shoulders first. Who makes the conflict between this responsibility and that responsibility is also a responsibility that we should bear...

"You haven't thought about it, right?" Zi Yuan knew me so much. She grabbed my waist and used her strength hard. She pinched me so hard that it hurt. I didn't say anything because I knew she was venting the grievances and touching in her heart. "Xiao Nan, I hate your tenderness. You have been a fickle ghost since you were a child. Now you are even more aggressive. You obviously want me to be the fourth child, but you say so sensational and touched me. If I really depend on you, what should you do?"

I didn't answer because I didn't know the answer. Some things are destined to take one step at a time. "I've been fickle since I was a child? No? I remember that I never got close to other girls until you went abroad..."

"Why didn't there?" Zi Yuan looked at me in confusion, full of ambiguous smile, "There is a little girl who is more attached to you than me. You are closer to her than me, and we are always jealous of this."

Chu Yuan?!

If it were the past, I would have taken it as a joke and laughed it off. But when I thought of the words Dongfang said in the morning, I felt so shocked that I didn't know how to control my expression. Fortunately, Zi Yuan didn't pay attention to my face and slowly retreated from my arms and said softly: "Xiao Nan, I said that I have been waiting for your reply for five years, but now I won't make you embarrassed. I can't tell you many things, but you must have guessed one thing right - someone wants you to be responsible for me..."

"But you won't tell me who that person is, right?"

Zi Yuan nodded, "You are too weak now. You don't have the capital to fight with that person, so I beg you not to go to the Mo family, don't try to dig out that person, otherwise, you are definitely yourself, in the eyes of that person, you are just a small existence, and his purpose has been achieved. I think he has no interest in wasting time on you again..."

"His purpose is to see me abandon you or take responsibility?"

Zi Yuan looked at me in surprise, "He just wants to see one result, it doesn't matter which one... Xiaonan, you are very smart, but you shouldn't be so smart, otherwise it will only arouse his interest in continuing to deal with you!"

If my idea is true, then the choice I make in the end is indeed not important to that person. What is important is that both results are acceptable to him. I smiled. I grew up so old that I felt like this for the first time - I was extremely angry, but I smiled proudly, laughing at the person who plotted against me and underestimated me!

It was the first time that I was used to being low-key that I had a desire to stop. It was not because that person underestimated me and plotted against me, but because he underestimated me, and in order to plot against me, he used Zi Yuan and hurt Zi Yuan! That bastard actually regarded Zi Yuan as a chess piece, which was the most unacceptable thing I could not accept!

"My dad often says, "I endure the situation for a while, and take a step back and the sky is wide open. I have endured it, but I have never retreated, because my dad also said that people can live ordinary life and low-key life, but they cannot live without backbone!" I wiped off the tears on Zi Yuan's face and said, "I will tell that person with actions that he is wrong. It doesn't matter if you don't tell me who he is. I will dig him out by myself!"

"Don't be stupid, okay? He is not an ordinary person. What do you use to fight him?"

The more feared Zi Yuan was, the more vigorous I was fighting spirit, and I said word by word: "The backbone of a man!"

"Can backbone be eaten? Can backbone be spent as money?! I didn't understand before, but now I understand more than you. I have experienced too much in the past five years and have seen through too much. Xiaonan, the world is unfair. We are living, not fighting, and it is useless to have backbone. In the face of the embarrassment of reality, the word backbone is really too naive and insignificant," Zi Yuan burst into tears, held my hand tightly, smiled, coaxed, and said gently: "Xiaonan, I don't need you to be responsible to me. No matter how you view me now, you must have liked me before, right? You don't hate me, right? I gave you my first time, and we only had one more memory, but we didn't lose anything, right?"

"You have lost! Not only your body, but also your dignity of living!"

Zi Yuan was stunned, and then she cried again, "I don't have to vent your anger for me! You have always been like this. You can tolerate your own affairs, but if the people around you are wronged, you can't tolerate them at once. Why can't you be deceived by me once? Xiaonan, I beg you, if you really do it for me, can you tolerate this time?"

"No, Xiao Zi, man, some things are unbearable."

"I'm not worthy of your doing this! Xiaonan, please don't be stupid, okay? I voluntarily give you the body. I'm reserved and dignified. I'm throwing it away myself. It has nothing to do with that person. If you fight with him, you won't get anything!"

“Volunteering?”

"Yes, I voluntarily!" Zi Yuan said guiltily: "This is a fair exchange of interests. I did those things to you as they asked, and then they gave me what I wanted, but I still made a profit because I never felt that sleeping with you was just a pity!"

I don't know if I should believe Zi Yuan, but that obviously isn't the most important thing, "What's next? In order not to destroy my relationship with Liusu, you will leave again without saying goodbye and disappear from my eyes, right?"

Zi Yuan's expression told me that I was right, and at the same time, I knew that my impulse could no longer be curbed. I turned around and walked towards the door. Zi Yuan suddenly hugged my waist from behind, "Don't go! I won't leave, I promise you, I won't leave!"
Chapter completed!