Chapter 763: Who am I?

Zhang Xiaobao and Wang Juan had just eaten two boiled dumplings with their family members before, and clinked glasses with their grandfather and father to drink a glass of wine. Before they could wait for the bell to ring, the palace's decree came down.

"Let's go to Furong Garden? What have you done long ago?" Xiaobei complained, and suddenly his eyes turned again, and he said to Xiaoyuan, who had been following him, "How much New Year's money do you think we can get to pay New Year's greetings this time?"

Xiaoyuan was confused. Everything seemed to be messy during the New Year. Countless people in the mansion were swaying like a lantern, and they were obviously not used to the noisy.

When Xiaoyuan heard Xiaobei ask, he said in a daze: "At least one hundred cents."

"Why are we so worthless? I will come to the place to listen to me later. I have to pay New Year's greetings to us. We will throw us out one hundred thousand yuan. When we wish others a happy New Year, who dares to lose this number? I think about it in my mind, hum!"

Bei Bei decided to use the final killer move, throwing the money first, and then collecting the money.

"It's not a business. During the Chinese New Year, everyone wants to be happy. Unfortunately, Xiaoji, Xiaoxiang, Xiaoru, Xiaoyi, and they are too young. Xiaohong can run away just now. I'm worried about whether to make a fake ear for her.

You said that if she didn't do it, she was born without ears and it was difficult to listen to the sound. If she did it, would she think we looked down on her without ears? Otherwise, why would she have to put an ear on her? If it weren't for the impulse to accept her as her sister, wouldn't she have to consider these things?"

Xiaoyuan said to Xiaobei as he followed the team out.

Zhang Fang next to him took the conversation and said, "It's not an impulse, it's the right decision. For example, I, my brother and Zhang Qiang, who are the original mountaineering people in Luzhou. If our father hadn't accepted him as his adopted son, would it be so easy for a mountaineering people to go down the mountain?

And my brother and I, the two of us are the children of our adopted father, from the entire Yizhou... That ethnic minority will always be at ease. In fact, my brother and I know that everyone who adopts the adoptive father is chosen, and we are chosen just because we are about the same age and are our luck.

Xiaohong is also our sister without ears, one of the Tang Dynasty inspectors. Let’s see who dares to look down on children with physical defects in the Tang Dynasty? Didn’t you see that your brother and sister acquiesce?”

"It makes sense." Xiaoyuan nodded. Many times he had political purposes when doing things. Of course, when he first took Hong'er, he didn't think of the political significance. He just looked pitiful and had no ears, so why didn't he have the right to live.

Thinking of Hong'er, Xiaoyuan also remembered the original chief clerk and the woman, and asked, "Where is the chief clerk at that time, where is Hong'er's mother?"

"I don't know." Xiao Bei also remembered, and she turned to look at the maid.

The maids are not easy to do. In addition to serving the young ancestors, they also have to remember many things, and even help out suggestions at critical moments. Any maids from Zhang and Wang families can be used as county magistrates if they release any of them.

"The chief clerk has become a civilian. He has built dozens of acres of land at home to plant it. I heard that he is not very energetic. Sometimes he mutters "Hong'er" in his spare time. Hong'er's mother and the family of two young ladies are doing business together, and it is not under our jurisdiction.

It was the young lady who ordered that if a relative treats another relative as a hand, it would be an insult to both at the same time and that he must be allowed to act, and the young master also agreed.

They opened a tea shop on Chang'an Street, Beijing, South Street in Wubenfang. The place is very good and the place is very good. My family has put in the effort to arrange it. Now, the tea from all over the Tang Dynasty is sold. As long as the young master and the young lady get new tea, they must put it in the tea shop first.

Fermented tea, semi-fermented tea, green tea, flower tea, in terms of variety, what ordinary people can drink is the most complete, with more than a thousand jin of net income every month."

"Ah? So much? I'm not saying that they make a lot of money, I'm saying how can a tea shop have so much profit?" Xiao Bei said in surprise.

"Because their tea is all genuine tea." The maid replied.

"That's right, when we go to see it tonight, we're going to see it. Xiaofang, do you miss home? Brother Zhang Qiang had already seen his family when he returned to Luzhou. You haven't been back for a long time."

Xiao Bei suddenly thought of this problem. She felt that if she had let her leave her brother and sister for too long, she would have thought very much.

Zhang Fang thought about it for a while and said, "I also thought, but we lived here very well. I forgot what my father and mother look like. When I was going to go north to train troops, let's take a detour and let's go home and take a look."

Then he sighed and said, "If we hadn't been paying attention to the baby candy houses in various places, I would not even have outlined the appearance of my hometown. At that time, family estimates were a kind of transaction.

Before the Tang Dynasty implemented the education obligation system and the full supply of welfare, there were more people who gave their children. If they said they were given, they were actually a kind of sale, but the price was very low, with a few eggs, a knife of meat, and even nothing needed, as long as the other party promised not to harm the child.

All of this is because of poverty, even my family cannot resist such temptation and give you children. You will naturally have to take care of the entire family.

My brother and I are bargaining chips on both sides of the scale. The Tang Dynasty needs the loyalty of my tribe and my tribe needs the welfare of the Tang Dynasty. But as a bargaining chip, I have no regrets at all. I have a group of brothers and sisters. If I want, I can have dinner with the Emperor of the Tang Dynasty every day. I can let the beloved brother Xiaobao and sister Juanjuan of the Tang Dynasty hold me.

The clan leader of the family should never expect such glory. What I need to think about now is how to face the clan members in the future. It is very troublesome. Who made my identity different?”

"That's right, I never thought that I was born with this identity. It was so scary. I always wanted to live the life of ordinary children from the Tang Dynasty, but I was always unsuccessful. Haven't we ever met the children of other big families? They were all so arrogant. As a result, they asked them how the chicken lay eggs, and they didn't know how many eggs were weighed per pound.

What is the meaning of living like that? According to the story told by my brother, it is called elite education. The elite just don’t know that the usual seven to nine eggs are a pound? I don’t know whether eleven eggs can be weighed out with new crotch, or whether it is better for brothers and sisters to teach us everything from the most basic sprinkling of farm fertilizer to the upper-level political struggle.

I dreamed that day, I thought, who am I? I don’t seem to be myself. I am one of my brothers and sisters at home. Then I have to study and show it to my parents. When I am external, I am a diplomat, responsible for handling various external communications. I was born in the Zhang family, and what I did is not my own.

This autumn, I saw a child in Luzhou picking rice ears during holidays. I helped him pick them up. He complained that he usually had to go to school, listen to his parents at home, and help him do the work in the fields during holidays. There was only half an hour a day when he played for himself.

Ha, then I felt very happy. He could only play for half an hour a day. It turned out that I was not myself. A few days ago, I thought that many adults do things during the day, come back to cook at night, and see the children. Do they not belong to themselves? Who are they? I can’t figure it out."

Xiaobei followed Xiaofang's words, and the more he spoke, the more he became more and more slanted. At the end, he became silent.

Obviously, philosophical matters are not suitable for children to think about, even if they have heard too many stories.

The road is unobstructed, and the Zhang and Wang families have this appeal. No matter how many people gather on the road, they will immediately get out of the way when they see the car of the Zhang and Wang families. The people will not need to honk any horns. Those who have lost the people will walk with bayonets and throw eggs, and they will hide.

Even the guards were very relaxed. When passing by, the people would help look at both sides. No one would rush forward. If someone really wanted to complain, he would just find a deal between Zhang and Wang families. At this time, the reason for complaining was too bad and no one believed it.

When I arrived at Furong Garden, it was already the fourth day of the year. My ears were buzzing, and the sound of firecrackers were all the sounds of lyrics. The stage built by Furong Garden was echoed with "popular" songs written by unknown people.

After a while, the sound of firecrackers in Furong Garden stopped. Xiao Bei let go of his hand that blocked his ears and said depressedly: "I said why the sound is so loud? It turns out that it was specially set for us. Uncle the emperor is really idle. See how much New Year's money he gives me, hum!"

Zhang Xiaobao was also shocked and his eyes were circling. The power of gunpowder was visible. He walked forward to pull his younger brother and sister.

"Brother, ask me something." Xiao Bei stretched out his hand and asked his brother to pull it, and said, "Do you think you are yourself? Are you alive for yourself? Are you tired?"

Zhang Xiaobao was stunned, and Wang Juan next to him was also stunned. At the same time, the two of them were a little worried, because many suicides had thought that the process of life was too simple and that they had already seen everything running away, and life and death were no longer important.

After stopping, Zhang Xiaobao thought about it and said for a while: "I'm tired. Many times I feel that my existence is meaningless. I wear a mask of hypocrisy all day long and say insincere words. Sometimes I even want to end my life.

That day I had a dream of my death, and then I found that many people cried again. You cry, our parents cried, and even His Majesty cried, and then spread to the entire Tang Dynasty. At that time, the Tang Dynasty seemed to have lost its soul, full of sadness.

I couldn't understand. What did it have to do with others when I died alone? Then, the sound of chains sounded, and I saw the cow head and horse face. The two "people" were crying there, and their throats were hoarse.

I wondered, I told them that we met again, that, I seemed to have seen them before, but it was too long and I was a little forgotten. I said, what happened to you two? I am sick? I have to treat it, I can't delay it.

They immediately knelt down and smashed the ground with their heads. The bullhead spoke first, "Why are you here again? Didn't you agree last time? If you don't mess with us for a hundred years, why don't you keep your word?" I said it's boring to live, so why would you die?

Mamong then said, "Why is it boring? Look at how many people cried when you died? So many people need you. You are better than me and NiuTou. No one wants to see us. You are always happy. Do you know?"

I said that's not what I mean. I mean I'm too tired to live, I don't have my own time, I can't even take a break. I might as well die. If you disturb me less, I'll be happier.

'Is it you disturbing us? You don't plan to make the underworld peaceful? Do you know that you don't do this? You also have to reason. If you are tired, you don't care about others. Find a quiet place to fish, touch shrimps, farm, and make flowers. Are you not tired?'

This was said by Niu Tou. At first, I made a lot of sense, but then I thought, no one knew me anymore. What's the point of living? So I said no, others have to know me.

Then they came up with an idea and said it was simple and printed what you did in the newspaper every day to show you, but you can't disturb you after reading it.

I agreed, and I was still alive after hearing their words. After three days, I was always upset. I told others about my affairs, but I gave me some feedback. Do you think I am a transparent person? I don’t live anymore, and no one cares about me. What’s the point of living?

then……."

"So brother, you saw the cow head and horse face again, and they knelt down for you again, right? They are quite tenacious. If I were them, I would bother to give up. You are too troublesome."

Before Zhang Xiaobao could finish speaking, Xiaobei had already thought of the answer.

"Okay, I understand. Actually, I am not living for myself. I really can't survive. I need others to identify with me, and I also need to see my decision to change other people's lives. Why? Then you have to see who I am and who I am. I am Zhang Xiaobei. My existence is a symbol. My name will inevitably become a legend. The kind that shivers when I hear it."

"Let's go, let others tremble first, and ask for New Year's money. Who dares to give it less today? After the New Year, I will listen to his family's welfare." Zhang Xiaobao waved his hand and took a big step towards Li Longji's journey. Behind him was a group of children who were about to become legends.

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Chapter completed!